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babie Nov 2019
there are five stages of grief
I experienced all of them
all five
at the exact same time
denial-
we will get back together
he treated me so well
we were so happy
we're just taking a break
anger-
I hate him
he lied to me
he lied to everyone
if only
if only i would've given him more
if only I would've given him me
if only I would've fought harder
depression-
suicide?
no.
yes?
maybe.
I can't stand myself
disgusting
I felt disgusting
acceptance-
okay.
I don't need him
I never did
he did hurt me
how had I not seen it before?
he hurt me
he tried to **** me
it's been months
and I just now noticed
what he really did
there's another stage of grief,
separate from acceptance
moving on-
moving on
to bigger and better things
let's get happy
let's find happiness
grief hurts
but moving on feels great
feels great
babie Nov 2019
i was hurting
so much
i had just been in a relationship
full of manipulation and emotional abuse
and then i was left
left to believe that it was my fault
left to stay silent about my experience
one-sided
i gave him every piece of me
every milliliter of my love
every second of my time
i failed all of my classes
all for him
i did everything for him
i never stopped thinking of him
why did he do that
how did he do that
he didn't just hurt me
he hurt her, too
she, that stunning being
with a beautiful soul
and an open heart.
her heart was scarred
but she still let him back in with open arms
she was hurting
so much
she couldn't love him again
neither could i
we couldn't love him
but
we were hurting
so much
im okay now i promise

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