babie

babie Nov 2019

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im
always
tired
how do i make it through every day?
i cry
and i cry a lot
but
i love
and i love a lot
i hug
and i hug,
a lot.
did you know that we need 12 hugs a day
in order to grow?
i give hugs to the people i love
and i make sure to tell them
that i love them.
because what if,
in just a moment
they're gone?
they won't know that i love them.
they must know that i love them.
i can't show them nearly enough love,
but i can try.

I love my friends so much holy moly

#friendships #love #relationships #selflove

babie Nov 2019

secrets

i've kept secrets
so many secrets
everyone else's
everyone else's but mine
an open book
everyone
knows
everything
im vulnerable
but i truly hope
nobody takes advantage
of me,
and my emptiness

this sounds sadder then i intended

#secrets #vulnerable

babie Nov 2019

therapy

i can finally tell her
she will know i'm happy
but i can't forget
the things that hurt me
i must tell her
i don't want to
what if she worries
what if she tells someone
confidentiality,
right?

...right?

#therapy #mental #health

babie Nov 2019

unfortunately

when you hugged me for the first time
i never wanted you to let go
i just wanted you to hold me
for the rest of time
unfortunately
that isn't possible
when you kissed me for the first time
i didn't want you to stop
i just wanted you to kiss me
for the rest of time
unfortunately
that isn't possible

that isn't possible

#longing #relationships

babie Nov 2019

toujours

je t'aime.
tu es mon monde,
toujours.
est-ce que tu m'amour?
je sais que tu le fais.
un jour, j'aurai votre nom de famille.

i'

babie Nov 2019

not just i

it took awhile
but i did it
can you believe it
i found someone
someone who cares
one-sided?
not anymore
equal
we, us.
not just i.
"i love you"
you don't know
how happy you make me
when you hold me
i'm finally home
home is not a place
home is a person
home is you
i am lucky.
we are lucky.
not just i.

finally

#relationship #happiness #equality

babie Nov 2019

grief

there are five stages of grief
I experienced all of them
all five
at the exact same time
denial-
we will get back together
he treated me so well
we were so happy
we're just taking a break
anger-
I hate him
he lied to me
he lied to everyone
if only
if only i would've given him more
if only I would've given him me
if only I would've fought harder
depression-
suicide?
no.
yes?
maybe.
I can't stand myself
disgusting
I felt disgusting
acceptance-
okay.
I don't need him
I never did
he did hurt me
how had I not seen it before?
he hurt me
he tried to **** me
it's been months
and I just now noticed
what he really did
there's another stage of grief,
separate from acceptance
moving on-
moving on
to bigger and better things
let's get happy
let's find happiness
grief hurts
but moving on feels great

feels great

#breakups #grief #abuse #acceptance #moving #on #depression #anger #denial