I'm having trouble getting out of bed lately.
It seems id rather dream because that's the only place i don't hate me.

Cynicism is my confucianism bury my coffin shallow so i can still fell the rain.

I can't stand the lack of pain.

I’m getting used to wearing sleeves again
Some hearts I draw were never meant to mend
It takes two to love, it takes two to hurt
It takes the whole world and more to gracefully lose

I'm not quite sure what to say,
because you were the one who walked away.
I gave you everything and you left me with nothing.
You left me as nothing.
I sit here in pieces on my floor,
wishing that I could have been something more.
But I couldn't be.
And that is something that can only be put on me.

She sat there in silence as tears streamed down her flustered cheeks.
The sound of her sniffing trying to hold them back, echoed throughout the room.
She was frozen.
She couldn't move, she could barely even breathe.
The light wasn't allowed in this room,
like love wasn't allowed in her heart.
It was all dim and dark.
Much like the tired eyes she had been wearing,
As a result of this nightly routine.
The air was thick and felt as though she was trying to breathe with her face pressed into a pillow.
Everything in her screaming for help but she sat there quietly, alone, engulfed in darkness.

**Slow self-suffocation at its finest.

She was as cold as
the ocean at midnight
not having one care
not having one fright
she didn't always used to be this way
she used to be a normal girl
but that had to fade
the ocean surrounded her
and filled her lungs
and that's when she realized
there was no such thing as fun
she caressed the ocean
as if it were her child
she wanted to scream
she wanted to go wild
when would she break free
when would she run away
that she is me
and I am here to stay.*
{m.w}