I've lived in your heart for three years.
My payments were always before time.
If I made too much noise I assure you I didn't know.
My foot steps are often loud, the neighbor beside me keeps his music up.
I never filed a complaint.
Accepting things as they are.
Outside of that nothing seemed to be wrong.
The conditions weren't bad at first.
Everything worked.
The sink clogged a bit.The locks need to be replaced.
The things of which I done myself.
I felt home here in my one bedroom.
Not too much company so no need for much furniture.
There were nights I couldn't feed myself,
making sure your demands were met.
Differences between needs and wants.
Still I received note after note about noise among other things.
Things accused of though disputed.
You smiled in my face and told me all was forgiven.
To receive a note of eviction.
The neighbors music still loud.
My landlord unable to be found.
Someone new moving into my place

Your voice is the perfect song to listen to on a road trip.
To view all the things that remind me of you.
Miles away from the stress of work.
Your voice, the open road.
Someone I can love, no traffic jam in sight.
The goosebumps from the air on full blast.
To feel love when no love is felt.
A broken down car with someone to help when something is wrong.
The air tastes different, miles away from the city.
A euphoric high.
Your voice a beautiful path.
My phone thrown somewhere in the backseat traveling a scenic road I've never been.
No track of time.
The thing about disease is that you never know until its too late.
It spreads. Becoming infectious.
You've become my relief, my cure.
Your voice like the breeze flowing through my hand.
Your voice the only other sound that could be heard outside of the car and the road.
I've kissed the air a thousand times over.
Driving pass my destination.
Listening to the sound of your voice.
I don't want to move from behind the steering wheel.
What's a couple hundred more miles.
You guiding me pass every exit sign.
Enjoying the ride

I have done everything in my power to become detached from the world.
Reassuring my decision every time I stare into your eyes.
My means of survival solely in the revival of your lips.
The light a reminder of the shadows that lay.
The past tense of habits no longer existing.
Thus-kissing you has become my favorite habit.
The more gently we treat each other,
The further and further away I become.
Throwing caution to the wind when it comes to you, each other-me.
It is through this perspective that I have learned to scream.
Scream every time it comes to you, scream when ever I feel this emotion rise.
This need to let you know that I am alive with each and every chance presented.
You being the cup that overflows each time.
Spilling all over my hands, my shirt, my mouth.
Traveling to a special place in my heart.
The horizon of a new atmosphere.
All of you in liquid form. Becoming a part of me.
And when you spill we both become terrified.
But not because you searched for me when at my lowest.
But because we were attached.
We were terrified.
Terrified in the sense that we trust each other with such sentiment.
The nature of what makes us, us.
Exploration the space around with loving eyes.
Our vessel made of tin.
The merge of planets happening inside of us.
Defying the means of gravity.
New galaxies lit by the sun.
The sun light of your smile.
Everything that happens within coming to light.
I have done everything in my power to become detached from the world.
Ignoring programs and other satellites.
Deliberately floating away in your eyes.
Detached from what was taught as the unknown.
New beginning

What’s this feeling, you’re stealing
I know why you’re heavy breathing
It’s from all this ****** teasing
I know why I’ve got you screaming
It’s from the ****** I’m giving
Let your body rock with me
Talk to me baby
With your hips and the way they work
Take my breath away
With the way you ****
And I can’t help but feel flushed
The way you’re making my heart rush
Don’t stop now, can’t get enough

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

Girls in stilettos oh, oh
Dress around her waist
Every inch of skin a new taste
Not a moment goes to waste
Pleasuring you, that’s my place
Lips on lips, face to face
Don’t want to escape
Your eyes gaze
Take me to outta space
With your loving
I’m something you crave to take
And you’re the drug I need
To fix this addiction
Yeah get the stress out of my system
Like that cheeky smile, you’re giving

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

It’s getting steamy
Sugar rush is high
Take it to the table
Take it to the couch
I’ll take you anywhere
You want to do it, babe
I need all of you
Yeah you hear what I’m saying
No games here, not playing
All of you is all I want
So baby give me
All that you’ve got
Too much is never enough
Keep it coming, girl
You’re fire, I like the scent
There is no regret
I like the way our time gets spent
Yeah you get me off
In all the ways you know how
And that’s why I’m climaxing now

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

©2018 Written By Benji James

I’m sorry
For all the ways I broke your heart
The way I cut us off
Cuz I was craving somebody else
That went on to hustle my heart
Made some bad decisions in my life
Hey girl, I don’t regret it
All I can say is I’m sorry
For the way I hurt you
You deserve real love
From somebody who can return
the love that you’re giving
All I can say is I’m sorry
From the depths of my soul

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

I’m sorry for all the ways
That I have let you down
Don’t expect forgiveness
From you now
I’m still saying sorry
For all the things that I have done
I confess I didn’t mean no harm
But I know all the ways that I broke your spirit
I hope through my lyrics
You will see I didn’t really mean it
To end in this way, had to leave you
When I seen you couldn’t even speak to me
No hard feelings darling.

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

Sorry for all those words
That would have stung
When I told you I wasn’t in love
With you, the way I was in love with her
Was one of the hardest things
I’ve ever done
Had to follow my heart
Wanted to be with the one I truely loved
And that meant letting you down
I know I failed your trust
I know things will never be the same
And you have every reason
To be angry at me
For the love that you truely felt deep inside
And I cut in deep, like a knife
When I told you,
I couldn’t see you
As the significant other in my life
And I’m okay, I’m doing alright
Hope you found happiness
Hope you found love
All I can say is sorry
From the bottom of my heart

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

©2018 Written By Benji James