THE COMPLETE COLLECTION

Dec 2018

Zachery

L.O.V.E

L is for the way you look at me. Which fills me with joy!
O is for the only one I see. The prettiest in the room
V is very extraordinary. Something I use to describe you
E is everything you mean to me!

for 44bluehue

Nov 2018

Dust

You, Me, Us, We

You
With your words
The Knife.
You.

Me
Knowing and not knowing,
Afraid and clueless.
Me.

Us
A thing that used to be,
The dust on the mantle.
Us.

We
Will never be the same
The blood that was spilled across the floor.
We.

This crime scene filled with pain and sorrow and regret. The murderer and the victim one in the same—but also separate. Two hearts that both dance to the same miserable song.

I don't know why this poem is so popular... I've done better...

Oct 2018

Dust

My dear, best friend, dearest... You are a fool.

I love you.
Platonically of course.
But I love you.

You make
me feel okay
as a whole
not a piece hidden

You don't seem
bothered by
any part my me
even the crazy

My dear friend,
you had better not lie to me.
never.
ever.

Don't hide away
your heart from me.
I want to see
everything.

All the scuffs
all the scars
all the cracks
all the tears

Everything.

I don't care
how dark it gets
I live in darkness,
too, *****.

Don't think for a second
that I'll scare easily
'Your struggles' is not
on my list of phobias.

So please,

Don't hide
from me.
Don't lie
to me.

I don't like fake.
I don't want
to be friends
with a lie.

So please,
Trust me.

it'll be okay.
I won't hurt you.
If I did,
I would hate myself.

You know how I am.

I consider you my best friend, you... half-brit!
You had better believe it.

Oct 2018

Zachery

Roses are dead

Roses are lame
Love if fake
Weddings are basically funerals with cake

Roses are red
Green is cash
Deku breaks his arm doing detroit smash

Roses are red
I wish I were dead
Nooses go around the neck below the head

Roses are dead
I am as well
I'll soon be going to hell

Roses can be black
Go on a counterattack
Step on a thousand tacks

I'm kinda not feeling as 'emo' as before because my friend is high key helping me out. Thanks Blue.

Oct 2018

Zachery

I'm Sorry

God save me
Please end me
My death is cold and bitter
I don't want to be called a quitter
The smell of my corpse like sulfur
To engulf her
In misery is not what I wish
Is not what I want to dish
I'm sorry
Or am I
I want to just hurry up and die
I hear your anguished cries
Everything we had dies
In that one moment
I accidentally cause you torment
I taste copper
My blood it drips and pours
It shakes my very core
I see everything fade
My life a sham A charade
The depressing funeral parade
I feel what I caused you
And I'm sorry
For everything
For the suffering
I beg your forgiveness
I want to end this
Then I wake up
It never even happened
I pour my coffee in my cup
Good your still in a good mood
Good
Maybe I can still make you happy
That would be nice
But I still have to roll the dice
To live life

That would be very nice

#suicide #sorry

Oct 2018

ClawedBeauty101

•E•M•O•S•

•
•Emotional•
•Messes•
•Of•
•☻Smiles☻•
•

Fake Smiles...

#emos #goth #depression #darkness #emo #smiles #fake #mess #emotional

Oct 2018

Zachery

A song that knows how I am when I'm ******

(Song is by skillet, but ya know it works and describes my inner demons pretty **** well. And I hurt someone close to me once so this is dedicated to them)
The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it
It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, here's something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
Songwriters: Gavin Brown / John Landrum Cooper
Monster lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

Thanks. But i would prefer being alone when im ******. Otherwise I'll hurt you when I dont want to and that would send me hurtling even faster to hell

#monster #skillet #blu #thanks #anger

Oct 2018

Zachery

Thanks For Everything

Thanks for all that you say
Night and Day
Nothing more do I have to pay
This friendship is what I have
So thank you
And that poem too
I needed that pick me up
To get back up
Its a dark time
For me right now
Nothings safe
My problems they strafe
I try to hit them away
But they dodge
One big Hodge bodge
But you were there
And you did Care
And so did I
So I didn't want you to die
Heres a line about pie
So I do love you
In a platonicall way
You helped me
Because of you
I now enjoy life too
Best buds
Society's duds
Quirky, and weebs
We peeps
And life plays for keeps
So keep this friendship going
Keep our minds peaceful like its snowing
Buds
Duds
Friends
To the bitter end

Aw thanks for what you said about me you german you. Your poem really helped you croissant. Thanjs in all seriousness. Lots of loves.

#thanks #blue #gratitude #friends

Oct 2018

Zachery

Marine

War is hell
That fact is easy to tell
Cause well
Bullets fly
And people die
But I'll do it
Even if it is the pit
Cause I'll be a marine
Fighting to win
You'll say its a sin
But The US must win
To protect your freedom
To ally with the united kingdom
Fight our foes
That much you should know
So out I'll go
Lay down my life
I'm sorry if it causes you strife
But I must be on the frontlines
Now is the time
I'll do so that they'll live
Ill give all I can give
Cause my life has less value
And my life I'll give to you

Yep ima going to be a marine. A recon marine at that.

#marines

Oct 2018

Zachery

Something different

My demons are friends
That will send me faster to my end
They are my foes
That make want to chop off my toes
'Cause even an idiot knows
That a madman's shriek
Is from the madness peak
So peer
My dear
At my exterior
Skinny, pimply, glasses
Now my feet drag as if through molasses
My interior?
Is where my poetry reigns superior
My demons come out to play
Night and day
A price to pay
My rage
That makes one want to turn the page
My fear
That makes one shed a tear
My fumbles
That ultimately humbles
So you see
The real me
The me thats sad
Lil more than mad
The me that seems to be
Something different

A poem that is something different

#real #me

Oct 2018

Zachery

EVIL

Some people like to watch the world burn
Some people would love the table's to turn
I would like to take a gun
And have a little fun
Deleting every evil person
Killing them with one bullet
And going through with it
'Cause if they were dead
Shot right in the head
The world would be ten times better
Thanks to me
Going on that killing spree
But then again
Thats a sin
But i'm an atheist
So its still a win
To rid the world of sin
You must embrace it
Taste it
Become it
'Cause mankind is a delicious peach
And evil is the pit
And Im going to cut it out
Before the casualties mount

For lord Kira who had the right idea.

#kira #killing #justice

Oct 2018

Zachery

Locked Away Deeply

An inexplicable art
Its me running you over in a cart
Its driving a stake through your heart
Its me tossing at your picture a dart
Merciless
Timeless
Beyond my memory vault
Lies something thats my fault.
I dont know what
But it leaves a deep cut
My life is in a rut
Now its a haze
That leaves me unfazed
As I smile discretely
At the memory
Locked Away Deeply

Mementos

#memorys

Oct 2018

Zachery

Anger

He ****** me off
I hated him to my core
I wanted to **** him and leave behind so much gore
His head for my mantle
His heart for my stew
His soul for my brew.
But I could not
I've fought
He was stronger
My will to live I had no longer
Many attempts
And damage hidden
No I'm not kiddin'
I tried to **** myself
No one noticed
How could they
For them I was just prey
As unnoticeable as grey
But soon I saw
What I had ceased to notice
People cared
To hang out with me people did dare
I had friends
Who didn't want my life to end.
I stopped cutting
And started to smile
I swallowed my bitter bile
My sadness left
Happiness came back
But soon came the counter-attack
Junior High was a *****
Although I never had to get a stitch
Pain and Injury came abound
And my friends left me all around
I wasn't cool
I was a tool
My happiness left
Sadness returned tenfold
Someone came and made my life well...
A LIVING HELL
Back came the failed attempts.
Poisoning, Strangulation, drowning, asphyxiation
And it all swept across my small nation
I never did have a vacation
From my close friends suicidal and Madness
Least of all sadness
But came high school
New friends
An old end
A new beginning
It got better
I never would have thought
That after I stopped and fought my feelings
That people would come back
Friends who shared my interests
Pessimistic
Yeah I still am
But I no longer wanted to be run over by a tram
People cared
That's all that it took
As if it all were from a storybook

This was good. I really wanted to talk about this with someone for once

#suicide #attempts #help #friendship