You...
Us..
We.

My life next to you was full of future
Dreams, desires, goals, believes

My present with you is full of
Agony, pain, sadness, madness

My past next to you was full of
Happiness, passion, romanticism

My present next to you is indecisive
You are person who hurts me
Plays with my feelings
Do you or do you not want me

How is it possible to feel love
Towards someone who is always
Putting me on a thread

Despite it all I love you
With all my heart, soul, guts
How can I leave you?
Then again how can I stay?

Falling fast
From high above
The dawning
Delirium
Faltering
from Ego
Bitter In Taste
Sweet in Action
And this is
When
You must
Jump
Knowing that
Soon
The Ground
Will meet
You

sometimes you ruin me.
you make me feel second rate, but you say i'm priority.
I want to nurture you back to health. I want to make a difference in the way you feel.
maybe that's selfish,
...yeah probably.
but sometimes sadness is selfish too.
We're victims to ourselves.
sometimes I don't want to feel better,
sometimes I need to feel blue -
and maybe so do you.
I will try to understand
even though there are things I never will.
like why it takes me feeling worse for you to feel better.
or why spicy pastrami can cheer you up more than I can.
or how oblivious we can be to the pain we subject each other to.
any effort I make is futile.
you undermind my attempts.
shame on me,
I don't learn
not to fix
broken things.

there's a part of me that keeps
checking in to see how
your life is going. I can't shield
my curiosity from the pain
when I see that you have replaced
me in each pose
every sunset
and a single smile that
was not catapulted at me.

What have I become?
Or rather should I say
What have you made of me?

So deep in love I became
In to a fantasy
You framed it so well
With every perfect detail
Yet, how was I suppose to know

Everything was real so real
It felt like a dream

Then it all changed,
A nightmare where you dragged me down
Agony, pain, sleepless nights
Suddenly I knew

What felt like a dream was a dream
The pain was invulnerable
The heart ached, my soul cried

I wasn't your love anymore
I wasn't your priority
I wasn't yours

You betrayed me
Shattered my heart
Lost I was, in dispair

Love me no more
Use me no more
Leave me alone

If I can't be yours
And you can't be mine
Let me not be an option
If I can't be your priority.