It's a harsh truth of life that I know,
Through the pain heavy footsteps that show
How a slap in the face, how the heart learned its place
The emotions my mind learned to stow.

I describe my love as so glowing.
With new potential ever flowing-
When my heart gave in, allowed feeling again
That moment in time never slowing.

Though this process of finding took years
You've guided me through all of my tears.
To love, to adjust, a new reason to trust
Day by day, note by note, healed my fears.

The ordinary
Becomes the extraordinary
When the visionary
Depicts the good

Is it even worth trying to talk when I'm
Walking behind all my "friends" on the sidewalk
None of you ever asks how I've been
Always pushed to the side again and again
I'm not sure who I am or what I stand for
I just know- I don't belong here anymore.

I type "help" into my search bar a lot
Not really sure who would answer me
Though perhaps now, I'm desperate not for an answer
But just for my mind's chaos to be freed

My freshman year, I wrote a paper about appreciating the little things in life. In retrospect, I was definitely on crack

When we're eye to eye
I remember when that's all we had
Recalling the subtle glances, the smiles that followed
Look at just how far we've come.

When we're face to face
I memorize every detail of you
Tracing the lines of your jaw, the curve of your lips
The moments make me here forever young.

When we're heart to heart
I hold onto everything I can
Embracing the beats in your chest, the warmth of your hands
No song could compare to.

When we're cheek to cheek
I feel the rhythm of our slow steps
Treasuring every candid spin, the song that wraps us up
We could stay here forever.

When trust is broken, shattered
I pick up the pieces
Melt them with the fires of my hurt
I recreate the destruction
After so long, the fire is extinguished
I can't be hurt by you
Trust stays, on the floor
I leave the pieces as you left them

The sun flies bright
Yet my mind is dim
The sky glows clear
Yet my thoughts are cloudy
The flowers smell sweet
Yet my words are bitter
It's a beautiful day
Yet my heart is hurting

One day, I spoke the truth
You called me a liar
Truly, I am one
I lied for seven years
Every day before today
Hiding the truth to save face
Both mine and your own
I guess grief changes you
Because after all this time
Something snapped
I sacrificed everything I've worked for
To save the few who you affect
You have reputation on your side
But still, I spoke out
And I stand today here to tell you
Every word was worth it

I am not a secret keeping person.
I value knowledge, truth, and honesty.
Yet, somehow, admitting my own truths
Is impossible.

When the world sees so few shades,
I always hide inside my fragile heart.
I take this other name until I admit myself
To myself.

I trust you with the universe, my dear.
No one person has come this close to me.
How much can I afford to lose of myself,
If I stay?

No relationship comes without a cost.
It is a cost I gladly bear for you.
How much of me do you carry, which
You could drop?

How many moments make love worth it?
How many moments justify the pain of loss?

Well what about me,
I know what to do,
Don't forget that I'm here
And I've lived through this too.

Please let me speak my mind
Don't hinder what I say
Because every time you do this
I fly farther away

Well what about me,
I know how to act
A simple part I'm playing
Just one I know by fact

Well what about me,
Oh, I know how to speak
My words are my power-
You take them, I'm weak.