You were my inspiration.
God is great and all, but you're so much better.
Lay down your thoughts and ideas.
I want a part of your wonderland.

© 2018 Omni Winters

Who is this being inside of me?
Why is she trying to break my true self?
Why is this unwelcome being trying to pull me from reality?
My perception hasn't been very clear these days.
The dark forces that live in my head have taken over my heart and thoughts... for now.

Seeing you is painful. This dark force wants me to forget all the good in you. I love you, but I cannot stand to love a person if my thoughts aren't clear. I cannot stand the feeling of loving someone who's over one million miles away.

The girl was in love with the moon. She would do anything to be with it. But every time she tries to catch it, it moves away.
The moon is close yet so far away. She chases the moon every night in hopes that she will one day have it, hold it, and protect it. No matter how hard she tried to reach it, the moon would get farther and farther away. With you, I don't see a difference.

I thought I had been so obvious from the start. Maybe you're just too blind to see that something good is right in front of you.
This is a waste of time. You are soon going to become
my waste of time. Why chase after something/someone if they don't make the same effort that you do? With or without glasses, you have a hard time seeing the big picture. You're blind to seeing good when it's staring you right in the face.

Seeing your face makes the knife in my heart moving ever so swiftly, making it hard to breathe. Your being is the very definition of betrayal... at least, that's what she wants me to believe.
The way you walk past me, through me like a ghost as if nothing were wrong. You're not innocent, you should be punnished for all the lies. Why should I ever believe you?
I know you're the right one. But does she know that?

Actions speak louder than words. I am a girl with the gift of writing. I am good with it all on my own. I don't need you to write me short answer responses, when I give you books. I give you books and plays. You give me short answer responses as if I'm a useless quiz you'll never see or need to know after it is done.
Is that truly the case? Or is there more? If so, why hide it?
Why hide all these 'secrets' away from someone who would keep them safe and secure?

© 2018 Omni Winters

Don't they understand?
We crave the very thing our loved ones are scared of.
"It isn't healthy! It isn't normal!
I'm concerned for you.
I'm worried about you.
Think about
what you're doing to yourself.
Do you think this is beautiful? Do you think you are beautiful? What are you going to do about this? You need help. I want to help you, let me help you. Look at what you're doing to yourself..."
Who the hell do they think they are to tell us how we should act or feel?
How would they know what we're going through?
People like us are strong. We have our goals
and intend to fight for them.
**** what they say.
I crave the unknown. I crave what others fear.
Sever my pain away and open up new
beginnings with your tool of mass destruction.

© 2018 Omni Winters

He opens up the door and finds her staring at him, furious.
"You're looking at me funny. Did I do something wrong?"
She doesn't answer him.
She continues to feel jealous and ticked off as he goes to sit next to her on the bed.

Although she had this urge to yell at him for something that wasn't his fault, she quickly moved over to his side for an aggressive hug.
She held him for 2 minutes and neither of them said a word.
All that she could say at this point was "Sorry."

The aggravation and consistency of jumping to conclusions eats away at all she ever thinks about.

'This needs to STOP. I shouldn't think so negatively and assume the worst of every situation.  I shouldn't make myself
believe all the lies I tell. I do not want to be that person
who judges everyone based on their actions.
If I don't know all the details of a situation, I should not make all of these conclusions.

What is a hypothesis without it's evidence?
Where is the logic in all of this? I have wronged someone I care about. This way of thinking is not acceptable.
Why must my brain work the way it does?
Where is the knowledge needed from those situations
you always think about so negatively?

We all have to believe something harmless will come out of
a situation we overanalyze. We must do less thinking on the ones that aren't as Idiotic as the Orange Orangutan we call a President. Let's focus on the real issues of the world, instead of just
harmless, meaningless actions from our friends,
family, and acquaintances.'

© 2018 Omni Winters