Every day in the same corner...
Every day in the same coffee shop...
With the same Espresso and bottle of water...
Alone and no one on the other chair!
Headphone embracing my ears with "All along the watchtower" melody!
Violin screaming out for me to show what is hidden inside!
It is not the time! still there time to dwell in silence and listen to you!
When a Ronin rest, he heals the In before the Out!
He Listens to Messages from Heaven!
He Reads what Nature is giving!
Still there enough time to raise!
He still has that..... Hope!

Funny when I have those little talks inside my head!
Funny when my heart is talking to my head!
I can feel the chill in that talk with little pain twisting my heart!
"Can't you feel me!" ....
                     "Fate has another plans!"
"Can't I tell her how and what I Feel!"
                      "Are you crazy?"
"What the harm in doing so?"
                     "Are you welling to have another Slap!"
"It is better than burning inside!"
                     "It is better than being a joke! of something call love!"
" I can't live anymore in my own cell!"
                      "I know you won't tolerate another fall!"
"Why we do exist then?"
                      "To have those Little Talks:)"
"I won't talk to you"
                      "You have no one else dear Heart!"
"I hate you!"
                      "Welcome on board, I hate a lot of things in my world!"
"Why can't you talk!"
                       " I don't have someone to have those........
                                                Little Talks!"

Two Hours and I’m trying to put my immense feelings on papers..and i failed…
Looking at the picture that took my breath away….
Reading the spilled words, feelings were stolen from me and i was hypnotised…
Literary paralysed and shaken…
Literary living in the wold of spirituality that i left long time ago…
Literary i’m living in my exile ….
Literary I’m seen…
I saw her Completing her process, and everything in me holding me back from keeping the secret inside me….
Everything in me, get angry of my “Shy” and shut my “Shyness” off and said the truth that I saw her soul!!
The first fear was the tear i was about to see…
The first “Freak out” was the face turing to red!
The pain was to hurt someone i care about?
I saw all those things and i felt the pain inside me!
I’ve heard the voice saying inside me “Why you want to do it?”
                                               Then....
I told her “ I’m sorry” I can’t help it? and i should take it out…
I should tell her........
                                   You have been seen
                                          I Saw you!

I might be a stranger for you!
I might be a freak for you!
My words are a fountain of mystery!
My feelings are untouched! and they are looking for harbour to rest!
The core burning the soul, and leaving me doomed in nowhere!
I might be angry!
I might be resenting!
I've dismissed everything in my life, but I didn't dismissed you!
You paid your dues because of others, but I paid your!
Are we friends!.... can't see except that we are rivals and about what i'm not sure!  
I don't know what makes you scared of me!
Something died with you, and I won't fall in love with you again!
Did you hear a soul came back to body after death? I didn't!
I look back only to say.....
                                  Sorry
I have a path to take!
Pinky promise under the eyes of heaven made!
Later, I felt my only pinky finger was giving the pledge!
I can't see your there! and so.... I am
                                  Sorry

I've spent centuries
in this agony
My body changes
but time stays still

All this time I've passed
waiting to be found
like a bird inside a cage,
my feet chained to this ground

I can't keep my monsters at bay
but I can't run away

In the eye of each soul
all I see is fear
and my own still whispers
"I'm not from here"

By now I thought
I'd have more power
But at the end of each day
"it" still devours

Even though there's love in my heart
I still feel like falling apart

Each fight feels like
dark mirrors inside a maze
and all I see in this reflection
is my own empty gaze

My mind is light years
away from this place
Still the only thing that saves me
is your warm embrace

And when it feels like I have no choice
I recognize your voice

I'm so tired of this fight
But your love still keeps me warm
Together, we'll win this battle
Together, we'll breathe through the storm.

The hours bloomed into mirth around the driftwood fire,
and I whole heartedly wished to watch the old year out with you.
To be abundantly glad.
In the middle of no where,
With you..
getting lost in our constellations,
cigarette smoke and
our giddiness talk of nonsense.
Laying among the whispering winter night,
the tall pines singing goodnight,
and the glow of moonlight sparkling off your soft smile.
Your eyes melting gently into me and the hidden places of my soul.
Truly being as if it was our last midnight,
goodnight wish.

b.v.r