The last weeks have been strange
some days felt like spring
while others felt like autumn
there were even days that felt like winter
Have we skipped summer?

I had another dream about him.
In it, someone had told him
that I loved him with all my heart.
He came to my house
rang the doorbell
I opened and he stormed in,
embracing me.
We stood there for what felt like hours
we didn't say a word.
I could feel his heartbeat
I could feel his breath
I could feel his warmth

I have never dreamt of he and I kissing
I woke up just before we were about to
I can't even imagine it while I'm awake
I love him too much to do such a thing

I met him at summercamp
he started flirting with me
I might have been shallow
because I fell for his looks at once
but after some talking
I fell for his mind
his heart
his being
his essence
his voice
everything.

It's been over a year since I last saw him
he seemed bored of me
a friend told me he usually gets bored of people
I didn't listen
and now I feel lost without him
lost without his laughter
his weird conversations
his brown eyes
his touch
his heartbeat
everything.

He asked her if she was okay
She replied with a yes.

She replied with a yes
because she was ashamed.

She was ashamed
because she didn't have the perfect life
the perfect life in her eyes.

The perfect life in her eyes
consists of safety, money and
love.

Love
something she desires greatly
but can never have.

Why you ask?
The guy asked too late.