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Nsmith15 Jun 2019
I have a problem
  I don’t know how to fix it.

  Life is life but what about risks?

  I sometimes want to get hurt or die,
               Just to see if they will cry.

If people will care,
         or go on with their incomplete lives
               or if they will come clean away theirs lies.

          To say they’re sorry,
         to apologise,
            is something I don’t even think they would try.

             So what if I died?
        would you really care.

         The darkest secret
                hidden inside,
      may not be what I hide
            every night.

                     so remember this when you look to the sky,
              for I love you and I just wanted to say goodbye...
Sad unfixable
Nsmith15 Jun 2019
Laughing so hard it hurts,
     Climbing into cold sheets,
         Finding a new song,
           Hitting all the words to a rap,
               Swinging on the swing,
Nsmith15 May 2019
Need a beat
to Plunge these feelings out
For you

trumpet your name  
I see no patriarch in the pictures that hang Crookedly
Your not smiling
Your not sad
Your not sire

Your just aloof
Your just immortal
Just incomplete to everything
Nsmith15 May 2019
Brave (feminine ending).adj. meaning
Fierce, ferocious,
Mad tempered
Nsmith15 May 2019
As idiotic humans we ruin everything we touch including each other...
Nsmith15 May 2019
She wear black but her mind is colourful
Nsmith15 May 2019
Nsmith15 May 2019
If am so smart and gifted with a wonderful mind...
  Then why do all the children run away
Why dose the adult whisper
  Why dose all the  sharp  leers feel like a
                  Is  it because of this confusing grimace

            Is it because of my flapping hands

Is it because of my indifference shadow
Am truly sorry that is not dark and dull like the others....

            But  am not sorry that it more colourful and warmer than your beam
Am not sorry for being neat
Am not sorry for being me
Am not sorry for be unique
Am not sorry for being god new creation
        Am not sorry that god got bored of the same faces the Same colour the same voice...
Am not sorry if this doesn’t make sense......
Nsmith15 May 2019
Dear lust
Watch you from afar
Each day you surprised me
Your mischievous smile
Your laugh
You’re independent
No guy can hold you down
Tell you what to do because your the boss of whatever mind-games you’re playing
Your not in my life anymore but sill stuck in my head
You don’t understand how you make world shake
I can’t explain of this
No one understands
I don’t understand
Nsmith15 May 2019
It some serious issue
Do you know
What it feel like to pass the same street everyday full of people with the urge of trying to get your headphones out of your pockets so you seem busy
Feeling like there a big lump in your throat and you forgot how to swallow.
Palms are sweaty
Hands start to shake
You feel like people are looking and feel their eyes judging
Your on the pure of shredding tears
The reality is no one cares what your problems is or who you are.
You know anxiety is  stupid but there isn’t anything you or doctor can do to help
Nsmith15 Apr 2019
Daddy said love was all about red and white Rose, expensive dinner, ...

Truth is love is giving her half your fries when she wasn't hungry
Waking up a 4 pm, to her snoring and
Referring to shoving her off the bed.
Trying to embarrass one another, in public love, is full of stupid fright and tearful memories that make up for why I love her.
Love is just tiptoeing through life with your best friend
Random post
Nsmith15 May 2019
Why do you get to erase every little trace without my permission
Nsmith15 May 2019
The darkest night produce the brightest stars...
Nsmith15 May 2019
Quote, engraved euphonious as I continue my well-worn path until we reach the daybreak lake.

the era of eternity.

eerie the green with red
cause only a foolish drunk would think wear something that doesn't match,
Nsmith15 May 2019
                   afraid to pursue love but
hidden in
                    moonless sky.
                 In search of “eternity”
                        his heart
Nsmith15 Jan 2019
She find it strange that her eyes are met with a endless staircase

          The world around him doesn't freeze or turn monochrome around everyone but herself

            Yet our heart sill drop when she walk into our room, Our focus is a far distent off. We get it everyday were our eyes out met with his you tilt your head and smile with you head filled of brids

He understand when you laugh to yourself.

Her stomach needs a million butterflies, when your around
When you smile it illuminates the room and my thought gose wild for a anchor.

Because your love and my words don't have a relationship with expectations to find or have a right diction.
Nsmith15 Apr 2019
I know you’ve been awake for a while
Likely days or months.
I know you may have gone with this whole time without hearing it.
Non-committal “fine” because that is what
We’re meant to do as humans
Answer meaningful question with long phrases.

I know you may not be fine
I know you may have a mournful day
I know that something as little mundane as “Good morning” text may have made all the different in the world

Because a good morning text are the Definition. adored, by someone who may not be immediately present.
Reminder - one we perhaps should not need but sometimes do?
Nsmith15 Apr 2019
Rule 1: don't use your heart
Rule2: your brain is your strength to survive.
Love is rare when there so much hate in the air you breathe
No one cares
No one decides
No one knows their fate
Days will go by
People die so new life is enters
Year's and years
People go by being confused about their purpose in life
Nothing to you is clear
Nothing in your heart except fear
Love is a rare combination
Nsmith15 Apr 2019
She something or someone if the lyrics fit,
She grew and is broader than the girls in her class. She sad and happy
She is stronger than her weaker self.
You think she hundred miles away.
But she all ears, she'll never stop listening even if your lying.
She doesn't care about the ugliest or pretty person, long as you show kindness and humorous love.
She something and someone if the lyrics fit.
She happy and sad.

She doesn't care about the ugliest or pretty person, long as you show kindness and humorous love
Nsmith15 May 2019
molded length  with father
held the tears

these battles has star-cross the village with misery


Pull through the storms
And trumpet that loving yourself is no crime


Going though the day you do you best to harden the blessings the lord has been holding for you


Be impatient as impatient
Bring you deceitfulness

Mama shine your smile
to the warmth of the world
Nsmith15 Apr 2019
The ones who was or are STRUGGLING.
The ones whose days continue to be worse.
The ones who believe that they have lost


because I promise you not, that CHANGE is around the corner. Time always heals
                         FORGIVENESS will grow in the most TOUGHEST and DARKEST

Every Action has a CONSEQUENCE,
But there always a LESSON too.
          You shall look back on all these
MOMENTS and feel so PROUD
             Of yourself .

We made it THOUGH!!!!!
Look how far we have came
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