Find somebody with the same gravitational pull
Because you're my world
And I want to get lost revolving around you

I'm sorry I have a outburst of a cry
In some of the posts and status I write
I'm scared to admit that I need help
But my brain subconsciously sends waves in vessels down to my finger nails
To hint that I need saving
If someone puts the Peices together
It's not attention I'm craving
Just an open hand
Instead of a fist clenched so tightly
I can form the words
spout water from my lungs  
And tell you I'm drowning
But when you ask what's wrong
How do I explain when I have no idea myself ?
I guess this isnt exactly what I imagined progress to look like

I want to sink into you
Drown in temptation
But I'm scared to submerge my head
I don't want to be blinded
And loose my senses again
I love you
Sounds so sweet underwater
Even if it's muffled and broken
But I've got faith
To not let one mistake
Discourage me from another
let the water clean the slate
And when I re-emerge
Your words just sound the same
We'll bask in the sunshines glow

No matter now great your embrace
I can't allow you to get a hold again
Lift me to great heights
Then let go and break me

Do my ramblings in the form of poems sound like a mad man with fantasy's of love?
I've been saying your name in my sleep
I've been told by People I won't remember next week
I didn't even catch there name

Drive south into the sunset
Roll down your window let me kiss you away
A repeat of the same old story
That I'm still trying to get my head around
You always said the sun will rise again over a mountain with a far too familiar name
I always said I wish these days would never end
That's just another night without you
Tell me what it's like up there
Because I swear it's hard to reach the summit of these walls
Oxygen is getting scarce and the winds of change are picking up
It's not the first time I've been blown away  
We'll watch the sunset sleep together

Staring at these walls for so long The only expression I could form
Was has blank as them
Because they couldn't see
What I could hide
Behind photo framed smiles
Cracks subside but never die
I won't lie to you
Like I lie to them
Because I believe your eyes
When you tell me
I can overcome the symptoms I'm harbouring

Our purpose is to leave a mark
Like when my thoughts rush to my finger tips to write them down in ink

Riding around on a rusty child sized bike far too small for my frame
Recapturing youth in a well kept playing abandoned in the middle of the day
Spinning you around on a roundabout too heavy for my weight
Wishing I could hold you on my shoulders at a gig some day
But I'm far too weak for that
We only made it half way to the castle that night
Traded bricks and ruines for climbing frames
I remember your chocolate melting in my pocket
Like my heart was for you
How can this make you happy?

I'm starting to fall in love with myself
More and more
With each passing day
The flaws I once saw as enimies
Have now become my friends
I've found strength
Under skin once damaged by doubt
I've always been on top
I never really came back down
Don't worry darling
I can see the ever gaping holes
I pray for you, I beg
I hope you see the effort I've made
To patch them up and grow
We've got little to no time
So I'll live for now
And forget tomorrow exists
You can have these words
Steal them if you must

You're my graveyard
A safe place to rest
Where I never feel alone

If I had it figured out
I'd help you with your own answer

The trees are naked and showing their wood

The Gods offered
A blessing of sorts
To live a favourite day over and over til the sun engulfs everything man made
Or to live out your mortal days
The choice chosen was the former
Waking up the next morning to her boyfriend
And a meal and meet up with her friends down at the petting farm
The pattern continued for 20 days and 20 nights forgetting her past each time she opened her eyes
Never learning from her mistakes
The people
The essence of the perfect day
Started to wilt and fade
Not sustainable for a world where the calendar never turned
And craved the unavoidable
Movement forward

You call and I can't help but answer
I've got a address book of reasons why I should cut you off
What happened to when we used to talk about the flowers
And a growth more significant than our own
constantly asking if you're feeling better
You never take advice, first hand experience dripping from these words
Guess you'll after make your own mistakes
I'm a tangled headphone cord
Getting on your nerves
Constantly asking if you're feeling better
Now I'm by your side while you struggle to sleep and refuse to eat
I'm the seventeen messages on your answer phone
Reminding you to breath
You're more of a invert than I've ever been
It took my school years to realise I wasn't weak
You've got to let go
Realise you're the gray clouds I always preach about
And the flowers struggle to grow without a helping hand

You were my first
First kiss
First love
First everything
Now that you're gone
I worry you'll be my last
But what's certain is this will be the last time I write about you

Spending time harvesting forbidden fruits with you
Was never a waste of my youth
Days shaped into the form of each other
Most winter nights
We didn't open our eyes
Till the sun rested it's head again
Waking only in darkness
But your morning face Shone so brightly
Like a gap in the curtains the sun broke through
Affecting my sight
But opening my eyes
Wider than they've ever been before
So I could see
The simplicity I needed in my life
Spending nights waking up complaining
About aches and back pains
Just to spend another night
Doing the exact same
Cramped up in a single sized bunk bed
Living the dream
I once created in my sleep
Before I woke up to you

I feel like I have to remind myself daily
Not to **** myself
Write down a list of reasons to stay
But I worry one day the weight is going to become too strong
Weighting down my fragile frame
Anchoring me towards one decision
Most days I feel it's getting better
But others become just too much
I spend my school days playing console games
Keeping my mind the best I could at bay
But now my love is poetry and all I do is pull emotions and thoughts from myself
Strung together in lines instead of choking on words I left at the back on my mind
I know I want to be here
Because I've got so much love
Even though my mind clouds my judgment
From time to time.

I can't wait for you to come over
Leave memories
In the form of wrappers
On my floor
But when you leave
I'll be left with ruins
A place holder as such
Leave a mark on me
An historical reminder
That will remain
as a poem in a book

I've spent a year trying to find myself
And I still haven't checked behind the couch
They say the hardest parts reversing
But I find ease in loosing ground
Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough
But my mind's filled with the same amount of optimism as doubt
I'm just a sum you'll never properly work out
The irony
In you'll find it in the last place you'll look
So I checked my old CDs because they always gave a ****
Follow a track list to a simplified time
Where my only crime
Was listening to songs about the devil and a realist life