Act like you trust people
But do not .

There lies the truth between the lines
or maybe they are lies
Maybe you found them
or maybe i made them find you
Its like an awakening at times
all the emotions unitise
Get high on the sprinklers of deceit which i spell on you
while i weave your reality like a web
the only way out is - that you cannot.

Born as a forest
overwhelmed by trees

i had a dream once
but now i am awake

don't it feel good when i go deeper
wouldn't feel nice if all night i was in you
Imma put in work
because tonight girl you deserve it
wrapping your legs around my neckbone

i have been coming in your dreams
making you *** in your jeans
i **** your soul
i will be releasing your spiritual
i will work you out
get you right with the physical
you can ride me
like you ride the elliptical
go on and on a loop

You claim you see through me
but I ain't even made of glass
I built a time machine
so we could eliminate the past

you say you really need
i say I can't feed , no more
am just living my life
being with you and the other two
can we set it all aside ...
I cannot pretend
lets make the most of this weekend
you and your three friends
they are coming on all for your defence
but they cannot prevent
these fake feelings that i got for you
smile through
i know that you can't resist
all the feels and the cheap thrills
am hitting every spot
can't never miss
am into you ye
like spiritual
i hope i hit your soul
like my verses do

Shoutout the people up here
beautiful beings and creatures
its a long time since i haven't shown appreciation to the value all of you guys hold for me
you people are a blessing as much as this site is
we are because of this site
and the site is what it is because of us
everyone great in what they put out here
too much of talent and am always in awe of you guys
we all share this existential space of experience & thoughts
we are so impactful into each others brain wiring
by whatsoever kinda poem posted on here by us
we can literally visualize the works out here
that is a great thing one could make other do what by just penning down words
although we don't chat and socialize much here
i would like more of it
i think at times about we all meeting each other
knowing everyone ...in person
roam around in the city each one is
if ever granted a wish by a genie
i would be in one of your cities hanging out with you  
~

Ever felt it ?
She is feeling just exactly the same right now
I can feel the pull she's so desperate and wanting for
Amazing as it sounds
feels so magnetising too
like a bee stinging into her forehead
A constant reminder of a void that needs the feeding
Scabs that yearn for caress
The cadence earnestly begging to be heard
voice so deep and fulfilling that i satiate every inch of her soul
should i give her a call in this night so dark and the wind so cold
or
should i let her beg and long for more ?

one must have chaos in oneself
to give birth to a dancing star

If she's still reading the poems i told her not to
I wouldn't mind anymore
because my mind is filled with too much paranoia to give a **** now
i have my episodes where I can't forget things
well lets just stay
i am on a loop
well you made things too explicit
took away the one thing you knew i clinged onto
can't act as free as i was back then
well thanks for cutting down the wings which now i grew one again
am still in contact with you
just being the way i was
and will be
and I would like to hear it from you this time that you made it till here reading not accepting these things into your brain
I don't know why I can't let loose on this ****
and i write this after a long time
because i am on one of those episodes right now
thinking of your maybe deceit
If you are reading this , you prove out to be filled with back stabbing treachery .
a gift to you my beloved .
you are gonna regret if you are already here
By reading this you just failed yourself a little more .....
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

there's a void in my chest
It's succumbing its way from the inside out to the black hole right at the centre of it ...
all these atrocities surrounding me
all these past doings and future things yet to be done flashing like a strobe light upon my face
wanting to be bigger than myself
experience something worldly
i feel like giving away my soul to the universe

She said she can't feel her face
Right now I can't feel my heart
For your feelings there's no place
but you knew that from the start

Desire is so deep
i think i will throw my life away

Bounded by each others misery ,
like you being the blood
and me being the crime scene .

You are the master of your web
You make the web you are in
You are the spider and the fly ~

You left in peace
Left me in pieces
and am just here brooming
the remains of my frail soul
on the floor

Does anybody know
we got a plastic soul
how do you even
think about to
stay connected ¿

ramblings of my craziness ~
its 1 : 28am and am walking in circles in my room with my lights switched off
the thoughts in my head are at light speed hitting me in the reversing direction in the back of my skull
silence finally speaks to me
such is the ambiance right now
cold and coarse outside
my feet are going numb because of this winter night
i can even hear the buzzing sound of nihility
echoing now
its overwhelming feeling all together
the feelings between my lungs are in havoc like a thousand supernovas at mayhem , detonating....
i just don't feel myself right now

I wouldn't actually forgive you for what you have done
doesn't that sound pleasing?
because for me a thing forgiven is a thing forgotten...
and you wouldn't want me to forget you....
i am gracing you with the gift of memories of all the mishaps you created ...
killing a part of me
awarding you a path of misery to lay yourself to follow
after all we all want something to look down on our ruins
rememberance is the essence of not letting your wretched deeds go oblivious
in a very confined space in my head
there's a door and there you
happily dance with my rage and torment
and i tend to ring the bell of that door every moment
I won't be the one that i once used to be for you

You are the flashbacks
I would love to be
eternally tortured with
~

~
                     I don't even need water
                    
                    to feel like am drowning .
                                    
                           I don't even need
                
                       broken shards of glasses
    
                       to feel that am scarred

                                          ~

Sometimes the night is so quiet
feels like it's demanding us
to disperse into its chasm
like the seeds of silence
and caressed by the darkness
A perfect zilch to be within
leaving me with a kind of abscess that only a deadly cold could favour me such
and me lying and enduring the abyss.....

Sitting down to a game
that neither of us knew how to play ..

Flower to my grave
Water to my sins
Fire to my soul

You say that your heart is a cage ,
Then let me be the one
that gets tamed inside
You say that your heart is a cage ,
Then let me the one
that pulls away those iron bars , sets you free
teaches you
how to love oneself again....

Dancing back from the graveyard

All the rushes of the elements of life and nature coming back into me
I wasn't dead when I was buried alive
I was put through a misery to undergo a brittle pain that kept on breaking and mending every inch of the time ...
Voices that haunted me six feet under ••••••

You don't want me to forget you
Don't you worry that will just be a myth for you
You dagger me straight into my heart ,
Kiss me and throw me a dungeon
Left as a stray and to rot
You show your warmth ,    
By laying me over a sheet of ice .
ohh ! You just showyour affection so right ...
Carve into my body so deep with all your artisan skills so bright .
You splatter salt as a paint to make it look more beautiful .
I am left there still and scarce ,                                        Your fear of oblivion is a good and disastrous in its on way    
Even without the winds gushing  
I Feel all the turbulences in my head  
You shake the very definiens of the word , obsession .

When the blood gates open
Pressure don't care
it breaks your door
And the blood from you
will be taken some more

The hunger and anger striked upon with
For the vicious play of life
All gone frenzy for
the lust of power of ruling
Lust so crave full
One doesn't mind its own destruction for owning it    
Kings thrive
Armies rise
Kingdoms fall            
They think that they have
the power over all
But deep down underneath
power consumes us all
Realms burned to the ground
By the people overcomed by Madness of power
Didn't realize that
they were the ones
Playing for nothing
but those remains;
Ashes of the forgotten ones°•.

The thoughts run wild  
Don't you give them some      
Time to stay calm for a while.

What was the time when we started the evolution of ourselves ?
What was the time set when the first clock was built ?
Past is only an abyss overcomed ,
Passed and been through with our minds physically and mentally
And future a chasm to be magnetized into and dragged down in ; working and going so hand in hand that like writing this piece of verse being the present is being my future as well
The window of transition from present to future being so narrow it actually overlaps one another in ways
So thoughtful and ineffable
The present being me writing these lines and the future being the outcome the whole verse which is now in process while I write this
Only a thin line of perspective and time difference or backlog occurs between them
Keeping the both distinguished from
each other letting them mean what they truly attribute for
There are three abstracts working simultaneously -the past present and future
The cognition of the brain undergoing a change in every single milli - seconds ; a transition from its current state of mind , carrying the neural data of the past nostalgia into the future
Those 3 abstracts                                               Playing its game of mutation and novelty over mind and body ...
While in all this the soul is the one feeling the time .....

Your love is like a swarm of thousand bees
Stinging me all over my body
Filling in your lunatic venom
Me craving for more
That toxiferous viscosity
rushing and gushing
into my veins
Leaving no corners of my soul unearthed , undiscovered    
As after some lapse of time those pokes oozing out shades of black                    
Your pestilential destruction works its way into my nerves
Delirium is just so much more acknowledged now
The reality is just so neglected now
Thrashed far away                            
Thats where I like it to be now

That love so feels ,
So reel ,
showed real .
That ****
made onto me
I that kneel to .
The fear
Comes near
Holding me dear
All so clear
and pale
Those shadows of
past  
That shall sail
Deep down the crevices
of my heart
where
The tracks are unfinished
for the rails
Bleeding nails so amaze
Abandoned and deserted
All taken by my soul ; hurted
Could pen you into
thousands of verses
As there's still a little while
For me
to get used to this curse yet ......

~
            She was the storm
  
      all raging and tormenting

        Destroying everything
          
                   in its path
      
                  I was lured

                and snatched

                 Thrown into

                          the

                  middle of it

Lemme go as fast as I can
All the winds hurting my skin    
Forcing it ..pulling it back
The speed thrills      
Adrenaline reveals
No such ecstasy
Like such it feels
Going faster
growing fearful
That undying and
about to die feeling
The risk being so sweet
You crave for that
sugar coated thing more and more
All so euphoric
All such momentum
Being so moment full
After a certain point
Being in no control
Such rejoice full
After a certain time
The speed addiction
Controls you
Instead going the other way around
Imbibed so deep into brain
Ever hungry for it      
If ever speed kills me
Don't mourn
Because I would be smiling.

~Love simplified~
    Love is all about having those
      
        appropriate feelings for

        appropriate one another
            
            yet you don't care
      
               even if it will be
    
               Leading you into

           inappropriate ways .

I am just an artist
Collecting and enduring
all your fumbled words and emotions
Your helplessness ,
The pity I feel for you
How needy you feel for me
How my single touch can calm down your senses
And how your soul rages with ecstasy
My devil eyes piercing into your angelic heart
Numbing your skin
Icing your blood
Everything going
acrid , poignant
Turning all such strands
of ineffable feelings
into deep dark engravings
scribbled
onto the
realms
of
time

I am just a trap
You would love to
end up entering in
Even with its
hazard sign at its face
Risking all the danger
lurking in it
Swirling down
the chasm of darkness
Ending up at the bottom of it
Knowing you would
never come out soulful
All hollow , all dried up inside
Just rotting and all rustic inside
Painful ; the emotion
that you have started to love might end up
destroying you itself .

I offered my soul to the demon
Demon said ,
"You already have me lurking in you  ........
perks of your vice surging ,
being unseen .
You are more of a demon
by being a human
than I am by being me "

~
                           YOU
                           ARE
                            MY
                     FAVORITE
                         KIND
                            OF
                        NIGHT
                             ~

He :
How does my love affect you?

She : Your love acts like golden                                   handcuffs for me .
Makes me feel majestic and royal with the gold
yet the key of my handcuffs lay with you .

I LOVE YOU LIKE;
like the rivers love floods,
the clouds love the vapors,
my inner tissue loves nicotine,
the surface loves the earthquake,
a famine loves a deserted place,
the fire loves more oxygen,
the waters love the hurricane,
the ache loves the pain,
the euphoria loves the trance,
the darkness loves the night,
the anger loves the fight,    
Sometimes I wander into my own world ,
being self centered
all those distances in between
well I say **** those distances
I want to here ,
I want you near ,
I love you and will always do
handle with care
all those fragile pieces of your heart that you are broken into ;
Well nothing sums up my
cravings , satiating me
knowing your soul more .

"Distance lessens up the sense on its way from there to here but it only lessens that sense ; it doesn't make it fade away ,
so yes I feel a little bit of it "
        
            ~I replied .

We all have our insanity pave into our souls ...
feed them
grow them
and
feel
a
little
bit
sane
inside .

Bite
  marks
are
   love
notes
   written
in
   flesh ...
So
   let
me
   bite
you
   hard
and
   make
you
  moan .

She had this
          quite a way of refusal
      for the things I needed for
               consanguinity .                                     Yet I now understand why
    all the downs and downs
           she's been through
          All she can do is die
       inside a little bit more
                  for a while
             Well don't worry
                 my little girl
                  Am here to
        lift your soul a little high
               Will never bid you
                             A
                      Goodbye
♥nidhiifogaat

The words come flowing out  when the blood is boiling under.  That is when vengeance comes to rescue your soul
longing to fulfill our thirst .
I just want to strike him with my rage
and want to literally burn him into ashes just so that I can roll into those, deathlike corporeal ruins
leaving soul frenziedly lust of mine to satiate .
I want to hold some of his powdery residual remains
as the rest
just scatters by ;
staring at my ascendancy.
Till then let another par of anger pile up and
get that load off
with my bare hands ,
bathing in the
pleasant sight of his blood stains .
My vendatta would be eternally be lasting even in afterlife .
After all it is a fight of a soul to get his righteous stand someday and may that be by ,
                            
                             A
                        DEATH
                            OF
                           THE
                        OTHER
                          ONE