With restless soul
I travel these roads
I long for a heart
Of solid gold

You got to be going somewhere to get lost
And so I'm only out here gathering moss
I sleep away in nocturnal gloom
When the darkness hides the hopeful moon

When the daylight comes
I'll break camp and go
Beyond the next ridge
Where nobody knows...

To and fro I travel
Yet I find no place to rest
My heart is but a shadow
Darkness with a breath

Home is but a memory
As I lay upon hard ground
And dream of ancient glories
When I was once renowned

Now I am forgotten
Demonized by lore
Cast into a hell dimension
Just beyond life's door...

From the take-off
I was instructed well
T-minus nine and counting
Check those buzzers and bells

An adrenaline high as I reached the sky
With such ease I was learning to fly...

But no one prepared me
For the inevitable crash
Into a land of cheaters
And love that never last

Like a fool I cried
Those mourning dove tears
Was it merely a lesson
Or perhaps a cure

'Cuz now I fly
A bit closer to the ground
I refuse to let emotional chemistry
Ever bring me down...

The truth is…
I am penniless
I live in a small barn
in my girlfriends back yard
no running water
she lets me use her hose
I run her farm for my stay
I do own a F-150 2010 truck
she keep insurance on it for me
I spent most of my adult life in prison
people fear ex-convicts
so I have limited friends

I am the less of us
I can’t afford to donate money to Hellopoetry

Did you think differently?
well I am rich
I have love
it is all I care about
I am 59 in great health
I lift weights, run and study daily

I love my life
Do you?

I wish you were mine
Captured in time
Fast asleep forevermore
Gathering stars
From worlds afar
Teaching us well
What love is for...

Two dreamers dreaming
When worlds collides
Yet which one will stray
To the otherside...
Where sunlight
Shines strange
Familiarities change
Turning to paradise
Before our very eyes...

Twelve billion years, I’m still here
Existing beyond the void of love and fear
Where nowhere becomes somewhere
And emptiness becomes me
Bound by the hierarchies
And called of spirit to be free

Subjectively pursuing the objective life’s best
My soul ever fighting this simple-minded quest
Still I proceed and the vanity never ends
As fast as I can put it down, I pick it up again

A god that ascends or a god that descends
It makes me no never mind
I probably worshipped one or the other
In a better vanished time

Time in a moment disintegrates
Love like a molecule evaporates
Thoughts are like clouds passing over real loud
On into this world they penetrate
Solutions with new problems that complicate

Blinded by neuroses my desires run wild
I turn over control to my inner lost child
Developmental damage on the ladder of my soul
Pretending not to notice my issues become my foes

Twelve billion years, somehow I’m still here

There's a problem with
Our powers
Worldwide
Weapons on patrol
Posturing with our patriotic fist
Controlling foreign soils (souls)

Competition with the big dogs
China on the rise
Vladimir Putin is being so **** nice
No needs for anyone to die!

While here (In the states)
Simple basic dignities
Are at there all time low's
Even our basic health cares
Have become
Death panels roles

And don't look at our boarder
The place we've dropped the ball
A bunch of freedom's nationalist
Shaped by our own fear's cause!

Guns, guns, guns
Shooting everyone
Welcome to America
Look what we've become!

If only I could move beyond
This page of bad ideas
And wade through this propaganda
To dismiss the way I feel

But the future is looking grim
For the consumers of the free
For all our slippery slopes
Shall bring us to our knees...

Beneath Purple Mountains
In accordance with mankind
Purpose is lost to fear
And fear is lost to wine

And so the drunkest leader
Becomes the one we choose
Drowning in our history
In the safety of our *****...

In a small town
In Alabama
...
There lives a Poetess
As sweet as can be
One who's been here
(On HP)
Longer than me
Living on loving
And good poetry

Every beautiful moment
Every tragic scream
She's there to soften
Realities sting
Lucidly asleep
Wandering
Through dreams
She is a loyal subject
And she is
The Queen

Her smile is as bright
As her mind is wise
Lovely makeup
Never a disguise
To peer through
Her Southern
Smiley eyes
Is to know
Somehow
That hope
Is alive
...

Uncommon are the necessary
Common denominators of thought
That can unlock the prison of mind

As is irreducible
This eternal enigmatic maze
As our personal stories unwind

Deity becomes accessible
In the privacy of heart
But lost upon the multitudes
Of religions so far apart

And this too shall pass
Is but wisdom of the weak
As we're locked in a free fall
Hoping to land on our feet

And perhaps I know nothing
Of tears that fill your eyes
Or hearts that beat in suffering
Or the arrogance of human pride

But I will not lie to myself
Or pretend that I am special
I am but a molecule
Just a single particle...

Okay!
I agree
the earth is in
dire need
scared and blemishes
from sea to sea
a major facelift
would set the earth free
from the likes
of you and me!
Save the whales
save the trees
bring back paradise
bring back the bees
okay
I agree!

I've been cursed into
World's beyond
Exactly where I go
I surely don't belong
As if my body
Expels my soul
Through the ether
My existence flows

But I am The Poet
My words have breath
Happy Halloween
To you
With all I have left!!!!!

Let the Weeping Willow weep
there can be no resolve
in her swinging swaying feats
your words may falter
so just let her sleep
her rest will come
when Her Maker shall she meet
within my heart
she shall always skip a beat
so let the Weeping Willow weep
……………………

Deep in my psyche
Broken contacts spark
Faulty connections
Between my brain and heart

So many traumatic incidents
I somehow survived
Violent childhood
Prison life

Over and over
Throughout my life
Surrounded by thugs
With guns and knives

Losing my children
When they were quite small
Is the most traumatic
Experience of all

I fought to hold on
In the face of adversity
Prayed for death
To escape a grim reality

Then I discovered a switch within
A way to shut down and try to mend

Flip the switch of fear
And now you're brave
Flip the switch of emotional pain
And now my heart is lame

Unfortunately over many years
All that negative energy reappears
Shadows and voices
Paranoia and indecisive choices

It feels so good at first
Yet to switch it off
In the end is a curse...

You can never know anything
Absolutely...
Except that
You can never know anything
Absolutely...

Drawn like dust into wayward winds
Across barren straits ‘til we live again
These forces that form this universe
Direct our love with unquenchable thirst

My ghost gets trapped between these worlds
As I hauntingly await my special girl
Until we begin again in a time of new
I’ll wait and watch and dream of you

Free will gets lost within this stage
No soul breaks free of true love or rage
At nights I whisper in your sleeping ear
We’ll be together again soon my dear

Of course I can carry my own weight
And evidently the weight
Of others wonderful
Sedentary minded people...
...friends and relatives

But despite all the
"Passion"
I can muster up..

I cannot carry
The weight of the world!

Word sketcher
In waiting rooms
And stalls
Incomplete thoughts
Writings unresolved

Bits and pieces
In boxes
He hoards
Parts and pieces
Of his very core

Inspired thoughts
That found no rhyme
Lovers lost
Between scribbles
And lines

Perhaps someday
He'll write his book
With incomplete sentences
That have no hooks

Or passionate themes
Of romantic dreams
That run amok
When the telephone rings

And so another lost thought
Of the sketchers get boxed...

Never take for granted
The ability to disclose
The direction of your intent
As your poetry starts to flow
And never take for granted
The necessity to divulge
Where the hell you're going
As your poetry begins to evolve
Let the vagueness of our premise
Be set free within the lines
Let the prudence of the poet
Speak far beyond the rhymes...

In the eyes of a dying baby
The host that just arrived
Starving for a glimpse of living
Somewhere beyond the night

Paralyzing vanity
Hearts sinking low
These World Views
Bleed our busy souls

Here in paradise
Where we can never die
A thankful heart grows old
Finding meaning in this life

Still the suffering is persistent
In the dregs of the camera eye
How fortunate we are
   To live this peaceful mind...

If only
To live in that zone
Yet patterns shift
From hemisphere to hemisphere
Abstractions reside
In the passing of minds
Like manna from heaven
Perhaps
Gather best in the morn

From Artist to con-artist
Manipulation of words depend
On the placement of the wave
In our creative brain

In conclusion
We all return
Sooner or later

May clouds of uncertainty be swept away
And the rainbow's end cast upon your day
May bright blue skies and deep blue seas
Be the only blues you feel and see
The seeds of love that exist within
May they grow to heaven and back again
And here and now may joy and grace
Paint a smile upon your pretty face...

The storm passed
As the sun broke over the Horizon
The players scattered all over
The love stain battle field

Broken spirits and wounded souls
As far as the minds eye could see
Yet some how we remain untarnished
Refusing to surrender, refusing to bleed...

Our ships taking on today's problems
As we slowly sink into tomorrows seas
Trust is a life-jacket, forgiveness is dry land
We strive to drown in love as deeply as we can...

In that time of our lives
When spirit seeks out truth
Let us not become the victims
Of our lazy minded youth

But rather be thorough
And do this on your own
Check behind each parable
Cleverly crafted, carved in stone

Beware the Old Wives Fables
Let the pictorial language paint
The kingdoms of the garden
Full of sinners, lacking saints

Cast out into the deserts
False believers would surely die
Yet it's more than superstition
Keeping us alive
...................

I suffer from a surprise left
The never ending fight
All I saw was black  tights
I only loose it late at night
I guess I never got back up
From life's patented upper cut
Year's I've spent in somatic  extreme
I surrendered to my unconsciousness
    Now life is but a dream
Or is it a meme?

Things have been rearranged
There're not as they were
Universal disruptions
Right here on earth
Memory recalls
Stripped from our minds
Where ever life leads me
I note it in rhyme!

And when I'm finally
Forced to fade
Slight of minds
No longer vague
Inconclusively
Placed on trial
Paradoxically wearing
  A black tooth smile...

Hear no evidence
Of my rebellious heart
Encipher not
My darkest art
For I have loved
And lost it all
Forgive my words
And my resolve
....

How shall we contend
With emotional unrest at large
Leading us down
Roads of  madness
Coupled with delusions
Of grandeur
Holding on to beliefs
Worth dying for...

It is a very unstable world
Yet as Neil Peart once wrote
The city seems calm
In this violent sea...

Words carefully gathered
And placed upon lines
Creative fitful thoughts
Tighter than rhymes
Emotional words
Rerouted, relived
More than just feelings
These Poetical Gift
...

The attempted
Redemption began
The brooding
The shadows within

Words unspoken
Forever unsung
In to the abyss
Of all you have done

But the redemption
Never really takes
And after all the living
You forsake
The quest for redemption
   Was but a mere taste
Of the suffering
You caused!


Moving on now!

They ascended
Left me
Earth bound
The world
Ended
Yet
I'm still
Around

Flesh
Eating
Monsters
Hunt
Where
I sleep
Still I own
This
Soul
That
You
Seek
...

I’m having trouble
With communication
I talk far too much
  In all my relations...
All I’m really looking for
Is instant gratification
I long for home but
My heart
Seem to be
  On a vacation...
I realize
This is all just
Broken
Poetic contemplation...
................................................­

Time is but a nagging measurement
Kinetic forces, inertia unleashed
Every birthday now forth
One year closer to entropy

Deformity of my spirituality
Preserve my heart in wine
The calamity of my existence
Chaotically divine

My charity dreary
My energy empathy drains
As I share your agony
To ease your suffering

I seek refuge
Alone in the wilderness
Drawing faces on the moon
Deities behind the clouds
Here wayward creature
Are solemnly set a fowl
.....

Everything is beautiful, as far as I can see
Everything is wonderful when my eyes bleed

Everyone is casual, sifting stems and seeds
Everyone is pleasant, spirits soaring free

Everything is peaceful when life is but a dream
Everyone is kicking back, hear the eagle scream

Roll another dream, smoke rings fill the sky
Pass it to the left,  never pass it by

Everything is kosher, watch the children climb
Everything returns to sources in it’s own time

Everything is beautiful, as far as I can see
Everything is wonderful when my eyes bleed

These addictions
My mind says I need
But it’s only what I want
Because I’m bored as can be

Fill this emptiness
My urge is on repeat
Give me some ***, food
alcoholic, drugs
This hunger needs to feed

Who can go without
The rush that they now know
Every time the needle sticks
The world just turns to gold

In between is a living hell
Yet although they don’t seem to mind
They return to the ******* ******
Time after time

And that my friends
Is the condition you’re seeing
When this addictive nature
Hi Jack’s a human being.

Dear Liz

I don't mind
When you're weak
When my ear is what you seek
When your voice
Is softly spoke
I don't mind
Your subtle strokes
I'll be here again today
Cause you take my breath away
..........

It was
In the deepest depths
Of fiery hell
That I met
My Sweetest Jezebel

It may seem lost
To common reason
But you see demons
Where indeed in season

Can you imagine
How I came to grips
With a chick with horns
Wearing a **** red slip

And those eyes
That glowed green
Demon goddess
Dark shadow Queen

   No reason
To be concern
Into the depths
She did return
   As for me...
I lived and learnt
I'm no longer
   Getting burnt...

And these bottom lines
I so vaguely define
Full of missing spaces
Vanished in time
Perhaps too much of me
On these pages to bear
My ink pen desperately
Pleading for air
Still my heart
Revisits despair

And where is the empathy
You said was missing
After a cold hard look
At my dispositions
Shall we still pretend
That a heart can truly mend
I'd love to embrace
Such a beautiful end

For my falsehood
I'd surely atone
But these unfinished poems
Get written in Rome...

So strong
My need to define
Meaning get lost
Within vague lines

What I try to express
In a poetic displays
Is as a Traveler
I realize
I can never stay

But I'll visit you
From time to time
From line to line
I'll try to rhyme

But reading you
Has been my greatest pleasure
I appreciate you all
Beyond poetic measure!

As I walk this world alone
I search for love
I search for home
Familiar spirits
That I once knew
Pass on by without a clue
Passion dreams of life's I lived
How much more can my soul give

I try to follow her
The Queen of Night
Amazed of all
Her splined light
To see in all direction known
Yet the ghost of me still walks alone

Through spirit realms
Through lover's eyes
Invisible doorways
Where secrets hide

I seek the unknown
As chill bumps rise
I seek the truth
Of her and I

The points in time
We leave behind
The keys
To love unknown
By the brilliance
Of the poetic mind
Envisioning streets
Of gold

Holding on tight
To the breath of life
To sustain me
one more mile
Beyond this darkness
Into her light
If only
For a while...

Invisible
The rest of your story
The parts you fail to compose
It's hard to see through subjective glory
Posted in italics and bold
But there beneath your cover creases
We can peep your fragile brittle pieces
Here and there scattered about
Your note and tags
Could never hide your doubt
Oh my dear friend let it pour
Upon the page, give us more
Put away the avatar
Let it shine who you are
Take a little advice from me
Let the pen set you free!

Sometimes
Promises get broken
Subconsciously unspoken
After all
You can always say
You were only joking

I'm not afraid anymore
If you're going to leave
Close the cellar door
I've been in your chains
For far too many years
It's prime time for a cure

I peeped the light
Things can only get better
You can keep my coat
Just let go my sweater

Once upon a midnight sky
the ice begin to melt
old and gray the end of days
I finally lost myself
I embraced a spark
of love and hope
a dream of you and I
a momentary lapse of reason
beneath a midnight sky

Ode to those condemned
Whose hearts are marked with sin
Who craved the light that blinds
Those poor soul's tricked by mind

From towns too small move on
From the mount to high leap off
From the world so cruel
Where hypocrites rule
Change your name
And let your heart be lost


Ode to the Lost and Forgotten
Abandon and labeled as rotten
In their hearts disappear
In their rear view mirrors
Condemned to the low down trodden...

Branded deeply
Our hearts beliefs
All the labels
Society heaps
*******, *****
Prodigal Son
Know you're not
The only one

These labels need
Little proven
Psychologically
Scarlet woven
Anxieties and depression
Are certainly fixed
As long as these labels
Upon us stick
...

Caravan of infidel's
Show me
What I've missed
I tip my hat
Raise my glass
And await
The gypsy kiss

Burry now
Those hatches
Stained in blood
Of old
I lost my reason
To live in hate
Many years ago

But have you?