crystal holly Mar 28
r+c
rocks held my troubles
& got tossed in the ocean
where they sank deeply
in the depths of the roaring cage
that couldn’t arrest my soul.
i thanked the moon
& watched as her body glowed
and waned to a milky curve –
crescent, like the smile of a satisfied lover.
the waves met me at the shore
longing to embrace
but instead whispering
in between tender crashes,
you are hallowed, not hollow
you are hallowed, not hollow.
i understood.
crystal holly Mar 11
my mind was stationary,
and moved only when it thought of
you
stationary you love mind loosethoughts
crystal holly Mar 11
this love was fruitless & misplaced
– still i faithfully watered it
and when he said he loved me
it watered the soil in my soul
where i thought nothing good could grow
& brought forth fresh crops
happy to see spring

and it finally made sense to me,
how Nina could sing
about the wine she made
from the lilac tree

because new love is good,
but bitter is its uncertainty –
never sure if what you drink
is really he, or a figment
the love-drunk mind conceived
crystal holly Jan 30
azure ceilings severe you from i,
will my thoughts ever reach the clouds?
i seek you in the fog,
barefoot & barren –
waiting to be made whole.
my mother used to tell me to
speak to the wind to get to God
but my lips are stuck like glue
with no sound to expel from these exhausted lungs.
maybe writing is therapy.
healing.
you.
will i see you there –
on the pages that turn spilt tears
into watercolor art,
unraveled, undone?
crystal holly Jun 2017
the pang never hit me
hard and fast
like the thrust of a sword
into the bull’s back
no blood left my body
as you, the matador
buried the dagger
in the organ you
once called home
i lay under you
unfazed by the blow
spectators whirling flags
and cheering you on.
when this is all done
don’t drag me to the stall
to plaster my ruptured heart
as you would a bedroom wall
leave it dispersed in the dirt,
I don't need it after all.
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