I often find myself thinking
If you’re happier with him
And how’s it gonna be
When time passes by.
I find myself
In only a struggle
But I know I’ll be fine.
Only with what happened
But not with what could’ve been...
Why do we fight?
We had something that was like a light
That over time became clouded from all the arguments.
But through it all
we would just keep trying
Because deep down we know
That through all this darkness
And what lies upon the other side of those clouds
is that light.
It reminds us of how beautiful we really are.
It’s amazing how things just become so clear again.
I hope you know that sometimes you have to make it through a storm just to be able to see that light once more.
But God only knows if we’ll make it.
I’m really really sorry.
I always write
But the delete button is my friend
Because life is just hard
And I’ve never felt so alone
with so many people around me
How can you really express something like
You don’t know me so it feels safe to say.
Why're you just laying in bed?
Contemplating and wishing you were dead?
What ever happened to you?
You used to be someone worth looking up too.
You used to believe in so many things
your morals have changed
now you're such a worthless being..
Do you even care what I'm saying?
Cant you see that I've been praying?
Hoping for you to change
but you never will...
you'll always be a loser
and that's how you lose the girl...
Cant you see?
I'm the one who's stuck having to see this
most nights I just feel so defeated!
As if this life were a game that's been cheated!
I just wanted you to do your best
but, it's all not good enough
so you lay your head to rest.
I've given up on you
and I don't care what you've been through
not your family
not your friends
but you can end it all tonight
probably the best way to avoid another fight.
You know this is true,
all these things I say to you.
Just bite the bullet
let it go through
because we both know
you're better off dead...
"God. grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Honestly I feel so alone.
I don't really know what to say
I get chocked up from this feeling
its like taking the worst of a beating
a feeling inside you
that you only wish would die
like a fire that just keeps on going
you need to put it out
but it only rises higher
burning everything around
and you just watch your whole world
burn to the ground.
So I'm sorry if I'm not okay!
what would you know anyway?!
you're the one making me feel this way!
wanting me to take my own life!
wanting me to give up on this fight!
wanting me to push everyone away!
you're the one who's given up
I'm trying to find the strength just to get up!
so why don't you leave me alone?
you're the one who's destroying my soul!
you're the one blaming it all on me!
you're the one who's causing the scenes!
you're the one putting this **** in my head!
you're the one thinking I'm better off dead!
while I maybe in the shadows
my heart and soul swing under the gallows.
But I'm not going to let you take my life!
I'm going to find a way to make this right..
you've taken everything out of me
but I will find a way to see this light.
because I know there's a bigger reason to fight
It's bigger then you!
It's bigger then me!
and one day I know
I'll truly be happy.
credit to Niebuhr
"19, attributed the prayer to Niebuhr, quoting it as follows: O God and Heavenly Father, Grant to us the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed, and wisdom to know the one from the other, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen."
Remember that any mistake you make may becomes someone else’s blessing in the end.
Good or bad? It’s really up to you.
A sight you see
But is it real?
Looking for truth
Unraveled and revealed
Am I here?
Or am I not?
Reality traps me
In this box.
I hope to look for
What I have forgot.
The freedom that is me
But maybe not.
All lies in my train of thought.
I’ve never seen a devil who wore fake horns
But I’ve sure as hell seen those fake golden rings.