The silence is deafening
And so painful are the memories.
So damaged was I in love
The rose colored glasses masked our unpleasantries.

You have scarred me
And the nights promise pain.
You made me feel less than enough.
This shadow lurks silently as it preys on my sane.

I have become stronger now, yes
I have become wiser indeed.
The only trouble I face now
Is finding someone who gives me what I need.

Cold air remains where warm air once stayed.
I prefer your true, cold heart than your lying warm passions.
Within myself, I curl closer; within my heart, I plead silently.
He can provide more for me where you never did.
Wither to dust in this truth, for you are nothing.
See that you were never a good man.
So stop with your lies, your petty games.
I don't cry for you. I cry for myself.
Only this man catches me when I fall
And dries away my salty tears.
You are expendable and he just took your place.
Bloodshed never seemed so sweet.
The cold spot is now warm again.
Now I can breathe once more; in his arms I shall remain.
He shall keep me safe. He shall obliterate your toxic waste.
I shall grow once more. I shall be once again the queen.

Look into my eyes
What is it that you see?
Do you see inside the pain within?
Can you hear my screams of loneliness
Crying for your soul as I claw at my mind?
The darkness inside, can't you notice
How it swallows me whole
Only to consume what little strength I have?
I'm crippling, I'm fading, I'm nothing.
Perhaps you do not see these pleas.
You only see my plastered smile
And hear my cheery, soft voice.
"Everything is great," I lied.
"I'm dying on the inside, help me." I hide.

I was foolish
To believe you
I was foolish
To befriend you
You played me
Emotions and lust
You betrayed me
With lies alone
I had cared
With honest reason
You didn't see
You didn't care
I was angered
I was hurt
My temper released
Why to me
A good "friend"
Did I deserve
This cruel stabbing
You laughed and
Said "*******"
"Gladly, good riddance"
I seethed back
Aching through strength
Suffering through dreams
That was then
This is now
I am stronger
I am better
You will regret
That one day
You lost me
Maybe not today
Maybe not tomorrow
But one day
You will soon
Remember that I
Was the one
Who stuck around
Because I truly
Deeply, sincerely, cared
When that happens
I won't hesitate
To show you
That I am
Better than you

A flower only grows
When love is there
It can stretch its long stem
High into the sky
Soft, beautiful petals
Are then bright, warm and reach out
That flower is now wilting
Magnificent petals curl and dry
Its stem, its backbone bends in sadness
A flower can only grow
When love is there
But for this night and more
Love will not be there

O let me rest!
For my body cannot go.
Dusk, free me of this test
Let my dreams flow.

Intelligence has buried me,
Life's strain too strong.
I drag on day two and three.
I hear a distant lullaby song.

Care not, do I today
Of the busy crowd.
But of the sweet bed I lay,
To replace my tired frown.

Work must be done
An expanded mind to rise
Earned rest has however come.
Just let me close my wearied eyes.

First came the rain.
I stood there in ache.
She pleaded with pain;
How much more could she take?
The rain poured violently.
A shower that turned to a tempest,
Such a dark place to be.
Where a rage can grow and establish.

Rain turned to ice, I felt the sting.
So much hurt and anger.
The sky thunders, so loud to ring.
A war impending; a call of danger.
She bites back at the rain.
Two forces of nature collide.
Both are in fervid pain.
I solemnly delegate not to side.

I wait inside, all confined.
The ice and rain battle,
Leaving only a monstrosity behind.
This is their altercation, their battle.
Arbitrate I could,
Daft would I be.
A fight to happen as it would.
Do not let that mortal to designate to be me.

Pain.
It hurts so much.
My tears are hot with turmoil.

Strength.
I have none left.
My breaking point is now here.

Fight.
My guard is weakening.
I don't think I can stand.

Crack.
My blood is poured.
Fractured and splintered, I have fallen.

Pain.
It hurts so much.
**Millions of pieces lay right here.

My soul that was once bright
Is now gray and lifeless
The tears I have shed
Has drained me
To where even a thought becomes lost
An emotion is ****** away
I hate this
No emotion nor thought
It pains me to feel this way
As it does you
The urge to see you
Is strong and raging inside
But I feel held back
For I do not want to
Will you let me in
And set me free?

How pleasant is this
To have a day so fulfilled
This night welcomes me

You saw me once
Interested in my appearance.
I was alone and scared
For no one had ever
Approached me with such inquiry.
As you reached out, you had asked,
"Who are you?"
I began to tell you my story,
The tales that no one ever knew.
I was a drama magnet, filled with pain
I weeped and I cried. I fought and I pained.
I gave you all that I was, hoping for you to complete me.
Instead, you had tuned out, never heard me scream.
As you turned away in disgust
I caught sight of you, awing at a better story than I.
I weeped again, and added more to my pages.
I had hoped you were the one,
To show me what it meant to be treasured,
To be called yours.
But yet again, I wait
For that one person
To judge not and pick me above all others
Despite all my pain and hurt,
And change my ending
For I was a book titled "Broken".

You will never know
How the wind whispers
If you don't listen

Or understand why Mother Nature
Can be so destructive and cruel
But calm and yet beautiful all the same

You can't understand
Why the heavens move
With such precision and grace

The things you don't know
The things that are left unexplained
Are just that

Because you never know.

Listen to the soft words
Of the a-ga-ta-na-hi a-s-ga-ya
Hear his voice, let it carry.
Passion much higher than that of the sky.
U-da-lv-quo-di you may be;
But he is listening, waiting,
Tilt your head to the wind,
The tsi-s-qua sing aloud,
Carrying the hi-lv-hi-yu-i message:
"The current runs the river,
Not the river runs the current."
Bear this to your days and nights.
Ponder the truth;
For the a-ga-ta-na-hi a-s-ga-ya
His words always make right.

The sky was under stress
Fire lit up the night
Winds wailed and screeched
Foundations were blasted
Dread, death, doom and demise

A woman crying, "The world nevermore!"
A man thinking "It will be an eternity for daylight."
A baby, so fragile and small, lays in the street.

Danger arises
Hope shattered
Where is the light? And the salvation?

Thugs and gangs roam the cities
Terrorists never seem to stop
People will die 'til the Day.

Lucky seven no longer brings
Death and sickness and disaster come

Will the suffering end
And will the Earth be rebuilt again?

The world always revolves
Current disasters always unsolved
Runs from dawn to dusk
The world under chaos
River of tears surround those lost
Not all can be saved
The world turns gv-hna-ge (black)
River of red is absently lay
Runs through the broken heart
The world waiting for light
Current hopes search for such a sight

High above the skies
Winds whistle in the dark
Stars sparkle so bright

Let the songbird sing
Beautiful melodies rise
Sing songbird, please sing

Time is an illusion
Full of love and confusion
                             Time is a mystery
                             Shifting in smoke, and water misty
                                                                      Looking up at the sky,
                                                                      As the day goes by
                                                                                                   It comes and goes,
                                                                                                   Bringing what life throws
                                                                      Always changing; always there
                                                                      Such a power that tick and chimes in the air
                             And when it's time to throw your towel in
                             Another time will begin.

There's something wrong
                                            Something I cannot place
The unseen lines
                                            Now show upon your face
Your eyes are distant
                                            Almost dull and worn
What is it inside
                                            That is making you torn
I can tell
                                            What your tone says
It says, "This you cannot fix
                                            Not when nothing else does."
A hole is dug
                                            So far and deep
It seems as if your burdens
                                            Are in loads and heaps
I try my best to understand
                                            To see the way you do
Only then do I realize
                                            I don't understand or see as you do
So quickly
                                            I'll save the trouble for you
All I can offer is my humanity
                                            When I know
                                                                                             There's nothing more to do.

So young and trite is the day

Born from this new light

Creatures of the dark and mist curl and wither

Only to return by midlight

The rose afar rises and stretches

Bloodshed velvet bleeds its regal glow

Smooth tips and enticing fragrance

Dark greens, stiff and sharp as spines

Beads of water glisten and shimmer

A blood’s true jewel

Thy shadows came in thy’s slithery way

Enveloping Devil’s Beauty

Charcoal webs and silver-black imprints

Spiral and intertwine, death and blood a dangerous omen

Thy Beauty’s velvet lips decay

A cancer slow moving and fast changing

Taking over thy body in one gulp

Last, final tips of red appear before swallow

Accenting and tracing its last magnificent life

Midlight turns to midnight

Bloodlines disappear

As the wind wails through the dead

A song, chilling, unnerving to us all

Do you hear it?
That noiseless stir?
Such peace exists
With a strong benevolence it churs.

Let the mind wander,
Your thoughts expand.
Relax and sink into the unknown;
Only so far can your sanity withstand.

The beating of the drum thunders
As the night rolls in grace and silence.
Shaking of the warrior rattles sound
Winds whisper grace and wisdom.
Lights above blaze green and yellow
Ancient spirits flow like the river-stream.
The Great Bird calls down to us:
*"Listen, my Children, to water and animal.
All in harmony; for you to give and take.
Follow your guide to the path you seek"