Getting out of bed today
was a labour of love
Didn’t even do it yet
I am filled with blood and guts.
My skin is splitting at the seams like a poorly made children’s sweater,
being worn by a planet so big
that it becomes its own universe
This might be it, and maybe that’s fine
at the end of my life,
I don’t think
they’ll be any poetry
left to write.
It won’t be long now
She plucked dandelions from the earth,
as if they were ingrown hairs
living under her skin.
For the earth feels no pain,
and weeds only grow back.
Some things only last a summer,
but she had already seen a snowfall this May.
The life of a yellow plant can’t be fair,
nor can that of a woman without joy.
The solid green field is now a reminder of all she wanted,
and all she feared.
Where do they go,
the dead dandelions?
Rot back into the soil that birthed them?
Press into an immortal being?
One thing is for certain;
those dandelions will never feel at home again.
-and maybe that’s for the best
My blood still flutters
at the thought of you being
all I thought you were.
My face gains a freckle
I remember that you and I watch
the same sunset every night.
Is it ever gonna be enough?
Treading water is getting old.
Can’t live with you,
can’t live without you.
Wrote this listening to metric and thinking of lost friends
Why do spring and autumn look the same here?
Tears always taste saltier in April.
May flowers never come.
on the day I felt most afraid,
did the water in the creek stand still?
Doesn’t the water care about me?
Does this creek not weep for the dying trees around it?
For the fish whose corpses quietly float down on it’s floor?
This crow seems to know.
Alone, he squawks,
mauking my pain.
Maybe I’m the stranger,
The irrelevant dot in a map more complex than my cogged brain can understand.
Or maybe the world does dance all around me each day,
Choosing to ignore my thoughts and actions.
But it’s selfish to think like that, right?
Or perhaps that’s just me falling in love with myself.
Wrote this outside after my friend said she’d try to **** herself and another friend rallied her mom and made sure was okay. She was. I always come back to my creek.