and don't you dare
say "you're strong"
and
"you are a survivor"
and
"you are better than him"
because i am none of these.

and don't you dare
say "just forget about it"
if you do not know
what i am trying to forget.

and don't you ******* dare
try to understand
because i promise
it's not worth it.

today i listened to music and cried
for the first time in
a really long time
it still hurts

Saying goodbye
To someone you love
Is like reading the final page
Of an amazing book.

As the last chapter ends
You begin to notice
Just how beautiful
And perfect
The plot always was.  

You appreciate the joy
And even the pain
As you read and thumb
Through every page.

Finally understanding
The moral of the story,
You realize you've reached
The end of this journey.

Although the last sentence  
Is the most difficult to read
Another great book awaits
Once you turn the final page.

Eventually you may stumble
Upon yet another great find.
Or maybe you'll return
To the book you left behind.

You may just discover
Once all is said and done
That this particular book  
Was your favorite story
All along.

They can see through the glass
Our lips are dripping blood
From telling all these lies
And we both know
That we've really done it this time

*P.H