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Popleocan Sep 2018
Melted into my cushion below.
Wood before me, ceramic circles.

Cold vibrations buzz in the air,
Carrying tales.
The same... but different.
Repeatedly blasting my eardrums,
Gripping my mind in a chokehold.
Pounding in messages all the same.
Dreadfully, droning. On and on.

Where is it coming from?
The icy daggers that pierce me deeply,
Killing my hope?

In front, on cushions of their own.
Countless figures lined up with circles.
Shadows, smiling and laughing. Repeatedly.

Same stories. Same atttibutes.
Distinct figures externally.
Each internal voice... the same.

My ears lift like feathers.
Flying in hopes of warmth.
Only to meet the same,
Inconsiderate.
Icy.
Instruments under each figures nose.
Eating their flesh on ceramic circles.

As my wings fold, I sing my song.
Warm but filled with color.
Scented with lavender.
Tasting of pepper.
Rainbow vibrations warm the table.

The figures become clearer.
My friends, family, strangers all near.
Talk of themselves everyday all year.
My words distinct. Reach every ear.

Strange questions and tales; none true.
Alone at the table but surrounded I sit.
Wishing to hear my words returned.
My wings stay chained, my heart cold.
How many jokes have I told?
How many smiles have I seen?
How long has it been?

Speak for them. To drown them out.
Leaving smiles on every mouth.
Have no friends and get no help.
Speak to them, talk to myself.
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Popleocan Sep 2018
My mind is a wildfire
The forest of thoughts bring smoke
Blackened, charred and hopeless
Scarlet embers escape my mouth
Giving fuel to scorch the earth
Igniting like fireflies
Giving security to my doubt

My evergreen
My oak
My pine
My forest a cesspool now
Molten, murded life
Maturity, a myth in the blaze of my mind.
Maybe i deserve it

Take my hand and burn it
Take my arm and burn it
I cannot burn my burden
But burning stops my hurting

My mind is a wildfire
Too big for rain to contain
Burning so bright that any new flames
Are lost in the entirety
The enormous liquid blaze
Burning down beauty
She cries my name

A river flows out
And clenches my hands
Cooling the scars
Dewlet drops shine like stars
Her eyes
Her smile a bridge
Crossing the river, into the bank
Taken away from the fire
My brain

My mind is a wildfire
The emerald trees crimson
Untethered unstoppable
His rage is persistence
She gave me some water
Gave me hope, will, to fight
To live with the fire
But watch it from a distance
Popleocan Sep 2018
I am selfish

Loneliness clenches her arms around my chest.
As my breath beats my friends away i will claim to do my best.

I am selfish

My expectations are in space where every path is up.
My rocket in orbit, is my obsessive love.
Launching my heart with fire as i request a dreadful trade.
A crusade,
To recieve your heart fully just the same.
It's insane.

To even ask these things.

I graciously give my heart away.
For no gain.

I am selfish

I know my worst sin.
The monsters clawing at my skin.
With razors for fingers.
With guns at my chin.
I weakly whimper in pain.
As my torture begins.
Every day selfishly,
I want to give in.

My chest becomes fire.
My eyes become ice.
My head is now smoke so i can't breathe quite right.

But i am selfish.

I am ******.

I won't accept every helping hand.
I always give what I demand.
And when it gets hard.
I make darker plans.

I am selfish
My worst sin of all.
No matter my struggle,
Is I can't help it.
Popleocan Sep 2018
Bury me.
I've my head in the clouds
And my feet in the grave.
Yet im trampled by crowds
Of people, feeling the same.
With bands on their hands
And songs in their minds
We all agree that we are fine.

Lying.
Trying.
And in the end.
I watch as every single friend.
Rises up from the grave.
While my shovel begins to wear away.
Life has always been the same.

Yet i can't help but dream of change.
I can't help but scream out flames.
I can't help but wish for chains.
To tie me down and keep me sane.

But my casket is fluffy.
Like a cloud it feels light.
The darkness is my blanket.
So i don't go outside.

Leave me right here.
The place i know best.
In all my sadness i'll try to find rest.
Just keep digging, past rock bottom.

Bury me
Popleocan Aug 2018
It's
Soon,
Christmas.
Time of cheer.
Time for family.
Time for joy and love.
Kisses under the mistletoe.
Families play in the pure white snow.
Huddled up and cuddled up. But me?
Im alone.
Alone.
Alone.
Alone.
Popleocan Aug 2018
I take showers in the dark,
My senses overwhelmed,
I'm compulsively compelled to lose a friend.

Screaming flesh cries out,
My buried eyes blind now.
As wet rough trains crash into my skin.

Again.
Again.

Insanity is my definiton.
As vanity is my protection.
My heart like a prisoner tries to escape her cage.
Yet still i find my her hung.
Dead again.
Without much time.
To age.

The cuts and scars and burns of pains i've no courage left to think.
So i wash my body like my hands as the dirt drains down the sink.

Again.
Again.

The dark is all I see.
I'll let no light wash over me.
Drip drip.
My heart is warmed.
Lost all hope, yet im not alarmed.
Drip drip.
My skin screams out.
The rain and darkness drown it out.

Black fog forces a deeper breath.
Releases the chains that compress my chest.

My new heart is born, warmed and free.
And now again i do my part.
Until the time i return.
For cleansing in the dark.

-popleocan

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