Use my body, for what you need,
Make me plead on my knees,
Make me yell, make me scream,
Use my body as you please,

I don't see the problem,
Find use for me,
Other then my mental capabilities,
I'm lost without a purpose,

Use my body,
Maybe you can find a use,
For something so useless,

12-
I dated a boy because it made me feel prettier than the rest of the girls,
I didn't want to kiss him because I was afraid I wouldn't know how,
I was eventually pressured into it,

13-
I didn't feel worthy of flirting with boys because I wasn't pretty,
I didn't know how to make boys like me,

14-
I dated a boy because I was insecure,
I thought he could make it better,
I wouldn't make out with him because I didn't know how,
I didn't want to be judged on my ****** experience so I broke up with him,

15-
I still liked that boy,
I often hooked up with him and began getting more comfortable with him,
But I wouldn't go under the belt because I didn't know how,

16-
I finally felt much more comfortable,
I didn't like him anymore but he was patient and I enjoyed being with him,
I opened up to him sexually because I wasn't as afraid anymore,

17-
I lost everything to that boy,
The one on the football team,
I didn't think I was special but I didn't think it would hurt that bad, I then discovered what it's like to be with a man who cares,
I finally felt safe

I was very late doing many things because  I was afraid I could not please a man,
Because  I grew up believing that if you cannot please a man you don't deserve to be pleased yourself,
Because men dominate the earth,
Because men are the all powerful,
But I have yet to find a man who can please *me

They say "love yourself"
They say "everyone is beautiful"

Society thinks they're helping,
But they only make it worse,
When curves are beautiful but what about me?
My body, my *******, my stomach,

That is what's beautiful, not your face,
The way your eyes sparkle with passion,
The way your grin expands through the depths into your dimples,

None of that matters,

For you are not beautiful unless you have this, or that,
****, ***, legs,
That's all they care about,

Saying "everyone is beautiful" doesn't help my self consciousness towards the awkward movements and gestures that make me stick out like a sore thumb in society.

Everyone is beautiful?
I call *******

Sometimes I wish for once,
Things could go my way,
People wouldn't leave,
And I would be happy,

How
Do
I
Feel everything and nothing,
How
Do
I
Believe in everyone but me,
How
Do
I
Have nothing to hold onto,
How
Do
I
Survive like this,

The need to get away,
The anticipation to escape,
To leave the future here,
And create a new,

The need to feel something,
Anything really,
To crave someone,
Anyone who cares,

The need to know,
What really is ahead,
Where I'm going,
Seeing,
Being,

My poetry is ****,
And so are you