I ask you "what is love, explain it to me"
Not trying to be taunting
But because I've never experienced it
I want you to explain the feelings and emotions you encounter
The thoughts that swirl in your love drunk mind

my body has often been the conversation towards explicitly

my body has been the conversation for my mother
telling me a guy my age will be intimidated they will never like me or how she could take me to Vegas or the corner to make money

my body has been the conversation of men
at the age of eleven being cat called as a twenty year old
in the 6th grade having boys grab me or look under my skirt

my body has been the conversation of teachers and peers
not being allowed to were similar clothing due to my curves
"it may be distracting to others" they say
"what size are those things" from my classmates

my body has been the conversation many times
it no longer feels like mine to claim

It amazes me how easily you lie
It  has become fluent to you
A second language you have perfected
Every word spoken with smooth deception
Were your lies so absolute that I fell for them
or was I to blind to notice the obvious?

Distressed with enough built up pain to hurt any who come near
Sobbing from dusk to dawn at the conclusion I will never be able to accomplish happiness
When others are deep in slumber I demand for it to end
Or wishing it never began
Yearning to feel that pain to divert the hidden pain
Content with the thought of vanishing without a trace

I see myself through your eyes
I do not blame you for wanting that slender frame I will never be
That natural beauty you seek when you concentrate on my bland features
You crave getting lost in a mesmerizing smile when all I offer you is a mediocre expression
You wonder if the next will captivate you with a charm I was never able to accomplish

Do you compare me as I compare myself
In my eyes they are far more desirable than I ever will ever be
Do our eyes witness the same insecure girl