Some days there is an ache
That ripples through my soul like an echo in an empty cave.
Where it started, I'll never know
But it seems endless on my empty days.

I don’t when these feelings started happening
But when I did
They all hit me at once and overwhelmed with to the point where i thought i was going crazy
All my thoughts suddenly became about you
Maybe these feelings were always there
But i was just too naive and ignorant to acknowledge them
You make me feel great about myself in every way i thought wasn’t possible
My heart feels heavy
With all these emotion flowing through my head and onto paper i don’t really know what being sane is
I feel most at peace when i hear your voice
When you ask me how I am and how concerned you actually sound
When you tell me how much you love my laugh making me just want to laugh more
When you purposely like to frustrate me because it makes you laugh
When you randomly throw in compliments to me causing a smile across my face leaving me speechless
Those are the few moment i feel at peace
And just now even writing about you at 2:30 am i find some sort of calmness
You make my head spin
And my heart beat faster
Never did I imagine you coming into my life and making me feel this way
I’ve loved and I’ve lost and I’ve lived through that
But with you or if i was without you
I would simply go insane
Any sudden change makes me go crazy
I feel alive most talking to you
Never have i felt more comfortable with another soul
You get my perspective in life and help me solve my own situations
I have changed because of you
I am more carefree and careful all at the same time
I do hope i meet someone that shows as much compassion towards me
And if i don’t
I hope its because i haven’t met someone new
Because you’ll still be around
And i swear i have never written more
But i just have so much to say when it comes to you
Its always black and white with you
No grey
No in between
And it makes me feel deranged from everything
And thats okay

Are you a star?
Do you look down every night
and convince the lonely
that they are still life?
Do couples watch you
and, just as silently as the way you blink at them,
fall in love with each other.

Have you,
for centuries
piled on centuries,
sat still and thrown your magic at the sky?,
smiled a tooth-full smile of unrequited love
that shines for people light years after?

Do you sometimes implode?
Yes you do, I have seen it with my own two eyes.
I know you try to hide it:
you implode at a distance
to not hurt those around.

You are a hopeless romantic
who gave birth to a son.
After the sun, there are three stars
held together by gravity:
love must be one, I wish to be one and you the other

though I feel like the sun
on fire: burning with anguish, with the torture
of so many drawn to me but not wanting to touch,
with frustration at my memory forgetting your touch
and longing it at the same time

I feel like the sun; the star you forget is a star
admired from afar, watch him burn from afar:
a beautiful, lonely implosion
a spectacle to the world and its cousins;
gravity is me pulling you closer but unsure of myself
and you looking into a shy fire, afraid to get burnt.

Today I typed into Google
How far are the stars from earth?
I do not think I am a romantic
Surely you would have asked
How close are the stars to us?

Yes You must be a star
and I a city at night with every light turned on.
We catch eyes across this dark field
and you turn away so quickly after
I am Sorry
I have been busy
feeling for the light-switch in every space within me
then I got to where your room would be and it was empty
you had left without saying a word
with trembling soles I followed where your every footstep led
the tracks suddenly disappeared
and tonight you're in a full moon's sky
throwing your magic
smiling with that tooth-full smile
for all else but me
and I am a city
far below
with every light turned on for You.