Sometimes
I lie awake at night
Thinking
About you
Wondering
If you ever do the same

I lie awake by my phone all night
Waiting for a call that'll never come

I sit up at night and wonder,

Was it worth it?


Of one thing I'm sure,

It wasn't and I feel like ****.

I will never understand
How easily you forgot me

the women of the past keep
phoning.
there was another yesterday
arrived from out of
state.
she wanted to see
me.
I told her
"no."

I don't want to see
them,
I won't see them.
it would be
awkward
gruesome and
useless.

I know some people who can
watch the same movie
more than
once.

not me.
once I know the
plot
once I know the
ending
whether it's happy or
unhappy or
just plain
dumb,
then

for me
that movie is
finished
forever
and that's why
I refuse
to let
any of my
old movies play
over and over again
for
years.

My mind is an ocean
And I'm drowning

When I was with you
None of the heartbroken love songs made sense
Now that we went our separate ways
That changed as well