A poem a day
Keeps my crazies away
A poem a day
Keeps the monsters at bay
A poem a day
Keeps the doctors away

Stomach flips
Heart in throat
Clammy palms
Anxious steps

It's all of your fault
Your stupid face
Poisoning laugh
And terrifying voice

The power you have
Is incredible
Truly unfathomable

One word from you
Can ruin my world
Can break me down
Can hurt me deeply

You know me too well
You know how to cut deep
You know my weakness
You know my flaws

I gave you everything
And so much more
Now we're done
And you can use it against me

Your promises are just words now
Words that made me swoon yesterday
Make me cry today

So I'm kind of at a loss
Unsure what to do
I can't breath
I can't survive

Since you have control
The power you have
Is incredible
Truly unfathomable

Step back
One
Two
Three

Blink

One hundred ten
One hundred eleven
One hundred twelve

Wait
Backwards?

Too many steps backwards
Not enough forwards

Clouded judgment
Blurred lines
Reality
Thoughts

Which ways up
Which ways down
Mind bending
Heart bleeding

Lost
Confused
Scattered
Muddy

Quick sand surrounds me
Gripping me
Dragging down
Everything heavy

Drowning
In mud
In quick sand
In concrete

Immobilized
Dehumanized
Miserable
Alone

Suffering silently
Fighting internally
Struggling

Pushed it off
Pushed it away
Now its here
Its going to stay

Isolation
Quarantined
Life in a bubble
Heaven

Reality
Caged
Locked internal
Panicked

Flash back
Throw back
Sent back

Progress made?
Or lost?

It changes you
Strangles you
Makes you question everything

Bitter heartache
And harsh words

Instant regret

Painful sorrow
Self loathing

Thoughts of death
Of disappearing

regret

Thoughts of pain
And permanent tattoos

regret

So many regrets
So many pains

It changes you
Strangles you
Makes you question everything

I see a woman fall
She reaches towards the sky
Desperate to grasp the clouds
Her thick brown hair disguises her face
And her loose nightgown waves towards the sky

I can feel her gasping breaths
The terror that floats in her guts
The panic
The dread

She falls from her tight rope
A barely visible fishing line
Strung between skyscrapers so high
They disappear into the clouds

Her feet must ache
Covered in thin cuts
Unable to heal from constantly walking her path

Her bones must feel heavy
As she has to pace back and forth
Day in and day out
Along the line

Is it a relief to fall?
Or does that scare her even more?

I stand on this rooftop
I see this woman fall
I look to the street
But no one else seems to see her
Some glance
Some pause for a few moments, look, then move on
Only my world has stopped for the falling woman

Does she know?
Does that make her feel alone?

blink

I’m falling from my tightrope
And someone is watching me from a rooftop

Softest touch
Of the peddled rose
But in one place it will stand
So young
So sweet
So innocent
It rises to the sun
Not afraid to shine
So many try to cut down
The small piece of paradise
It's thorns are tiny daggers
Ready to protect
So the softness of the rose
Is protected by the thorns
Innocence maintained
Beauty adored

These four walls
Are they my safe haven
Or my prison?

My heart keeps me locked in here
As if I was a prisoner

Only a year and a half
Until I have to grow up
And I'm afraid

The decisions I have to make
Seem to tower over me
Like unstable skyscrapers
As if they will collapse on me at any moment
And crush me

How am I supposed to go to college
And get a job
If I can't seem to leave my room

It's hard
To be even around my parents
I can't handle people
I pretend
But as the days pass
I'm ****** deeper and deeper
Into the pit of my thoughts

I can't think
I can't function
So I'm forced into
A child like state of mind

I can't handle my reality
So I distract myself
With YouTube videos
And stories
And music

So you tell me
Is this room
My safe haven
Or my prison?

I can't leave
But I can't stay
So I'm stuck
In a state of motionless motion
Where I'm going, going, going
But not moving at all

I couldn't sleep last night
Because of this realization
That I'm going nowhere
That my time is running out

I have found
That no matter what I do
I feel trapped
With an invisible collar wrapped too tightly around my neck
And multiple chains attached to my body

So here I am
In my bedroom
Afraid of the world
Afraid of the future
Afraid of the past
Afraid of people
Afraid of growing up

I'm afraid of everything

I find it quite pathetic
That my anxiety has gotten this bad
But no matter what people say
No matter what I know logically

It doesn't matter
Because I'm stuck

I'm paralyzed with fear
And I can't pull myself out of it
No matter what I try to do

I tell myself
That I can do it
I can win
I'm strong
I'm a warrior in the battle
That takes place in my head

But they all
Sound like bittersweet lies
Sound like false hope
Even when I hear it from others
It just sounds so......

Fake

I just wish this Hell would end
And I could escape this prison
That I call my safe haven
Because I don't want to be locked up
In this room
For the rest of my life
By the fears of my heart

Your love
Is incomprehensible
Your sacrifice
Is massive
Especially
For a broken soul
Like mine

There you hung
In unimaginable pain
With spikes through your hands
And feet

Gravity pulled at you
Begging you to fall
Wanting you to collapse on the ground
But there you staid
With the muscles in your hands tearing
The bones grinding and crunching

You felt alone
As you hung there
With the bashing words
They spat at you

You could have come down
From the ******, hard cross
You didn't have to suffer
With blood in your eyes
And dried blood lacing your feet and hands

I imagine the wood was rough
Stabing you in the back and arms and legs
How did you do it

Only once did you cry out
Calling to your Father
Begging for our forgiveness

How could you do that
How did you not feel hate
Resentment
Anger
Towards the beings you were trying to save

What were you thinking
Did you feel all the sin
Of the imperfect human race
Of past, present, and future

Did you feel depression
Anger
Lust
Terror
Did the entire spectrum of human emotion run across your mind

Did you think of your mother
Or your father
Maybe you brothers and sisters
As you hung on the dried out tree

Did you think of the disciples
Of the one who sold you out
The one who disowned you
Did you feel anger towards them
Or pity

Did you want to scream out
Did you want to cry
Did the air in your lungs
Become forced
As your life slowed to a stop

When you died
Where did you go
Did you fall to Hell
To the hungry, firery flames

Did you continue to suffer
For me
For us
For the whole of humanity

What happened after death
When you were in the grips of Satan
Did he torture you
For three days

Where you finally relieved
When you rose from the dead
Or did you find annoyance instead
At the disbelief
Of mere humans

Did you lose your patience
Trying to help us
Understand your immaculate power

Were you upset
When you left the world
Especially knowing
How broken it is

Was it difficult to leave
When they all begged you to stay
When you knew of their pain
Of the trouble that lied ahead

It's uncomprehendable
To know what it was like
To understand why
You'd want to save humanity

Because humanity is destructive
Humanity is broken
Humanity is almost lost

Yet you choose to die for us
To save us
To protect us from the fires of Hell

I don't understand
Your desire to save us
To love us
To protect us

But thank you
Thank you for everything
Even if it doesn't make sense
And we don't deserve it
Thank you

The time of man
Chooses the future

Is it true
or only a violent episode?

The growth of the unique
Are revolutionizing our ideas

Stripping away the broken
In public by an audience of connoisseurs

The king is dead
What will the robin do then, poor thing?

Suds in your eye
Household words

Two thousand years of war
Enjoyed at home
In a city in love with
The critic's view

I scratch and claw at my skin
Trying to tear away the thin material
That hides my muscles, bones, and sins

I hold my throat
Hoping for the possibility to crush it
Hoping to stop the air flow

I cover my ears
Trying to muffle the echoing whispers
That cloud my brain

I sit alone in my room
Unworthy to be with people
But also dangerous to myself

I don't eat much
Because my body tries to reject it
Even though it needs it

I want to sleep
All day and all night
For days, months, years at a time
Just to keep the monsters in

Self-degrading myself
With so much power and force
That it seems impossible to be a lie

I don't deserve what I have
I don't deserve to be happy
I don't deserve any of it

But I have it
It's within my grasp
But it feels like a lie
As if it's sand that will slip through my fingers
The moment I have a hold of it

So I wait
I sit in this position
In which I am in pain
Because I don't know anything else

I long to shatter every mirror
I long to tear up my skin
I long to crush my vocal cords and stop the air flow
I long to be recognized as the monster I am
And be rejected by those close to me
So I can't ever hurt them again

But in reality
That won't happen
I won't break every mirror
I won't damage my skin
I won't destroy my airways
I won't be told I'm a monster
And no one will reject me

Because they can't see me
Through my eyes
They can't hear my thoughts
Or see the things behind my eyelids
So they don't know the truth of me

So I have to take it into my own hands
And continue to self-degrade myself
Since no one else will
Because they don't see me
Like I see me

I hate what I see
And disagree with what they say
Because they don't know
What lies just underneath
The thin fabric you call skin
They don't know about my alter ego

My **monster

Today I was in church
And we talked about suffering
The pain we all have
No one is exempt

Pastor had said
God sends us grace
Through people
And prayer
And trust
The Holy Spirit
And the bible

Accept the grace
You're not the same
You're better

Ignore the grace
You're not the same
You're bitter

Pastor told us to share our story
To share our suffering
So here I am
Broken and afraid
And here it is

My first boyfriend
Was mean
Verbally abusive
And extremely controlling

I lost my friends
And almost my family

I shut down slowly
Depression taking hold of me

With him
I dug a grave
With him
I wasn't me
But I let the relationship be

Daddy stepped in
And set me free
Of the poison
He used to control me

I finally saw him
For who he really was

I was angry at first
That God sent him to me
I was angry at first
That God didn't help me

But now I see
Why it was meant for me
I feel the pain
Of another's tough break up
I have a compassion
Different then before

So I give thanks to my God
Even if it ******
Because now I see
How it was meant for me

So innocent
So small
So beautiful

Sweet child
So pure
So bright

Be careful
Sweet baby
The world is cruel
Your light shines bright
Just like a jewel

They will try to crush you
Crush your soul
Break your light

So be careful
Be bright
But protect your light

I love you sweet baby
My love is with you
Show your love
**CHANGE THE WORLD

Click
We have a problem, over

Silence

What is it, over

Silence

Click
We're about to hit a Major **** Storm

Silence

I wait for a response
As silence echoes through my head
And all around the room I'm in

Click
Hello? Over

More silence

You're on your own, over.

I drop the radio in shock
Realization hitting me like a ton of bricks
I stare ahead of me
Jaw dropped
Eyes wide

It approaches me with such force
And speed
It almost feels like I'm running at it
Even though I know I'm staying in one place

The dark clouds
Are a dark purplish gray
With sparks of electricity
Weaving through it
And lashing out at nearby things

I can see the metaphorical storm brewing
As if it were dark clouds with thunder and lightning
And I watch in horror

Part of me wishes it was a real storm
Because with real storms
You know what to do

But I have *no idea what to do
**** is about to get real
It's about to get ugly

I'm preparing myself for everything
That will hit me
In the next two hours
But I have a feeling
That no matter what I do
I'm not going to be ready

Why am I so afraid?
Why am I so scared,
Of a metaphorical storm?

I guess because
In a way
The storm is real
People just can't see it like me
Or maybe they can
I'm not sure

I feel like I'm going to *****
Or have an anxiety attack
Or maybe even both

Because my heart is either pounding too fast
Or not at all
And my stomach
Is twisting in so many ways
That I'm not sure was even possible

The countdown to Hell begins
So wish me luck
As I face the **** Storm
That comes at me with such force

I blame you
Even though you're not here

I can't think
Or focus
Or anything

And I blame you

I'm not mad
Just slightly inconvenienced
Because I'm trying to do my work
But you're invading my mind

I want to cuddle
And kiss you
And hug you
And tell you 'I love you'

But I can't

Because you're not here

Quite frankly
I don't understand
How you're such a distraction
When you're not even around

You're a simple distraction
That drives me insane
Bit by bit

I'm sitting here
Trying to do school work
Even though my tummy
Is dancing with a million butterflies
And my train of thought has derailed

I never thought this would happen
Not again
But there you are
And here I am
Completely intertwined

You have such an effect on me
And I don't think you even understand
How much of a distraction you really are

I wonder
Am I a simple distraction
To you?

You say I'm sorry
You say That's gotta be hard
You say so many things

But you don't understand
You don't understand how hard it is
How hard it is to hear that 6 letter word

Six letters that mean death
Six letters that mean hopless
Six letters that mean fear

C
A
N
C
E
R

It's something you don't know
You think you know
You think you understand
But you don't
Not until it hits you
Hits someone you love
And the world shatters around you

You're hit with a train
You're hit with a ton of bricks
You fall from the edge
Into the depths of darkness
And you cry
And cry
And cry
Until you have no more tears

Then you're numb
You're numb because of the six letter word
The six letter word that means certain death
Death to those who have it
No matter how hard they fight

How do you find
The source of pain?
It's not like
It's screaming my name

So many things
Try to take the fame
For causing me
The most pain

My ex boyfriend
Is a manipulative *****
Who thinks he knows
What's best for me

My mother is sick
But slowly getting better
Even without
A doctor to help her

I am in love
With my best guy friend
But I'm afraid
Because of my ex boyfriend

My real dad
Is an *******
But if you ask him
He'll deny it

I guess somehow,
It's all my fault...

I should have listened about my ex

I should be grateful my mom is getting better

I should know to trust my best friend not to hurt me

I should learn my father won't change

But it's all the same
They still cause me pain
I wish you could see
What it's all doing to me

Dark tendrils reaching for me
Grasping at me
Taking me
An all consuming void

A killer freefall
A crash landing with impact at any moment
Holding my breath
Closing my eyes tight

Will this time be the end of me?
Will this time be my true rock bottom?
Will this time finally pull me into the abyss?

It feels like it is
Like it will be
It feels as if the abyss in my stomach
Will finally take my soul

I know it won’t
I’ve fought too hard to survive
To give up on life today

If I am to die
It will be on my terms
Not the dark tendrils reaching for me

Concrete kitten
Hidden then found
The truest form of companion
A guardian of life

Slowly fading
Lethargic
Silent

Black sky and headlights
Faster, faster, faster
A rock tied to my heart
An ocean behind my eyes

Touching and prodding
Nothing
Shifting and moving
A single meow
No, no, no

A fork in the road
One real option
The stone pulling my heart through my intestines

Baby, baby, baby
MY baby
I love my baby
Don’t leave me

Wrapped in a towel
Held to my chest
Clock strikes midnight
Lungs slowed to a stop

A vet and fiance
Yet I was alone in the room
My baby
My reason for survival
My rock
Gone

Soul racking sobs
Driving down memory lane
Numb devastation

Ordered the urn
And stayed in my bed
A body made of stone
No food, water, anything
Stare blankly at the flashing TV
Cradled by my partner
Aching disbelief

I woke up this morning
With a tightness in my heart
And a numbness in my soul

I can't think today
I can't feel today
I can't function today

I don't understand why
Why can't I think?
Why can't I function?
Why is today so bad?

This is the worst it's been
In a long time

I just want to sleep
Sleep until the pain passes
Sleep until the moon collapses
And the sun explodes

I want to cry
Cry enough to make a new ocean
Or flood the already existing ones

I don't want to talk today
I have nothing really to say
No hellos
No good-byes
Nothing

Mom said it scared her a little
Dad said everyone has bad days
But I don't know
If this is considered a bad day

I'm not cranky
I'm not angry
I'm not happy
Or sad

I'm just....

I guess you could say I'm just *numb

Today's society disgusts me
With the skimpy clothes
And must have Jordan's

I'm sick of seeing
How the women dress
And how the girls dance

I'm sick of how
Females are told to be skinny
I'm sick of how
Woman are told to wear makeup
In order to be pretty

I'm sick of how men have to be muscular
To get the girl
I'm sick of how
Men have to like cars and dinos

I'm sick of how
To some people, women aren't equal
I'm sick of how
It is strange to some, for guys to be in drama

I'm so sick of our society
And how there are so many standards

I see what is on TV
And magazines
And books

I feel the pressure
To be pretty
And skinny
And fit

I'm sick of our society
And how it makes me self conscious
I hate how society
Makes me worry about my weight

I'm sick of our society
And how we're all controlled
By a green piece of paper
And skimpy clothes
And fancy shoes

I'm sick off all of this
And all the pressure
That comes with

Too many words
Thoughts
Ideas
Pictures

Clogged pores
Gears
Mind
Lungs

Drown myself in media
Muffle the sound
Muzzle my mind

Going to implode
Explode
Both

Trapped in a cage
Walls shrinking in
Too much against my skin

Electricity in my veins
Bees in my mind
Nothing behind my eyes

Must get out
Must escape
Must smile
Must behave

What does this mean?
What does it mean to trend?
Do I make an impact?
Do I make a difference?

The empty poems
The ones that mean nothing
Trend

The passionate ones
The ones that mean everything
Trend

Why?
Why do they trend?
What makes them loved?
Do I make a difference?

Why do I inspire you?
Why do I move you?
I don't understand
I really don't understand

I don't think you get it
The feeling of true terror

The stomach drop
The sharp knife
Going through your chest
And coming out of your back

True terror
Is something I've never felt before

Not until now

My mind filled with 'What if's'
What if he hurts my babe?
What if he hurts me?
What if he's out for revenge?
What if he tries to go after my friends?

My throat is tight
TRUE terror

What if
What if
What if

Who do I talk to?
Classmates understand
They warned my babe
Told him to watch out
Protect me

But I don't want that
I don't want him to do that
I don't want him to get hurt
Because of me
I could never forgive myself

What about everyone else
My squad
My friends
My family

They could get hurt
Because of me

But maybe he won't do anything
Maybe he won't be a threat
Maybe I'm over dramatic
Maybe I'm over reacting

I know that's what daddy would say
I know that's what mama would say
I know that's what little brother would say

Did I do something to cause this
Was there something I could have done
To prevent any of this
Or am I just being stupid

People say I'm innocent
That it's all on him
But I'm actually terrified
That I caused it to be my fault

It's been almost a ******* year
And a 5 minute video can hurt me
How can this happen

This ******* *****
This stupid 5 minute video
Brought me terror

True terror

I'm a monster
   You're a saver

I'm ugly
   You're beautiful

I'm worthless
   You have a purpose

I'm broken
   You are loved

I'm unhelpable
   You're saved

I'm unloved
   Family and friends surround you

I'd be better off dead
    There is a grand plan for you

I have a plan for you, love
A grand scheme
That only I can see

I know you feel helpless
I know it seems like an unwinable war
But I died for you
I payed for you passage into a better place

Your world is broken
Destroyed
But I shed my blood
So my Father in Heaven
Can work through you
And save your broken world

You feel like your sinking
You feel alone
You feel unloved
And forsaken

But I am here

I am with you

I love you

I'm walking along beside you
Even if it doesn't feel like it
I feel your pain
I feel your suffering
I feel everything in you

I see what you face
Inside and out
The depression
The anxiety
I see and feel it all

I understand

My death on the cross
Terrified me
I begged for another way
Even though I knew
It was the will of my Father in Heaven

I will fight with you
I will fight for you
I will protect you
I will love you
And I have saved you
From the fires of Hell

I faced them
The scorching heat
Of the external flames
So you, my beloved, don't have to

Speak to me, child
Open up
Let me in
And I will love you

I will fill you with a peace
That you've never known
I will quench your thirst
With the living water

I am the Alpha and Omega
I am the Begining and the End
I have created the world
And everything in and on it

I know you don't feel it
But you have a purpose
There's a reason you're here

The enemy is strong
But I am stronger
You've read Revelations
And you know the outcome
Of the final war

There will be a New Jerusalem
Instead of a broken world
You have been saved
Washed in the blood of the lamb

You will not be thrown
Into the pits of Hell
You will not burn
And smell sulfur
And burning skin
For all of eternity

You will be saved from judgment
For you have the stamp of God
On your forehead
And you are untouchable

You are saved from the tribulation
And have been loved
And saved

I promised to be there
Through out the walk of life
I never promised it would be easy
Because Satan is the prince of the Earth
But I am the king of the universe

The devil will attack you
And as a disciple of mine
You have a target on your back
For he wants to shut you up
And for you to shut me out

But have faith
For I am here
And though he is strong
I am stronger

So give your pain
Give me your struggles
And through me
Washed in the blood of the lamb
You are saved from the Devil

Though he sounds true
Though he twists words
And tells lie after lie
Listen for my voice
In all of the chaos
For I am there

I have
I am
And I will always be with you

It may not look like much
But today I'll clutch this medal
And hold it against my chest
Knowing its okay to rest

I've been gone so long
My voice moved on
I couldn't explain who I was

I still struggle to see
How this is me
The same as 2016

I've fought and I've struggled
Feeling alone
Fighting a dragon
I felt impossible to slay

But here I am
Standing strong here for myself

This mountain I climb
Does not define who I am

The difference in me
Doesn't make me
A different breed

I never thought I'd be
Unstable

I never thought
I'd want to die

I never thought
The thought of cutting myself
Would be so appealing

How am I so
unstable?

I take all of these
pills
Just like I'm told

I talk to a counselor
But I still feel unwhole

It seems as if no matter what I do
I'm still unstable

My mind is in constant
panic

Thousands and thousands
Of whispers
Rush through my head

Everything up there
Has been painted black

So now I can't see
I can't hear
I can't do anything

Because I'm so
Unstable

My body moves
My body breaths
My heart pumps
My skin bleeds

But I'm....

I'm gone.....

I've disappeared

Never to be seen again

Because my mind...

*Is UNSTABLE

Sounds are so LOUD
Lights are so BRIGHT

All because of you
You've scared me
Beyond belief

I'm so stressed out
I can't seem to think straight
I have a headache now
Because of you

Do you know how miserable
Stress headaches are
They hurt the base of your skull
And a little of your neck

You don't like to move
Nor do you like to think
But sometimes life
Calls for you to do it anyways

I have assignments
And commitments
Things that matter to me
But you wouldn't know that
Because you never loved me

All I was
Was a toy to use
For whatever you choose
But now you see
Now that I'm free
I have people who actually care for me

So all you've done
In the 4 years I've known you
Is caused me pain
In so many ways

You say you didn't mean it
And I said I didn't care
But in reality
We ended up both being liars

I really did care
That you used me everyday
You really did mean it
You meant every hurtful thing you said

I try to remember
A good memory of us
So I don't forever see you as a monster

But in actuality
The true reality
Is that we never had a good memory

It's all tainted
In one way or another

The thought of you now
And the thought of us then
Make me want to hurl

I said you meant the world to me
That I'd go to the moon and back
And for the longest time
I meant it
And I thought you felt the same

But I guess not

Because here I am
Afraid of you
With my eyes opened wide
To see the true monster you hide

I saw that video
You posted for the world
And anyone who saw
You and me
Would see the stab
You made at me

It wasn't hateful
Just painful to see
That you think
I gave you the best memories

At first it was true
For me as well
But I can't say that now

It's hard to see
What you did to me
And see myself
As human

My skin crawls
Because of you
And all the things
You made me do

All my friends know
The sick, sick games
They say it wasn't me
But it was you

Instinct tells me
Own up to your mistake
So I always remind them
I had that choice to make

Sometimes I wish
I could escape this Hell
For you have set a trap
And ensnared me

My heart has barbed wire
Wrapped around and around
Everything having to do with you
Makes it tighter and tighter

Was this your desire
To bring me pain
To bring me sorrow

Was this your plan
To make me like you
A wolf in sheep's clothing
A monster in disguise

Because I don't want to be like you
I don't want this done
To anyone

So you may hurt me
Every day until I die
But you can't hurt my friends
My family
My love

Blank walls
Empty space
Closing in
Can't escape
No way out
Empty shouts
Screaming echos
Bleeding ears
I can't see through all these tears
Which way's up
Which way's down
I want to crumble to the ground
My lungs collapse
My ribs shatter
Punctured heart
It doesn't matter
I can't believe I'm still alive
Is everything around me a lie
Blank walls
Empty space
Am I about to be erased
Closing in
Death to come
I can't win
It's too strong

What do you see
When you see me

Do you see a beautiful young lady
Oozing potential

Bright grey eyes
And a big smile

Tall posture
Showing confidence

An outgoing girl
Ready to take on the world

When I look in the mirror
I see me

But who am I
Cliche really
The simple three worded question

I see a girl
With troubles in her eyes
And a smile full of lies

Being outgoing
Is my defence
Go all out
Let no one in

Tall posture
Is the result of a saying
"If you can't blow them away with your brilliance, baffle them with your *******."

In reality though
It's all self hate
Thoughts of

'You're not good enough'
'You're unforgivable'
'Nothing you do will ever be enough'

In reality
I am what you see
And what you see is me

And what you read here
Is another part of me
That I don't let people see

Is this what you see
When you meet me

I can’t be your savior
I can barely save myself

I can’t fight your battles
I’ve got wounds under my skin

I can’t speak up for you
My voice is hoarse

I can’t hold you up
My body is cooked pasta

My own body, mind, soul
Too weak to support you
Too weak to hold you up
Too weak to fight your battles

I want to survive too

You don't need a knife
Or a bat
Or a gun
To crush my heart

Your wicked smile
And maniacal laugh
Are enough to ******* me

How do you live
You heartless monster

You have a soul
Made of the coldest ice
There is nothing warm
About you Sir
It has all been frozen

You're like the Grinch
Rotten to the core
Except it's not just Christmas
It seems like everyday is a chore

You may be going down
All the way to Hell
But I'm not going down with you
Because I'm actually doing well