I can only deduct
It is not our's to keep
Provided by the sun
The particles of the meek

I can only conclude
I'm riding on a wave
Paddling in different directions
Sifting through the haze

I can only decipher
My thoughts in simple words
Weaving through this emptiness
Connected to this earth

We can only dream of
That which we cannot be
Free from these stages
Of human suffering

Not unlike the rest of you
I was placed here
From beyond
Set adrift into this realm
Forced to be as one

The wreckage of my landing
The misery of my birth
We can never hope to be
More than what comes first

Holding on to misery
Somewhere deep within
It finds it's way up to the suffice  
Every now and then

Beyond the realm
Of gravitational pull
We shall break away
From the natural rules
Until then
Keep our Mother safe
After all
We are all together in this
Twirling through
Outer space
...

The deep shall
Always go deeper
All the way down
Without a trace...

Spirit attempts to wax brighter
In a symphony of perpetual grace

Love does not extinguish it's own flame
That's the ego playing it's foolish games

A Poet don't complain
Nor bear a bitter heart
The gift of acceptance
Is discovered in our art

So take some deep breaths
And think about thinking
Get beyond the past
And you will quit sinking!

My life is full of
Ups and downs
I asked my girlfriend
To read my poems
She said that she didn't think so
Unfortunately
She has no poetic soul
Dry inside I die
All my living is but a lie
I seem to have traded
All that matters
For an easy loveless ride

Dear Poetess's
Please
Consider me
Together
Our poetry could
Simply be!

Don’t take me out of contest
Don’t take me for granted
What I’m actually conveying
I’m a hero and a bandit
Above the table
I’m quite underhanded
I’m a salesman
Out to land it

As an artist
I architect my story
Crash and burn
Or
Endless glory
I am humbled
Entitled to breathe
I am a rockstar
Down on my knees

Try to keep up please

Just when you think
You’ve reached your goal
Life is full of *** holes
On easy road
..........

Perhaps a man
Has more then he needs
His hunger for love
His need, his greed
Surely life exist
Outside the stream
Impersonally
We hear the screams
Of the strong
Devouring the weak

We all must
Eat our meat
It is eternal
What we seek
............

Shed some light
And cancel all
The dark day's dawning
Hold the rain
Know that without you
I'll be drowning

Write it down
Burn it in
The sacred cauldron
Touch the gods
Hold the gate
The angel's calling

Touch my heart
Dreams expire
Lay beside me
Warm and tired

Sounds of laughter
Echoes wide
Lost in ether
Eccentric minds

I have no voice
I am an echo
In the frequency
Of the soul
No need for ear
Or even breath
That breathe
The truth of old
Simple sound
Bounced around
As it fades
And reappears
Hear me not
In the physical
Repeat and leave
Me here
...

And here I find peace
With the crazy in me
The shadows in my solitude
And those faces in my trees
Oh no!
No longer do such illusions of deception deceive
Upon the echoes of consciousness
  The crazy gradually flees...

If I where known
By my famous poems
Would not the world
Be at my feet?
Sacred halls
Gathering all
Of the words
That I speak
Special days
For my praise
As they repost
My every thought
But instead
I struggle
To make one trend
As my ego
Pays the cost...

Her elements
I hold dear
In the hemispheres
Of my spirit

The sigh's of the mighty
The vision's of the wise
In the flowering of flesh
She bears her inside's

Aesthetic blooming
The pagan's daydream
Her creation bleeds forth
   Into spirals of inspiring streams

   There shall the artist reside...

The abuse
Belongs to me
I carry it in my soul
Eternally
Within this body
Never letting go
Dark matter of fact
It’s my
Universal role
Never give in to them
And most of all
Never let them know

Fear not humanity
For I know you're out there
In the midst
Of this fanatical continuum

Anchored by compassion
Hearts still able to grieve
The ones who know
Without a doubt
Their leaders do deceive

The tears that fall
For the fallen souls
The dreamers of peace
The Devil's Foes

Hear me now
My fellow human
Break down these walls
These institutions of soul
Take charge and guard
The Hierarchies of reason
Embrace Humanity
And refuse to let go...

The sun no longer
Makes me cry
I refuse to love a lie

I can't express
A color scheme
Wordless thoughts
Are all I see

In poetic tongue
My emotions confess
Beautiful words
When I'm a mess

I can't describe
A moonlit night
A star filled sky
I'm not that bright

But
When my feelings overflow
About to burst
About to blow
I run to my pen
To save my soul!

The sun no longer
Makes me cry
I refuse to love a lie
...................................

Everyone
Lives in their own minds
So who am I to testify
About what is left
When love goes wrong
Will such resentments
Make us strong?

Actually
I see why
It all must ends
But how did we manage
To let it begin
Damaged hearts
Unfaithful souls
A perfect blueprint
For growing old alone

And so
A wave of nothingness
Runs through my veins
Now I have no more words
My emotions are drained
..........

Again she asked me why
Why do you help
That guy?
He's known
To cheat, steal and lie
Why in the ****!
Would you help that guy?
So..
I asked myself
And look inside
Then I realize
If he died
I'd cry
....

Humbly I admit
The brilliance of gifts
No matter world view or scars

Open to learn
My heart twists and churns
Experiencing empathy through art
...

These questions throughout ages
Have set our greatest quest
Searching for a path
That continues beyond death
It appears the nature of our soul
Is to bring forth good intentions
To overcome the barriers
Of our mind's misled inventions
These lessons can't be taught
By the words of some great teacher
Or by walking in the steps
Of some over zealous preacher
The experience of the knowing
Is an empirical gather wisdom
Guided by the universe
For those who've learned to listen...

It might sound courageous
Or a bit naive
But I'm not incline
To simply agree
With subjective thoughts
Or allegories
I gather my objections
Empirically

My god is logic
And the goddess of love
No need to bow down
They fit like a glove
A creative heart
And a hungry soul
Are the gifts and curses
Of growing old...

Things I can't remember
And things that never happened
Are stored in the same location
  I forget where...

If I show my emotions
My issues might try to escape
I can't seem to keep up
With her formalities
Normality I have to fake

Kisses to me feel awkward
Please don't touch me while I sleep
Exhausted are my conversations
She just can't seem to go that deep

But there are times
When life come undone
She is there, my voice is gone
And my empty heart
Weighs a ton

I just sat there
Staring out the window
Her words like blowing rain
I close my mind a little tighter
But her words blow through me
Just the same

Trees cushioned in quilts of snow
Life has been frozen before, you know
But in the comfort of our loft
Our sheets are warm
Her covers soft

Seasons change like minds unmade
And snow can fall as deep as pain
Change shall come
In a quickening breath
And spring shall arrive
In the time that's set...

Don't hold out for recess
The daunting pressure builds
Pick up your mettlesome
Impose your loving will!

The target is your nature
Imprinted in your code
An epigenetic explanation
Is about to unfold

So get yourself together
You cyborg by default
Your appendages are contagious
Your inflammation is your fault

Still... we can do much better
Then waiting around to parish...

Living with a forgiving heart has changed my reality.
My wounds heal at an accelerated speed.
A knife in my back does not define me.
I hold my head high and dissolve my dis-ease.
I care not to cast my reflections
nor lose my soul in the pursuit perfection.

In a higher vibration
I resolve my agreement’s
to this madness and rise above!

I'm not talking about me
How could I matter
Against the needs of the many
But you know?
You never really find
The truth you're looking for
And when it's all said and done
The doubt resides
In those obscure places
     Etched in the walls of your brain...

Here and now lies the realm
The comings and goings
Of the mysterious soul

From the agony  
Of a primal birth
Into the ignorance
Of an exciting fleshly role

Speculations manifest
Reason evolves into mysteries
'Til all that's left
Is a superstitious guess
To ease our eternal goal
......

Is it but a mere coincidence
That you recognize my character?
The language of our soul's
We carry forevermore everywhere....
Of course your voice is always there!
Poetry has always been our special affair....

Read you here, there and everywhere
Forevermore!!!!

Perhaps there's a force
Behind these poetic flows
A gathering of life times
All of our personal
   Hell's in toll...
Images
Cave-wall drawling
Books we've may have written
All our experiences
       All our misgivings...    
Here and now
Trapped within!
The subconscious mind
Warps and bends
To be a Poet
A calling within!!!

Eva Ives
Dark sunk eyes
She loves a pretty face
Which dream are you
Sweet lady blue
Her heavy heart
  Beats gay...

Eva Ives
Hidden in lies
The creatures
That she keeps
All shall be told
In the grim tales of old
  The nightmares she let seep...

Into my room
Under a quaint T.V. moon
Her passion pulls me in
Oh Sweet Eva Ives
In the distance of night
  Evil shall rise again ...

In a sudden
Burst of
Synaptic re-uptake
My euphoric
Feelings stall!
Flipping
My switch
Bewilder
Bewitched
‘And so I build
My wall's...

Nagging lies
I close my eyes
And search
My memories
I grasp for love
And drown in grief
Alone I bleed in peace

I read your mind
Your star struck eyes
This crazy man
Is f...king high!
My words they flow
From a worn out soul
Yet it's my goal
To love you
Even tho
You may never
Love me!
..................................

I caught a fleeting glimpse
A spark of the Devine!
Now a repeating pattern of light
Flashes through my rhymes

The forces for good
We follow
Shielded us from the heat
I come to bring a breath of hope
With words that you can breathe!

At the opening of our minds
An emotion of gratitude awaits
Love is the key
To reverse our fatal fates.

And so I write of love every day!

I've argued with delusion
I've argued 'til eye's green
I've wrestled with my fear of hell
While on the winning teams

I carried those delusions
In every measurable way
And so I know that you're not
     Going to like the things I think....

We are all eternal beings
Bound to natural lives
So take yourself a husband
Steal somebodies wife

Find yourself a fortress
A proper gender cave
Never live in fear
Of sickness nor the grave

I arrived at these conclusions
But they can change at anytime
No beginning nor ending and
These patterns aren't confined

Does it bother you
That every one is Divine
Or for some holly reason
Must you have the only line

The keepers have no gates
There's no end to these matters
There's just another maze
At the top of the ladders
...

Can any part of life
be larger than life?
Those who think they know it all
lingers in the basement
of all knowing!

Don’t be a stranger or afraid
in a world you never made
in such a dream setting
existence is trapped
Wake up from your mythic nap
leave your magic in a rhyme
use not science to define
We are all of these things
transcending into a larger thing

Without processing conscious review
It just happens to me and you
everybody and everything grows!

I never believed in demons
Invisible or otherwise
Not the kind straight out of hell
Plaguing humankind

I would never perceive
Superstitiously
What I've seen in human eyes
Where evil dwells
By chance or spell
**** or stay alive

I'm not an atheist, nor theist
The absolute cannot be known
But I've seen such evil, behind eyes
   Everywhere I've roamed...
........

At every paradigm change
All the old problems shall be solved
With solutions plague with new problems
So how can we finally evolve?

Have you ever truly tried
To change your mind
Of all those ways
We're taught to think

Like how to measure human life
On a blueprint of love and hate
All those years of fairy tales
Invisible spirits tied to fate

Have you ever questioned
Your mother's sighs
Or your father's
Heated rage

How could we have navigated
Through the darkness
Of our youth
Freshly developed brains
Washed in vintage child abuse

But here and now
Is where it starts
The evolution of our hearts...

The spiritual ladder is somewhat the same for everyone
"Archaic" beginnings as the spirit takes growth
Into "Magical" beliefs that fill our hearts
With Utopian reprieve

Yet the "Mythical" awaits like a principal in the next room
Wielding the Bible Belt of fundamental values
And if we were truly blessed we reach for
"Rationality" the next rung
On the ladder of spiritual evolution

This is the kicker:
Rationality leads to Agnosticism
And Atheism
But have no fear
For if you truly have the gift
The next rung will soothe your
Wayward soul

"Mysticism"
This is where you will find the masters
The Shamans
And yes, some Saints
Those who are known to live in the higher states
States of Enlightenment
The realization of Oneness
It is locked inside of each and everyone of us
It rears its presence in spiritual spikes
On the lower rung of the
Ladder Of Spiritual Evolution

So in conclusion
Only those of the higher rungs
Are the ones that we can't understand
We are not there yet
Or at least I'm not
Not this time around anyways...

Behind every tree
An eye watches
The hand of doubt
Hesitantly reaches
While quickly pulling back
To many eyes to count

But
You and I
Seek the gleam of
Eye to eye contact
Wide
Open curtains
Exchange of smiles
But we haven’t seen that
No, not in a coronavirus mile!

How they love
A public hanging
The executioners
In the crowd
Poised with their rocks
Like pitchers on the mound

How easily the judgment
That marked a ******'s birth
But this is not a riddle
   Take it for what it's worth...

Exes exist
Taking up space
Try to forget them
Try to erase
Yet sooner or later
There they are
Disfigurements
On the surface
Emotional scars...

And when I hide
It's not from you
It's from beneath
I've been exhumed

Before the sheaves
Were gathered in
I faced the fire
That has no end

And there before
The thrown of lies
I was pulled back
From where I died

To be with you
We've traveled far
Exhumed and now
A burnt out star
...

After exploring
Many alternate routes
With an ambitions to alleviate
All my existential doubts
The questions in the deeper depths
Beyond the endless spans...
I'm afraid it appears
We've all been tricked
Or somehow even ******
To a state of uncertainties
Where we temporally survive
And think the distant darkness
That by some chance we're still alive....

Temporarily permanent
This limited eternity
One way or another
We surely won
Some lottery
A chance
To live
To love
To be
Only death
Can set souls free
Free from the spell
Of this existential dream
...

Dear friends, I miss you all!

I am no longer online to be snagged by lure,
AI no longer has a spell on me.
Deep in nature is where I seek my cures,
off the grid I'm finally free.

.

In deep thought
The fabric of existence is explored
Beyond the quantum darkness
The blind spot of source

A jolt of synapse
And the heart is intrigued
But to search even farther
Is an existential gift...

I searched for what could not be known
Refusing to surrender I walked alone
It comes to light, that which cannot be seen
Below the surface of what we once believed

I fell in love with a cheating heart
Upon a rainy day
I only wished that I could sleep
And make it go away
Jumping off the cliff of chance
Into the great unknown
The depths of knowledge are far beyond
The fabled streets of gold...

Overwhelming devils
Demons of disillusions
Tossed in with regrets
Churning in term oil
Echoes of retribution
Prodding and poking
Stabbing uncertainties
Spasms of unjustness
And here I lay

Rest well my child
Waste no time in beliefs
Global visions of dignity
Wars that suddenly cease

Think not nor contemplate
The moment of our demise
All the things that bother
Old folks in the night

Sleep tight!

Taunted by unseen forces
I am powerless to extremes
Why shall I be forsaken
In my lucid lover’s dream?

In cognitive slumber
I live a life of grief
I play the easy plunder
And await my special thief...

I see our world
Through enlightened eyes
I know my heart is not divine
The paths of love
Tear through the mind...

Chasing her, I dread the voice
That wakes me when I tire
Beckoning me to pace myself
And seek unknown desires...

The trespasses of one’s heart
Are far beyond the soul
Thus ‘tis the larger part
That I may never know