I turned to face her, her eyes ruled my guts
I tried to embrace her, self-mutilated in her cuts
I wiped the wicked from her gloom
There pink elephants consumed her room
I pretended not to notice her self-destructive maze
So many precious moment I was locked away

I'm here if you need someone to bleed upon
That's all I really have to offer since I've been gone
Gone like your trust in love, gone like your heart
Gone like your need for a father but where would I start....

Let me catch up
With your suffering heart
Tormented by love's fatigue
The brokenhearted wows me
Your longings that can never be

I too have a shadow following
The darkness of soul that begs for light
Spent my adult life in a literal prison
Lost my children, my world, my life

Still my voice is the liberal in the room
And no matter how ****** up my life "was"
I love who I am
And I'm happy
   So hang in there...

And in the rapture
Of those forgotten
The stars shall spark
A final bargain

Within the eye
An eternal light
Beyond the realm
Of wrong versus right

To exist forever
Shall drive our will
Beyond the knowing
Of the subjectively real..

The vortex of the cloud dragon
has swallowed up the sun
His heart burns with fire and rage
his tail is shiny spun...

Fortunately
My dreams cling
to silver linings
No Dragon can keep
my love from shining!

Life is either worth living
or you plainly wish to die
Poetry is a magic carpet
And so our spirits fly!
...

No one can guide us through our own personal existential test. And so in the end, I’m the only hero I have left.
No one can control my desires, no one can see through my eyes.
Our anger tends to tell more truth, our kindness sometimes lies.
So..
Count on yourself to make the correct course changes.
Simply searching inward can get you through each and every life stage.

Positively
I want to be me
I possess a loving heart
And gifted eyes to see

And somewhere between
The physical and unseen
There exist an over whelming
Need to be free
To love beyond the seas
Sometimes I wonder
Am I on my own team?

Although it's saddening
To feel self suffering
The suffering in our world
Makes my empathy bleeds

And yet
I have hope
And send it
Upon the breeze.....

I have this recurring dream
Of the greatest love I’ve ever known
I must have spent a lifetime
Never ever letting go

I made so many mistakes
But losing you was the worst
No other god-sent angel
Could ever lift this curse

The void that you left
Was my world come undone
You were the center of my universe
My bright and early sun

Unfortunately jealousy ruled
My very existence
My naivete never failed
My foolishness persisted

It was my way of keeping
My immature heart safe
I felt no need to grow up
And that sealed my fate

And you, you’re just a dream
I wish would never end
I’d give up all I have
To be with you again

I would love you
True and free
I would love you
In spite of me
I would love you
In that blouse
I would love you
Way down south
I would love you
And do whatever you say
I would love you
But I'd rather just get laid!

Velvety roses so pleasing to the senses
Convey such messages as apologies and love
The aroma of angels in blue blurry skies
When the spirit of giving comes from above

To brighten your new day
With magic and laughter
A spectrum of colors
So brilliantly captured

A life refreshed
Each moment begins
The happiness of new days
Is the energy I send...

Somewhere deep within
The chambers of forgotten love
She still lingers
Periodically subconsciously
She breaks free
She visits me in peaceful slumber
Unannounced and antiquated
To any short term
Thought or event of my daily resolve
She is a reminder of bad choices
Of a naive hungry heart...
Although no longer do I bleed
My mind opens wider realizing
She shall always be a part
Of who I am

The truth is…
I am penniless
I live in a small barn
in my girlfriends back yard
no running water
she lets me use her hose
I run her farm for my stay
I do own a F-150 2010 truck
she keep insurance on it for me
I spent most of my adult life in prison
people fear ex-convicts
so I have limited friends

I am the less of us
I can’t afford to donate money to Hellopoetry

Did you think differently?
well I am rich
I have love
it is all I care about
I am 59 in great health
I lift weights, run and study daily

I love my life
Do you?

I wish you were mine
Captured in time
Fast asleep forevermore
Gathering stars
From worlds afar
Teaching us well
What love is for...

Two dreamers dreaming
When worlds collides
Yet which one will stray
To the otherside...
Where sunlight
Shines strange
Familiarities change
Turning to paradise
Before our very eyes...

Twelve billion years, I’m still here
Existing beyond the void of love and fear
Where nowhere becomes somewhere
And emptiness becomes me
Bound by the hierarchies
And called of spirit to be free

Subjectively pursuing the objective life’s best
My soul ever fighting this simple-minded quest
Still I proceed and the vanity never ends
As fast as I can put it down, I pick it up again

A god that ascends or a god that descends
It makes me no never mind
I probably worshipped one or the other
In a better vanished time

Time in a moment disintegrates
Love like a molecule evaporates
Thoughts are like clouds passing over real loud
On into this world they penetrate
Solutions with new problems that complicate

Blinded by neuroses my desires run wild
I turn over control to my inner lost child
Developmental damage on the ladder of my soul
Pretending not to notice my issues become my foes

Twelve billion years, somehow I’m still here

Invisible
The rest of your story
The parts you fail to compose
It's hard to see through subjective glory
Posted in italics and bold
But there beneath your cover creases
We can peep your fragile brittle pieces
Here and there scattered about
Your note and tags
Could never hide your doubt
Oh my dear friend let it pour
Upon the page, give us more
Put away the avatar
Let it shine who you are
Take a little advice from me
Let the pen set you free!

That one cold day
You were gone
Oh how I longed
To be wrong
Believing
That you could
Never return
Owning
All those bridges
Burned

If like you
I could
Walk away
Save my love
For another day
In the silence
Of forgetfulness
Sudden darkness
Flip a switch
No dread lingering
No emo unrest
Just rap it up
I've done my best

Then I would be
Broken too
Breaking all
The golden rules
...

From the take-off
I was instructed well
T-minus nine and counting
Check those buzzers and bells

An adrenaline high as I reached the sky
With such ease I was learning to fly...

But no one prepared me
For the inevitable crash
Into a land of cheaters
And love that never last

Like a fool I cried
Those mourning dove tears
Was it merely a lesson
Or perhaps a cure

'Cuz now I fly
A bit closer to the ground
I refuse to let emotional chemistry
Ever bring me down...

Raw passion so intense it intoxicates
Captured in a moment of no escape
Two lovers erupt in heated naked bliss
One spark from her eyes and the fuse is lit

Brush of skin and an electric charge ignites
******* *****, chill bumps take flight
The scent of pheromone impairs the senses
The fulfillment of desires, the unspoken consensus

Take in deep, that driving heat
Perspiration flows, dampened sheets
Saturated in lust and no regrets
Life is awesome I must confess...

Black hole hourglass
Time ******* through
How do you deal with
Entropy as a muse?

You can never know anything
Absolutely...
Except that
You can never know anything
Absolutely...

With restless soul
I travel these roads
I long for a heart
Of solid gold

You got to be going somewhere to get lost
And so I'm only out here gathering moss
I sleep away in nocturnal gloom
When the darkness hides the hopeful moon

When the daylight comes
I'll break camp and go
Beyond the next ridge
Where nobody knows...

Of course I can carry my own weight
And evidently the weight
Of others wonderful
Sedentary minded people...
...friends and relatives

But despite all the
"Passion"
I can muster up..

I cannot carry
The weight of the world!

I've been cursed into
World's beyond
Exactly where I go
I surely don't belong
As if my body
Expels my soul
Through the ether
My existence flows

But I am The Poet
My words have breath
Happy Halloween
To you
With all I have left!!!!!

They ascended
Left me
Earth bound
The world
Ended
Yet
I'm still
Around

Flesh
Eating
Monsters
Hunt
Where
I sleep
Still I own
This
Soul
That
You
Seek
...

In a small town
In Alabama
...
There lives a Poetess
As sweet as can be
One who's been here
(On HP)
Longer than me
Living on loving
And good poetry

Every beautiful moment
Every tragic scream
She's there to soften
Realities sting
Lucidly asleep
Wandering
Through dreams
She is a loyal subject
And she is
The Queen

Her smile is as bright
As her mind is wise
Lovely makeup
Never a disguise
To peer through
Her Southern
Smiley eyes
Is to know
Somehow
That hope
Is alive
...

Beneath Purple Mountains
In accordance with mankind
Purpose is lost to fear
And fear is lost to wine

And so the drunkest leader
Becomes the one we choose
Drowning in our history
In the safety of our *****...

And when I'm finally
Forced to fade
Slight of minds
No longer vague
Inconclusively
Placed on trial
Paradoxically wearing
  A black tooth smile...

Hear no evidence
Of my rebellious heart
Encipher not
My darkest art
For I have loved
And lost it all
Forgive my words
And my resolve
....

If only I could move beyond
This page of bad ideas
And wade through this propaganda
To dismiss the way I feel

But the future is looking grim
For the consumers of the free
For all our slippery slopes
Shall bring us to our knees...

I suffer from a surprise left
The never ending fight
All I saw was black  tights
I only loose it late at night
I guess I never got back up
From life's patented upper cut
Year's I've spent in somatic  extreme
I surrendered to my unconsciousness
    Now life is but a dream
Or is it a meme?

Deep in my psyche
Broken contacts spark
Faulty connections
Between my brain and heart

So many traumatic incidents
I somehow survived
Violent childhood
Prison life

Over and over
Throughout my life
Surrounded by thugs
With guns and knives

Losing my children
When they were quite small
Is the most traumatic
Experience of all

I fought to hold on
In the face of adversity
Prayed for death
To escape a grim reality

Then I discovered a switch within
A way to shut down and try to mend

Flip the switch of fear
And now you're brave
Flip the switch of emotional pain
And now my heart is lame

Unfortunately over many years
All that negative energy reappears
Shadows and voices
Paranoia and indecisive choices

It feels so good at first
Yet to switch it off
In the end is a curse...

There's a problem with
Our powers
Worldwide
Weapons on patrol
Posturing with our patriotic fist
Controlling foreign soils (souls)

Competition with the big dogs
China on the rise
Vladimir Putin is being so **** nice
No needs for anyone to die!

While here (In the states)
Simple basic dignities
Are at there all time low's
Even our basic health cares
Have become
Death panels roles

And don't look at our boarder
The place we've dropped the ball
A bunch of freedom's nationalist
Shaped by our own fear's cause!

Guns, guns, guns
Shooting everyone
Welcome to America
Look what we've become!

Drawn like dust into wayward winds
Across barren straits ‘til we live again
These forces that form this universe
Direct our love with unquenchable thirst

My ghost gets trapped between these worlds
As I hauntingly await my special girl
Until we begin again in a time of new
I’ll wait and watch and dream of you

Free will gets lost within this stage
No soul breaks free of true love or rage
At nights I whisper in your sleeping ear
We’ll be together again soon my dear

Uncommon are the necessary
Common denominators of thought
That can unlock the prison of mind

As is irreducible
This eternal enigmatic maze
As our personal stories unwind

Deity becomes accessible
In the privacy of heart
But lost upon the multitudes
Of religions so far apart

And this too shall pass
Is but wisdom of the weak
As we're locked in a free fall
Hoping to land on our feet

And perhaps I know nothing
Of tears that fill your eyes
Or hearts that beat in suffering
Or the arrogance of human pride

But I will not lie to myself
Or pretend that I am special
I am but a molecule
Just a single particle...

The story that you tell yourself,
is nothing more than a spell...
Spells can be broken.
The real you awaits,
the evolution of your soul.
Like a caterpillar the ego
must go.

I’m having trouble
With communication
I talk far too much
  In all my relations...
All I’m really looking for
Is instant gratification
I long for home but
My heart
Seem to be
  On a vacation...
I realize
This is all just
Broken
Poetic contemplation...
................................................­

Word sketcher
In waiting rooms
And stalls
Incomplete thoughts
Writings unresolved

Bits and pieces
In boxes
He hoards
Parts and pieces
Of his very core

Inspired thoughts
That found no rhyme
Lovers lost
Between scribbles
And lines

Perhaps someday
He'll write his book
With incomplete sentences
That have no hooks

Or passionate themes
Of romantic dreams
That run amok
When the telephone rings

And so another lost thought
Of the sketchers get boxed...

These addictions
My mind says I need
But it’s only what I want
Because I’m bored as can be

Fill this emptiness
My urge is on repeat
Give me some ***, food
alcoholic, drugs
This hunger needs to feed

Who can go without
The rush that they now know
Every time the needle sticks
The world just turns to gold

In between is a living hell
Yet although they don’t seem to mind
They return to the ******* ******
Time after time

And that my friends
Is the condition you’re seeing
When this addictive nature
Hi Jack’s a human being.

Words carefully gathered
And placed upon lines
Creative fitful thoughts
Tighter than rhymes
Emotional words
Rerouted, relived
More than just feelings
These Poetical Gift
...

Time is but a nagging measurement
Kinetic forces, inertia unleashed
Every birthday now forth
One year closer to entropy

Deformity of my spirituality
Preserve my heart in wine
The calamity of my existence
Chaotically divine

My charity dreary
My energy empathy drains
As I share your agony
To ease your suffering

I seek refuge
Alone in the wilderness
Drawing faces on the moon
Deities behind the clouds
Here wayward creature
Are solemnly set a fowl
.....

Okay!
I agree
the earth is in
dire need
scared and blemishes
from sea to sea
a major facelift
would set the earth free
from the likes
of you and me!
Save the whales
save the trees
bring back paradise
bring back the bees
okay
I agree!

Let the Weeping Willow weep
there can be no resolve
in her swinging swaying feats
your words may falter
so just let her sleep
her rest will come
when Her Maker shall she meet
within my heart
she shall always skip a beat
so let the Weeping Willow weep
……………………

In that time of our lives
When spirit seeks out truth
Let us not become the victims
Of our lazy minded youth

But rather be thorough
And do this on your own
Check behind each parable
Cleverly crafted, carved in stone

Beware the Old Wives Fables
Let the pictorial language paint
The kingdoms of the garden
Full of sinners, lacking saints

Cast out into the deserts
False believers would surely die
Yet it's more than superstition
Keeping us alive
...................

In the eyes of a dying baby
The host that just arrived
Starving for a glimpse of living
Somewhere beyond the night

Paralyzing vanity
Hearts sinking low
These World Views
Bleed our busy souls

Here in paradise
Where we can never die
A thankful heart grows old
Finding meaning in this life

Still the suffering is persistent
In the dregs of the camera eye
How fortunate we are
   To live this peaceful mind...

Never take for granted
The ability to disclose
The direction of your intent
As your poetry starts to flow
And never take for granted
The necessity to divulge
Where the hell you're going
As your poetry begins to evolve
Let the vagueness of our premise
Be set free within the lines
Let the prudence of the poet
Speak far beyond the rhymes...

May clouds of uncertainty be swept away
And the rainbow's end cast upon your day
May bright blue skies and deep blue seas
Be the only blues you feel and see
The seeds of love that exist within
May they grow to heaven and back again
And here and now may joy and grace
Paint a smile upon your pretty face...

If only
To live in that zone
Yet patterns shift
From hemisphere to hemisphere
Abstractions reside
In the passing of minds
Like manna from heaven
Perhaps
Gather best in the morn

From Artist to con-artist
Manipulation of words depend
On the placement of the wave
In our creative brain

In conclusion
We all return
Sooner or later

Dear friends, I miss you all!

I am no longer online to be snagged by lure,
AI no longer has a spell on me.
Deep in nature is where I seek my cures,
off the grid I'm finally free.

.

The storm passed
As the sun broke over the Horizon
The players scattered all over
The love stain battle field

Broken spirits and wounded souls
As far as the minds eye could see
Yet some how we remain untarnished
Refusing to surrender, refusing to bleed...

Our ships taking on today's problems
As we slowly sink into tomorrows seas
Trust is a life-jacket, forgiveness is dry land
We strive to drown in love as deeply as we can...

Things have been rearranged
There're not as they were
Universal disruptions
Right here on earth
Memory recalls
Stripped from our minds
Where ever life leads me
I note it in rhyme!