When
Love
Is not
Madness
It
Is not
Love

And someone
I didn't know
Taught me more
About how to be
Myself

I used to think
about traveling the world
searching for a happy place to go

but then I've met this girl
and realized
I'm in the happiest place I could be,
in a relationship between you and me.

I want to pull away from this. From you. I want to just stop and act like we never got close. I want to act like you never became my rock. I want to pretend like you don't know how to make me smile
or laugh when I don't want to. I want to do this because I am afraid. Afraid of falling in love with you even when I know you would never feel the same in return. Afraid to get my heart broken. Afraid to once again get hurt. Afraid to put my faith in someone else. I am so afraid.

In this world you're either happy or sad there's no in between

i remember i had
friends

i lost them all

i remember people
had trust

now it's all
about being
to themselves

i've had so many lucky
days

now things go down
down