Nsmith15

Mar 2019

Tricia Ong

I'm a lost poet
in an ocean of words
it spins around my head
like a wrecking ball
as I try to find the right words
but they can no longer be found.

Anxiety, anxiety,anxiety
is like a twinge in my chest
I try to ignore it
but it goes into crescendo
as I inhale words into my body

Help me.
My eyes hollered
but all that they can see
is that forceful smile on my face

I feel
tears welling up in my eyes
I feel
a lump in my throat
yet no one knows
the pain
of a lost poet

#anxiety #lost #poet #sad #despair #grief #confused #anxious #dark #help

Mar 2019

afteryourimbaud

Black 98

Remember what happened in that black 98
battered souls, bruised dignities, blackened eyes
fallacies, conspiracies
no apology, no sympathy
but this is David and Goliath
don't you remember,
like eighteen years ago
except for its atrocities
and ridiculosities.

Dad,
you inflicted this on me,
you should have known
that the wheel
doesn't stop rolling.

#malaysia #mahathir #politics #love #life #anwaribrahim #davidandgoliath #dad #revolution #reformasi

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Untitled

Wherever you are,
Whereas you go,
Always be sure to
Sparkley

Forgotten that this poster was on my wall.
To all you amazing writer

#love #the #sparkle #in #your #heart

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Summertime

Summer,

I got your letters,
                           I hadn't taken you for granted or wasted the
                            the sunny days.
I never regretted
                            you being around
Just wish you
                             Stayed forever,
I have now an

                              Honey brown
Shade and the
                               Sharpest mind

Know to my tutor.


I embrace everything about where or what you're doing by making the college and school closed
            Now we're allowed to hang out with our lovers or ex.

Thanks, summer for making me have the opportunity to relax in my mini pool with 50 loud, drunken neighbour.
See you around   the next 3 month

Felt board,
All my friends are outside playing in the park while being stuck staring at the blank teddy bears

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Tale 2 of mum and daughter

Dear 8 years old me,

                 Sorry,
                        I fail you by not giving you
                          Hugs or storytimes

Sorry,
      For away fixing others when they never
    Said   thanks , your hand were shaking.
                     Sorry, for not letting you heal
       Sorry, for just letting you seal the wounds of someone else, while yours were
Bleeding.
                   There were days where I was smiling. So sorry for forcing you to make painful laughter just so that
       No on had to worry about us.

I'm sorry, for that sleepless night, when you cry to be let out....

I'm sorry i never gave you a chance
To tell yourself that you are beautiful
.                         That you are smart
                           That you are o

I miss my 8 year old me.....

Love yourself