Jaine

Jaine Jul 2023

Fleeting

i’m starting to see what they’ve been meaning
when they say
life is fleeting
i’ve been watching it pass by
yes
i’ve been watching it pass by as if my own heart is not beating
i’ve been so demeaning
keeping myself from dreaming
but lately i’ve been thinking
dreaming in this fleeting life
dreaming is nothing if not freeing

trying to love life again after years of giving into depression

#depression #amateur #poet #poetry #life #inspiration

Jaine Nov 2020

So called love

Our so called love was rushed
It was throw together so quickly neither of us had time to adjust
We became so close and quite dependent
But of course reality came faster to taint it
I will always remember the sweet caress of your kiss on my lips
Though as I look back with a clear head the facade slips
You needed someone to be strong for you while I needed someone to be strong with
You benefitted from my strength and support while “us” withered to ****
You took what you needed then promptly left
So while you slip back into your bad habits and commit your love theft
I’ll still be here growing and thriving off the support we gave each other
And if you try to reach out to me again, well...don’t even bother

#amateurpoet #breakup #feelings #toxic #love #strength #power #follow #like

Jaine Apr 2019

Being a burden

I’m a burden
I’ve been told time and time again
I’m too much
I have too many problems
I need to keep my emotions to myself
No one will ever love you
I need to chill out
If I can’t stop I should just leave
My own mother once told me to go
No one lets me stay because as I said
I’ve been told time and time again
I’m a burden

#burden #depression #mentalillness #amateurpoet

Jaine Apr 2019

I will survive

I will survive
Not for you, not my family, not for anyone but myself
I will survive
Because I am worth living for
I will survive
Even though the going is rough with no sign of stopping
I will survive
For those moments of pure bliss and happiness
I will survive
I will prove myself wrong and show my self that I’m worth it and so
I will survive

#depression #emotional #survival #mentalillness #amateurpoet

Jaine Aug 2018

Since you left

Since you left all I’ve felt is an emptiness

An emptiness in my hand,
where yours used to reside
An emptiness on my lips,
where you placed yours so tenderly

An emptiness in my bed,
where you laid by my side
An emptiness on my phone,
where you used to send sweet word to me

An emptiness in my ears,
where your voice clearly lied
And an emptiness on my chest,
where you ripped out my heart so savagely

Since you left all I’ve felt is an emptiness

#breakup #youleft #empty

Jaine Aug 2018

Light at the end of the tunnel

They say there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel
But what happens when the tunnel collapses on you
You can run as fast as you can towards the so called light
You can stumble along in the darkness with blind faith
Hoping that one day you’ll see the comforting light in the distance
And all of that is for nothing when it all comes tumbling down on you
Taking your freedom away for the houndreth time

#depression #mentalillness #amateurpoet #anxiety

Jaine Feb 2018

Emotional Cheating

You seem so distant
Much different than you were when we first met
You stopped telling me to text when I got home safe
You stopped holding my hand infront of your friends
You stopping texting me and seeing how my day was
You stopped hugging me
You always seemed to be busy when I wanted to see you
You didn’t smile when I told you you were cute
You just stopped caring about me

My friend told me they heard you talking about another girl
So I asked you if you were seeing someone else
You changed the subject every time
Then I finally got you to say it
You had another ******* your mind
You weren’t cheating on me
You weren’t With another girl
You just thought about her all the time
I don’t know which of them is worse
Being cheated on or being a second thought

#emotionalcheating #sad #heartbroken #rebound