I am not alone
Despite my empty room
I am not a hopeless man
Which loneliness consumes
I devour every second
Of every moment of each day
And I’ll always have a comeback
For anything I have to say
I take comfort in my solace
The peace is music to my ears
I don’t waste my time with mundane rhymes
That I’ve been writing down for years
And if I choose to share it
It’ll be with words upon a page
That releases any tension
Or aggressive pent up rage
I still strive for my happiness
But I’m a bird inside a cage
That wants to stretch his feathers
And make a decent wage
Shall I conform and be resilient?
Shall I choose to trust again?
Or shall I continue on the path I’ve chosen
And stay my only friend?

I am terrified to fall in love with you
Know how easily I can break
Say it is worth the risk
Don't get how much is at stake
Got fantasies frolicking in skull
Pills do not make me feel as great as you
I don't dare succumb to effects
Fairytales are too good to be true
That little voice whispering
To try again and be brave
My longing is stifled by past events
When I last let my resolve cave
Can I find strength to take the plunge?
Leap off cliff to uncharted depths below?
Without harness or safety net to catch
Unwilling to allow myself to sink that low
Help cut tethers trapping me in this place
Give anything to feel free once more
My fear holds me captive inside a prison
I can't seem to find the door
You make falling appear easy
With snap of fingers head over heels
Icy heart has been frozen for so long
Can barely remember how being alive feels
I wish I could forget sorrow
Brought by mention of a familiar name
Remind myself that you are different
Still worry it will end the same
It does not seem fair for you to give your all
Equal effort expected in return
I am simply unable to reciprocate
Love and consideration for which you yearn