mama used to tell me, used to tell me...

I hope you never have to make it on your own,
but if you learn to love yourself you’ll never be alone,
I hope you work your hardest to achieve your dreams,
and I hope one day you’ll realize what you meant to me,
Go find out who’s out there for you and let me know
love her and fill her mind body spirit with your soul
and when you get it give thanks, and pray to God.
and remember one thing, remember one thing
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world

All I..
All I ever wanted was for someone to make me feel fantastic
Imagine one day God made you have it, a bad chick.
I remember those days back in that grimy mattress
who would of thought I would of made an attachment
i’m talking about dreaming so hard it seemed like rest day
you know?
Putting those dreams in the bag, trash day.
you came out of nowhere my imagination crash bae
even better than any girl described by kanye
I might speed up with energy but then I crash
One day i’ll get you that car you’ve always wanted, be my gas
Look
Think about it
Close your eyes
Dream about it
Tell your Family about it
Let’s make this universe ours tell the world about it,
Success is on its way, I can see it in the distance
If heaven was next to you I wouldn’t see any difference
There was one opportunity i’m glad I didn’t miss it
Lonely in this world trying to find life’s mission
Now i’m walking with this girl in the heart of the mission  

I hope you never have to make it on your own,
but if you learn to love yourself you’ll never be alone,
I hope you work your hardest to achieve your dreams,
and I hope one day you’ll realize what you meant to me,
Go find out who’s out there for you and let me know
love her and fill her mind body spirit with your soul
and when you get it give thanks, and pray to God.
and remember one thing, remember one thing
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world

My mama told me, “You’ll find your half orange on the right hour”
The time rang, I had to save her from the clock tower,
Sat next to her, we share close stories and we laughed,
But I told her I would always tell her anything if she asked
She asked,  “Do you really love me, like you say”
I told her, “ I promise to say I love you everyday”
we’ll go and explore the world from bay to bay
growing up without anything you always have to extra try
and I wanna be with you while i’m alive,
Teach me the basic thing of life like how to drive
Let’s raise the cutest kids and let’s do it right
Make sure your next to me when I love, but also when I cry
Let’s get old and play together ‘till we die
and hold my hand God will teach us how to fly
Since I met you I knew you were always an angel in disguise (in the sky)
And with you I will never have to say goodbye

I hope you never have to make it on your own,
but if you learn to love yourself you’ll never be alone,
I hope you work your hardest to achieve your dreams,
and I hope one day you’ll realize what you meant to me,
Go find out who’s out there for you and let me know
love her and fill her mind body spirit with your soul
and when you get it give thanks, and pray to God.
and remember one thing, remember one thing
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world
One girl can change your world

Yours was only a hand, delicate and gentle.
Mine was only a waist, never pampered by touch or love.
It was but a silly heart, pounding against my chest.
It was only a kiss, under the stars, in the pouring moonlight.

I know I promised
I'd never write about you again
but it's five am and I am left
with this visceral feeling of
loss and anger

I use to think you stripped
Me of everything
Now I realize you didn't.
See, I forgot about the cross
The burden of love
You sentenced me to

Your name is Judas
and I will accept
the crown of thorns
and become a martyr
for ever believing that
true love existed
in your eyes

There's nothing new
about this song
it's all been sung before
I'm just a broken soldier
bleeding from an ancient war

When I came home
there were no crowds
no bands for me did play
I slunk back like a refugee
And now I'm here to stay

Every door
was closed to me
no woman and no lover
to take my hand  to comfort me
to lead my heart to cover

You found me like
some fallen bird
you took me home and said
I feel this pain you carry
now come with me to bed

You took me in
you eased that pain
and soothed me in your arms
outside I heard the sirens scream
inside I learned your charms

You tried your best
to heal my wounds
to get me on my feet
but guilt was far too much for me
I left you for the street

I live alone
in poverty
I guess I'm here for good
there are no saints or saviors
in this fallen neighborhood

But listen to me
if you please
I need to hear your name
to know I'm not completely lost
upon these streets of pain

It's cold it's dark
I'm fevered and
I'm lost in bed alone
I never was much good at love
too weary to the bone

I need to kiss
your shining eyes
but you are far away
and I am caught so far from you
upon this lonely day

You were much
too good for me
my dark relentless lies
too good to see the enemy
within my felon eyes

I thank you
for your comfort
your body and your heart
the way you shared your bed with me
forgave me from the start

There's nothing new
about this song
it's all been sung before
I'm just a broken soldier
bleeding from an ancient war

She might laugh if she read this
at the flat little version of her
that lives in my mind.
She may laugh
at my comparison of her
to a hideous sea spider
but hear me out
it could be touching.

David Foster Wallace wrote:
“Since pain is a totally subjective mental experience
we do not have direct access
to anyone or anything’s pain but our own;
and even just the principles
by which we can infer that others experience pain
and have a legitimate interest in not feeling pain
involve hard-core philosophy—
metaphysics, epistemology, value theory, ethics.”

"[Lobsters] do have an exquisite tactile sense,
one facilitated by hundreds of thousands of tiny hairs
that protrude through their carapace.
Although encased
in what seems a solid, impenetrable armour,
the lobster can receive stimuli and impressions from without
as readily as if it possessed a soft and delicate skin.”

and so

“We lift lobsters out of the bag
or whatever retail container they came home in
…whereupon some uncomfortable things start to happen.
However stuporous the lobster is from the trip home, for instance,
it tends to come alarmingly to life when placed in boiling water."

As much as I cannot comprehend the pain
of the exquisitely tactile lobster
in a *** of boiling water,
I wonder if I could
walk a mile in a lobster’s 8 minuscule shoes
and I wonder
what it might mean or not mean to her
with her armoured yet acute exoskeleton
to be back at home with her father.

They might try to butter you up
or snap elastic bands
around your oversized claws
and use a wooden spoon
to try and nudge your thrashing, clinging arms
back into the ***,
but remember:
lobsters can live to be over 100 years old
and grow to over 20 pounds in size
which is very large for an aquatic insect
and remember that they are marine crustaceans of the family Homaridae, characterized by five pairs of jointed legs, the first pair terminating in large pincerish claws.

And DFW famously said,

“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”

and he's not a lobster either