And over time,
My pen stopped bleeding
But my heart didn't

Bleed until I was broken

Was life still worth it?

Gone from my safe haven

Should I jump towards the pit



Shallow mind so I can't complain

Stuck in this void, in this crowd

Even I, don't know my pain

So I could not be that loud



I failed to live so must to die

Maybe I could have breathe

Put me in the coffin away to life

In that way maybe I could live

My heart is racing.
I feel sick.
My anxiety knows me better

than anyone.

finally getting skinnier
numbers dropping on the scale
head's hurting, but that's alright
getting dizzy, but that's fine
one more
just lose one more pound
repeat
i'm fine

snow is falling
piano playing in the background
grey skies
dead leaves litter the ground
tree limbs creaking in the wind
soaked clothes
numb
no more feelings
heart frozen
head aching
body breaking
walk out to the big oak tree
heart buried in the snow
leave it
leave it there
don't care for it
hypothermic love
i gave up a long time ago