I am a fighter
Because I know someday
That things will be brighter
And I will find a way

                                                        I am a lover
                                         Holding on to the possibility
                                                That I might discover
                                             A person that has virility

                                                       ­                                         I am a romantic
                                                        ­                         My desires are unwired
                                                         ­                       Trying to be sycophantic
                                                     ­                                Easily I  become sired

I am socially dislocated
My heart is devastated
Annexed from humanity
My mind is iridescent
Closing off my heart
And opening up my mind
To a new time,
That you’re no longer mine

Let’s do everything
That we said we couldn’t
Let’s love the way
We said we wouldn’t

Our mind is all we’ve got
So bare with me if I have
More than one thought of you,
Of us.

I think of you like
There’s no other thought
To think about, overthinking
So much it leaves me in doubt

I crave you like
I said I wouldn’t
I need you when really
I shouldn’t

One day I want to string together the most beautiful combinations of words
I want to woe with merely the construction of my sentences alone
Until then I’ll sputter out the half thought up phrases I create in my mind

There once was a girl and a boy
The girl opened up herself
And trusted the boy,
He broke her heart,
And she was shattered
Time went by
And she learned to trust again
Eventually he came back into her life
This time she thought she was being smart
She foolishly gave him another chance
He abused her trust,
And devastated her
She was irreversibly damaged
Now she trusts no one,
Not even herself

You stole the smile from my eyes
My sight is dimmed
My heart is hardened from your lies

Now I know how big of a nothing I am
You took my innocence
And I’ve transformed into a dam

You better be careful I’m about to overflow
My emotions are rising
I don’t want to care, but it’s hard to let go

I can’t help it I still want you
You were my first
You’re in my DNA, but I want to be someone new