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Nov 2024 · 49
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Vesper Nov 2024
this is a cry for help
i cannot control my fear
i cannot control the sickness
that loves me so dear
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this is a cry for friends
people that care
people that really care
they are my dividends
they keep me sane
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this is a cry for someone
someone that feels like me
someone that feels me
someone that likes me
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this is a cry for love
i need you
ill treat you like a dove
you can take the sadness out of me
and ill be back again
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Nov 2024 · 57
i'm not
Vesper Nov 2024
i'm not lazy
i play sports
i do things
i promise you
i'm not lazy

i'm not stupid
i have good grades
i study my subjects
i promise you
i'm not stupid

i'm not a freak
i don't know why
but i promise you
i'm not a freak

i'm not insane
i'm not insane
i promise you
i'm not insane
Nov 2024 · 49
untitled
Vesper Nov 2024
today
my mother
asked me to try on a shirt
and i said sure
so she said
"take your shirt off"
and i stopped
"will you leave?"
i asked politely, hoping she wouldn't suspect
she bobbed her head
side to side
the universal sign
NO

she saw the red scars on my stomach
the scratches i cut
deep
but not in my skin
she made them deeper
she pretended like they weren't there
but they were
blood red scars
killing me slowly

and i'm shaking
shaking because i dont want to be a ******
i swear mom
i'm not
just help me
please
Nov 2024 · 50
elixir
Vesper Nov 2024
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
Nov 2024 · 252
asylum
Vesper Nov 2024
scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please
my mind
Nov 2024 · 43
crazy men II
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free
my dreamsss
Nov 2024 · 46
hoodie
Vesper Nov 2024
my favorite hoodie
the biggest one
hide my body
and the pain all gone
Nov 2024 · 59
777
Vesper Nov 2024
777
just a dollar
and you can play
deposit a coin
and be on your way
gamble your life away
Nov 2024 · 52
food & weight
Vesper Nov 2024
in the silence, shadows loom, i grapple with my private doom. food, my solace, my despair, calls to me from everywhere.

each morsel, a fleeting balm, in the chaos, a moment's calm. yet beneath the comfort, a plea, a desire to finally be free.

mirror, mirror, reflecting pain, a story written, etched in shame. i seek release, a lighter frame, but all i find is more of the same.

craving’s hold, so tight, so deep, in the lonely hours, i weep. to resist, to rise above, to find strength where there’s none.

each bite a secret, buried low, a struggle only i know. wishing for control, for peace, for this torment to finally cease.

for in this cycle, i find my plight, day turns to night, and night to day. yet somewhere, hope feels far away, a distant dream, fading gray.
Nov 2024 · 102
world that is not ours
Vesper Nov 2024
this is a world that is not ours
mother earth
she gave us life
but even in our early stages
greed overtook us
she ate the apple
she gained the knowledge
but the damage was done

if eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
but
i eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
in this world that is not ours

all we do is take
we never give back
just remember
this is a world that is not ours

in the couple years we have left
before we crumble
to the ground
we need to give
we can still undo
some
of the damage that has been done
in this world that is not ours
please dont litter
Nov 2024 · 97
1
Vesper Nov 2024
1
one
is a number
just above zero
sometimes
used to refer
to me
my looks
my personality
but when i was one
i didnt care
about the little things
i guess
i am just truly a one
numberss
Nov 2024 · 127
only child
Vesper Nov 2024
i wish i was an only child
but sometimes i dont
my sister
she shares
she loves
she laughs
but all i respond with is a hit
a yell
a scream
all i am is mean
and sometimes i wish
she was an only child
love your siblings
Nov 2024 · 234
crush
Vesper Nov 2024
she loves me
she loves me not
i feel giddy
i feel love
is it real this time?
i wonder
will i be lied to?
will i be insulted?
punched?
kicked?
cut?
yelled at?
called out?
made fun of?
laughed at?
will you never feel the same way i do?
because when i cried
you didnt
and when i got knocked down
you didnt
and when i died
you didnt
and i wonder
if i should love you at all
third times the charm
Nov 2024 · 115
fire
Vesper Nov 2024
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
you strive
to do good
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
Nov 2024 · 349
crazy men
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they carry me away
up and over
around a bend
and then back again
the crazy men
they carry me away
and i finally feel free
this is a recurring dream
Nov 2024 · 161
love
Vesper Nov 2024
love
is a silly little thing
it brings people together
it pushes them part
and i think
i dont need love
it is a silly little thing
but why do i crave it
yes i crave it so
i wish upon a star
to look apon my lover
in upon the char
i feel that i might hover
with the love
from a lover

oh love
why do you come to me
in my saddest moments
two breakups
two bursts of love
spiraling me
into the void
but not the void i write
but it is one that bites
it is the void of craving love

oh love
oh cupid
you shot my friends
and their love
is inexplicable
and i love
love
and if i forever
am left without a lover
i might just cut
my wrists
once again
my friend just got a girlfriend, and he told me not to tell anyone. i am so very happy for him, but i cant help feeling this way. poetry it is am i right
Nov 2024 · 96
crayons
Vesper Nov 2024
many colors
many drawings
i made when i was three
but they would break
just like my heart
why would you do this
to me

i rip up the drawings
on my wall
screaming
at the world
but those crayons
the many colors
will always be there
for me

i cry
i scream
i starve
i cut
but those crayons
stand untouched
waiting
and waiting
and waiting
for me
to play with them again
Nov 2024 · 105
depression
Vesper Nov 2024
depression
is the man lying next to me in bed
he might not be real
but he is there
his cold fingers
creeping up my spine
ready to attack
at any moment

depression
is not liking the things you used to like
like the movies
videogames
or friends
i dont know why
why wont it end
will i end the depression
or will the depression end me

depression
is the lost love
for someone
that you like
but never have the feeling to ask them
when she dated another boy
it only made me sink deeper

depression
is the friends and family
who let you go
in your deepest moments
when i needed them the most

depression
is the knife
on my desk
covered in blood
waiting to strike
me again

depression
is the void
pulling you closer
when you dont know it
like a black hole
trying to swallow me up

depression
is you
its me
its in all of us
but i cant stop it
should i try
or die
that is the question

depression
is a world where i cannot be myself
i feel
like my body
is not good enough
my clothes
my shoes
my hair
my weight
it will never be enough

depression
is windowless room
no light
i cant get out
i cant get out
let me out
let me out

let me be myself
without the void
without the man
without all the little things
let my live my life

leave
me
alone
i am going through a depressive state right now.
Nov 2024 · 155
spiders
Vesper Nov 2024
here i sit
in my bed
the spiders creeping up my wall
i can hear them
they might bite me
but i do nothing at all
3am poems!
Nov 2024 · 160
'friends'
Vesper Nov 2024
what a wonderful friendship!
i thought to myself
i was only more than a babe when i met him
he was kind
he was funny
he was fun to play with
and he was my first
'friend'
as we grew older
i turned five
we started to talk
i remember our first conversation
we talked about dinosaurs
and i thought
what a wonderful
'friend'
and then i made new
'friends'
but they didnt last long
it wasnt long before
they found someone new
and left me to play
in the morning dew
wow
those are some wonderful
'friends'
and then we turned ten
he was still with me
through it all
through my hardships
through my pain
through my sadness
wow
what a wonderful
'friend'
and here we are today
i can see him as i am writing this poem
his first girlfriend
i cannot express how happy i am
for him
and he
is a true
friend.
there is one person i utterly and completely trust in this world. we met at 3 months in some 'baby class' or whatever
now i have known him for almost 13 years, and he has never let me down. i love you, gare bear.
Nov 2024 · 40
i wish
Vesper Nov 2024
i wish
my poems were better
people would read them
and think
"what a good poet!"

i wish
that i was better
the best that i could be

i wish
i was cooler
my shoes
my clothes
my hair

i wish
that i was athletic
good at everything

but most of all
i wish
that she loved me
like i loved her

i wish
she didnt say no
and instead
said yes

i wish
i wasnt jealous of her
and the boys she liked

i wish
i wasnt sad
i wish
i wasnt sad

why am i sad
why am i sad
why am i sad

please love me
Nov 2024 · 351
the blues
Vesper Nov 2024
oh the blues
the blues
the blues
the blues

why do i
feel the blues
all that happened
was a little nick
why do i
feel the blues

the blues
the blues
the blues
they come
when you
are at your worst
but maybe
they aren't so bad


the blues
the blues
the blues
they help me through the worst
sometimes
the sad songs
make the void
smaller
the ineffable
blues
the blues

the blues

the blues.

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