I am a product of God's omnipresence
Of His mercy and His forgiveness
Of his salvation and his protection

I have a duty
My purpose is to be a beacon of light
Follow me
Because God eradicates all darkness
And I walk with Him

His brightness has shone on me
my blood was saved by Him
I am grateful for my life
Because God has given me breath

In the caves he spoke to us
He said do not lose hope
Believe in me
In me you will live forever
In him I live forever

i’m trying to smile today
so far it’s going okay
yesterday hurt
my heart got burnt

but today,
so far,
i sang in the car
and i think it’s going okay

deeply hopeless
repeatedly hopeless
quite possibly, even probably,
ultimately hopeless...

and yet, and yet, and yet
       not only hopeless.

And for that - genuine gratitude.

I have internal terror
I know not from where it came

Drives me to despair
And the edge of brain insane

But I haven't given up
I seek the secret flame

The kindness courage place
with the hidden Holy Name

Started writing how I feel, so I’d channel all this pain
Thought that maybe it would heal, all the **** inside my brain
Being lost became too real, pretending it was just a phase
No way out the doors are sealed, oh the monsters I create

I’m not proud with how I’m coping, it’s the only way I know
Substances run my emotions, welcome to the life of a broken soul
On the outside I look fine, but really that is just a show
‘Scars will heal give it time’ but life is moving way too slow

Patience ain’t a trait of mine, quickly losing all my hope
This life ain’t what I thought, wasting time is al I know
I got voices in my head, I got thoughts I can’t control
I am losing all my friends, guess I’m better on my own