She was wild like skinny dipping at midnight, stars watching overhead and falling in love with moonlight. The way it lay upon her skin made the ocean envious of her depths within and sometimes between us. She was my sister, not in blood but in orbit. A Venus to my Earth, forged from the same collapsing star and if the universe was in fact to be infinite then this moment would happen again, and again, and again an immeasurable number of times. I found comfort in this thought, knowing though our existence was meaningless, it was still full of feeling, and this feeling, right now, it insisted on existing forever.

I'm just sitting here
Eating the ice cream you love
With my heart growing colder
My soul feeling older
I remember your smile
It hitting your eyes
The fire glowing as bright
As the spark between us
With your absence so is the light

I'm a waste space..
                                                         ­                                     you're just in a rut.
I've got to get out of this place.
                                                          ­                                 you think to much..
I always see her face.
                                                           ­                                    I know, it's rough.
life really *****.
                                                          ­                           would you just shut up?
But, I'm so weak..
                                                          ­                  you're stronger then you look
I can't even sleep
                                                           ­                              why not read a book?
Because, I don't want to
I'm in too much pain,
something you wouldn't get
it's no wonder you're sane.
                                                           ­                                    Is their ever a time
                                                                ­you don't have something to blame?
                                                          ­                                                   honestly,
                                                             I'm tired of playing these head games.
See!
you're done with me,
just like everyone else.
                                                           ­                well that's not the proper way
                                                             ­                     if you're in a cry for help.
then tell me, please
what do I do?
                                                             ­                first off, you can't be so rude.
                                                           ­         second thing, stop crying boo hoo!
just be quiet..
                                                         ­         no, it's something you need to hear.
I don't want you to talk!
                                                           ­                                   I'm being sincere..
                                                       ­                                       I remember a time
                                                            ­                  when you didn't give a ****
                                            and now just because, you're down on your luck
                                                  doesn't give you an excuse to always give up!
...
                                                         ­                                       you're so strong,
                                                         ­                           stronger then you know
                                                            ­                   yet, you're always so ready
                                                           ­                         to jump out the window.
                                                         ­                                   It's not just your life
                                                            ­                                            it's mine too,
                                                            ­         and I've been through everything
                                                                ­                                 the same as you.
...
                                                        ­                               are you even listening?
                                                      ­                  do you care what I have to say?
I'm so sorry,
I just want this to go away...
                                                         ­      I promise you it will, only some day..
                                                   although, until then you've got to be patient.
..
                                                     ­                 You should look towards the sky
                                                 yet, don't scream above asking God "Why!?"
                                                         ­                Instead, just try to live your life
                                                                ­ you've always been so **** bright.
hmm..
well maybe you're right..
I can't just give up
I've gotta fight!
Thank you so much for clearing my sight.
                                                          ­                                         Don't thank me
                                                              ­                         we're gonna be alright.
I know we are,
it's just I get scared.
                                                         ­                                           Well that's why
                                                             ­                  we'll always come prepared
and no matter what happens
I know we'll share
the same kind of ending.                    -                     the same kind of ending.

She's very much alive
But she is dead to me
The decision wasn't mine
She wanted to be
A tombstone in my mind
A grave inside my heart
A perpetual funeral
That has no end or start
There is no wreath to set
No flowers to lay
The only place that this exists
Is buried in my wake

"Never again shall I ravage her body
As if it was nothing more than a crypt,
That I won the key to in gambling.
Instead.
I shall treat her flesh as if it were
A temple.
A temple that that I'd truly never
Be worthy of.
Of it's touch, it's grace."

Yea you really ****** me.
Mentally, physically , but most of all emotionally.
Got Me questioning my every move.
No no no, not that dude.
But why not?
Because he's just not you.
But goodness, what do I do ?
when you're the only one I want.
The perfect font,
you get my juices flowing.
So creative when you're near me and can't help but sing a song.
Smoke and use my **** , get so high I lose sight of what goes on.
I pleaded and cried , so crazy I just wanted to be your bride. How stupid of me to think that you would ever do such a thing.
But nah, you left me hangin'
Alone and broken, and all I'm sayin
Is , if you never loved me
Why'd you ever say so?
Silly me, how crazy of me to think
That you and I could grow greater ,
stronger and live longer as long as we were together.
But still I wait and hope that in the days without me you'll see how insane you are ,
that just like me, living without the other is just preposterous.
I was so ready for us.
I fiend for us.
Although nobody agrees with us I still believe in us !
You touched me like no one else could, so deep inside me ,
yanked out my heart and set it to the side. Caught me by surprise, I still can't quite understand why.
All the signs were there, friends told me I was trippin and to leave you alone but you were my *****, made my body shiver
That **** must've been something amazing
Cause got ****, it still got my mind dazing.
And even though you ain't around I want you to know I still got my smile.