Sometimes I want to curl up and cry. This is one of those times.
I don't always know why Maybe there isn't a "why". Maybe my body just needs to feel an emotion. Any emotion. Maybe the sadness is just residual. From past disappointments Past grievances Past conversations Or just the past in general.
Sometimes I need to reset. This is one of those times.
The reason why I am shivering on a hot summer's day? My mind is screaming, begging for a calm that I cannot reach. The wails inside rattle me. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired.
Rain drops Falling in my head Releasing their Kinetic flow As they fly From my mind I am free to Fly from the rain Fly free from My trouble As I float in The sky I Know that Everything Will be fine As the raindrops Fall on my head The rain can be Nourishing too After a long draught A strong rain can be A good thing Sometimes we have To let a little rain Fall in our lives To truly get ourselves Clean and wash The grime away from the day
Every day feels like an obstacle. And I'm lost with every expression you make silently. We notice each others indifferences but never speak on them. We strike out of luck with every passing glance and every failed attempt to fall in love. But I want to fall in love. And so do you. I hope. I think. I'm not sure. And so we're hard to love when being revealed to vulnerability. And I could carve out my heart just for you to carve out yours. And we'd just be staring at each other unable to accept the responsibility of our hearts sensibility. And fighting is pointless because neither of us want to be the reason for pain. And we blur passive words like, "it's for your sake" or "I just don't want you to get hurt." When in reality we both know what we mean. Because our indifferences are our similarities. And in reality we just don't want to be hurt. So we make ourselves hard to love. Because maybe one day our worth will contribute to our happiness and not just for others. But for us. And one day we'll be able to feel that tingle in our skin when we touch. But for now I'm hard to love. And your scared of falling in love.
i have learned so much of myself i have learned of my mistakes my failures & faults. i've been reacquainted with myself i have learned of my greatness my kindness & love. i still have much of myself left to give but i need to give those wonders to myself only. only i can appreciate my full self only i can love my full self until otherwise proven.
all i knew of you then was your casual smirk, kind sparkling eyes your attractive accent & adorable laugh but i walked away then & now here you are & i want to know you this time around god, id love to know you