How close can I get without being hurt
Should I be open-hearted or cautious
Giving myself to others or hiding behind my mask
Never knowing my limits, but I don’t know yours either

Pain or safe, oh which to choose
Will you hold my hand, even when I’m wrong
Or push me away

Don’t wanna feel shame next to you
I hate myself already
Looking for love in other hearts
Maybe there’s some left for me

Unconditional and forgiving
Here I am naked and honest
Not living or denying anymore

Your choice is upon you
I’m not gonna beg or pretend
Tired of being someone else
Time to look for myself
Time to find my consciousness

Dreamcatcher, dreamcatcher
Why did I dream that I die tonight
I’m not sure I wanna fall asleep this time

Monster, monster
Under the bed is just a tale
Made out of fear and confusion

But when the night comes
Dark thoughts and spirits appear
Conquering my world around me
Creepin’ out on me
Out of the blue
Burnin’ the good inside of me
Leavin’ nothing but ashes

Who am I
What am I doing
Can’t find myself
Lost in the wood of my own despair
I’m just a soul, wandering around

There was a child called happiness
Living his life to the fullest
Having the whole world in his hands
Thinking this feeling just never ends

But he had a twin called sorrow
Always walking by his side like a shadow
Showing pain at its worst
The misery of lost dreams ******* hurts

They were growing together
But hated each other
Why are you my enemy
When you could be my brother

I can’t bear this life
Anymore, shouted happiness
Not with you by my side, no
You hurt me and laugh at me  
Every time you meet me

You can’t exist without me
In this cruel world
I hit and kick you to make you stronger
To give you the eyes to see more clearly

Why don’t you understand
One day you’ll be thankful for that
But you can’t make me disappear
You’d better accept that this is how fate works
You should learn to love me cause I’m the reason you are shining…

Why do I do things that I regret later on
Why do humans run into the their own traps
Day by day

I know I’m committing a sin
Then I just leave the scene
Feeling ashamed of myself

How do I look into the mirror
When I see it laughing at me: It was your fault!
I’m never gonna forgive
‘Cause I am now *****, guilty

He never cares
How would she feel
If only she knew
What he’s done to her and what I’ve done to her
It hurts like hell, I’m burning in hell

I play this game from time to time
Giving you all that’s me and mine
Without any shame but an open mind
I am the one who is always kind

Now it’s different, I feel this time
I have no fear of falling down
My trust in you, and yours in me
Or is it just fake, but how could it be

And it happened again, you let me down
I was needed ‘til you got your crown
I got used to being used but I don’t worry
Another you will come around so easily

It could be done so differently
Only if you could see

You say that you need love
But when I hold you
You cannot hug me back

You say oh please, **** me
I wanna die now
Why don’t you let me disappear

Please don’t **** yourself
I’ll be your friend but
Sorry I can’t say no more

Knife on your veins
And tears in my eyes
Nothing’s gonna be better
Never

We’re watching the trains
Oh why can they leave
And why do we have to stay

You hate yourself and you
Know that they hate you
Because you’re not like
Them at all

You can see through me
And I can feel your pain
Put on your mask little boy
Try to live life like it matters

You could be saved or
You’ll be your own hero
It’s up to you not me
Anymore

3 o’clock and I still can’t sleep
Only thing I wish for is dreaming deep
But my brain can’t stop its constantly ticking
I’m not even in love with you, still you make me think

You only told me the sad story of your life
Then wanted to cut your wrist with your key, not even a knife!
I thought I could be your friend and help
But we lost each other and now it’s only my image of you that is my friend

Or more than that, I don’t even know, oh dear
I honestly have no idea what I feel
Even though I always analyse myself, maybe too much
Still I don’t get why I miss your touch

The way you looked at me and knew
That I care about it and I will understand you
But then you said the opposite, now I can’t follow you  
You almost called me a ***** and said it’s my fault
Being out in high heels in the dark and cold

That was stupid, you were right, but see
I’m fed up with blaming myself for everything
I tried to be there for you when you had nobody
You didn’t give a crap about me when I was drunk and lonely

We’re not talking anymore, I won’t even write to you
I hoped it would help if I don’t see you
But it just got worse, you are always there
I couldn’t make you go, you would not move nowhere