I was taught to believe that your body meant nothing.
So I gave every part of it to people I never cared about.
I let their hands wander
I let them do whatever.

In a way I liked feeling wanted,
Even if it was only for 20 minutes in the back of a car
Or rushed before parents came home.

I was content with being used
I was content with being temporary

But deep down,
All I wanted was to be loved.

I wanted someone to want more for more than my body,
To tell me they loved me,
Rather than they lusted for me.

I gave up on being loved,
Accepting that I was just a toy
That I was only worth my body

Till someone came along
They told me they loved me
They told me they cared about me
They meant every word they said

They kissed me softly
And touched me with the lights on
We held hands
And we fell in love

.

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*together•

I envy the sun.
It gets to shine on your charming face everyday,
stare at you from far above...

It will burn you, love you too much,
but you will bear with it,
and love it still.

It will hide its face for some time every night,
Turn it's back for awhile to take care of others,
and you will always wait faithfully and long for its return.

It will leave you little toys,
Trips to other worlds that shine bright,
Little holes in the galaxy
That connect like a connect-the-dots games,
To keep you entertain while it is away at work.
But you still long for it and love it still evermore.

It will stay with you,
watch over you,
take care of you and give you a smile,
keep you healthy.

And you always long for a bright, sunny day,
and stay gloomy when it's gone...

But I guess you need a dose of Vitamin D,
more than you need a dose of Vitamin Me.