I carelessly dove into the sea
where the depth feels like home to me
but I swim too deep, I was drowning
until everything about me is changing

once again, I threw myself to hell
faking every curve of smile on my lips
just to get other guy placed his hand on my hips
just kiss me tonight, do what he'd does
disinfect me from the lies he whispered
about how deep he was in love with me
make my body forget the way it yearns
for his touch everytime I undress myself
love me, love me more, and I promise
I'd say I love you and stay forever

it was everything related to our egos
how we thought we've played our roles
but refuse to synchronize our goals
neither mine nor his ever become ours
but we were fighting for what we had
with all the fusion of emotions and hopes
that this time we both will win the battle
we probably forgot that love is a losing game
rather than playing as team 'us'
we were playing as player one and two instead
but you know, there should be medals
for the kind of war that we had

I have a bad feeling
that if I don't leave him
something even more hurting
is drawing near towards me
and I've been standing in the way

cause I'm so afraid of going astray

however
I must take my first little step
even if I end up in hell
the happiness I long for
will extend its road to lead me there

I am drunk
and I forgot who I am
but remembered you
and I have no other demand
but to stare at your beautiful eyes
that hold all the lights from the stars

I am drunk
and I lost myself
but found your silhouette
and I have no other request
but to make you mine
pretty please, would you be mine?

but the closer we are
the more I want you
the more I want to own you

bit by bit my determination
to run away, to let you go
disappears to thin air

both my eyes freezes
like they are stuck on you
hypnotized by your gentle smile

and my consciousness knows
that if we ever move our feet
forward to each other

you will only make me cry
a deeper painful tears
than any I have ever cried before

If it's me and her
we could pull it off
because without a word
we are able to plan things together
it might sounds absurd
but she understands me
even with such little information
and I can predict her decisions
like I'm reading her mind