my mind is always filled up with clutter
like butterfly wings, my thoughts flutter
back and forth they go from this to that and back
overthinking leads to constant anxiety attacks
every minute, sound, every little noise
distracts me, breaks down my temporary poise
no detail ever escapes my acute notice
making it nearly impossible to focus
I cannot simply think of just one thing
for there are far too many connecting strings
that tie me to brand new topics that start rolling
as I keep the old thoughts still ongoing
sometimes I almost enjoy it
other times it makes me have a fit
but oh well, it's just me and my brain
until I'm kicked out by a migraine

so what? my head's a little bit scattered
but is that really always what matters?

Just watched the remembrance service
Just as I do every year
Commemorating all those brave boys and girls
Who over the years made the final sacrifice
Did they do it for God queen and country
No
They gave their young lives for the comrades beside them
Apologies to you believers
But they didn't die with Gods name on their lips
They died scared, covered in blood and ****
Yes
We should remember them

it's cloudy out
and I can tell you're feeling like the sky, about to bust
you seem to say too much or maybe too little,
and you're holding on to all the things you shouldn't be holding on to
but how the hell are you supposed to let go if your hands are about to break?
so you sit and trace the veins that only she used to trace,
and they never ask you how your insides feel,
only how the outside looks
but you say to yourself that's okay,
because they don't need to know anyway
the essence of you is still threaded in her,
and you can feel the strings withering away
so you write letters you'll never send saying,
"If you can still breathe without me,
just know your pride is less fragile than the person you're hurting
and it's about to rain here."

You are heaven on earth
Even your thought
Is a divine intervention
I've every second of my existence
You are the most gorgeous soul
Never seen anyone as
Beautiful as YOU

My thirst of adoring you
Will never quench ever
I can keep on thinking about you
Watching your images
Talking with you -
Alone in my solitude

Your eyes,& those dark eyebrows
Your ears & that elusive ear-ring
Your fingers & that gold ring
Your wrist & the white dial wrist-watch
Your feet & those trimmed nails
Your lips & that disarming smile
Your teeth like pearls
Your breathe of fresh flowers
And your body aura with angelic fragrance
I waited everyday for you
To walk in my LIFE

Only those
unlucky & unfortunate
Wretched souls
Will walk & talk with you
Normally
As if nothing has affected them

Not ME...
NOT ONE WITH HEART...

Once in touch of your mystique
How can one forget you ever?

LOVING you is
The starting point
Of rendezvous
DYING in your LOVE
Is the annihilation
One prays to happen
In your LOVE

You are in front of my eyes
Blooming endlessly
I dive into you
Your face, Your eyes
your every bit of being
What makes YOU... YOU
I adore the naturalness
The infinite eternal beauty
YOU shower & bless us with

When I Miss YOU
I write like this
In praise of YOU
Respecting, adoring, caring &
LOVING YOU...

Missing You like Hell