I want to open up his chest and hide in his rib cage so I could hear his heartbeat all the time

He grows inside of me like lilies and now I feel a forest there.

I have fallen in love with tunnels
The way they seem to never end
The light that always comes eventually

My hand smells like you after I hold yours for long
I whisper "you smell like home" and a tear tries to escape my eyes
The light, is in your eyes

I have fallen in love with the way your shirts fit you
And how the wind always blows in the right direction when you look at me
The light, is in my eyes

I have fallen in love with books and characters
The way people fall in love slowly, or really fast
How their hearts feel
Light, or heavy.. Never in between

I have fallen in love with our love story
Our first "I love you", and never the last
I love you, I love you, I love you
Never put out the light in me

I have fallen in love with you. Slowly, and then fast.
Like a train wreck, happily falling to pieces
Because now my puzzle piece finally found the other part
Like ocean waves finally reaching the shore
The darkness in me is illuminated by your light
You are my light
You are my light.

In your arms
I finally know what it's like to be home.

I used to always call you my angel
In my dreams, you have big white wings
Sometimes I remember the way your breath sounds and I feel a needle in my chest
You are still the "you" in my poems
And your presence lingers in all the right times, and all the wrong ones

I often wonder what it was like to be in love with a sad girl?
And I wonder if it is the reason you didn't want me anymore
I hear the word "my love" the way you say it over and over again in my head like a broken record breaking my brain cells
I am no longer yours

I'm losing who I am, or who I used to be
My dreams don't speak to me anymore, they left me the way birds leave in winter
And the way you left my cold eyes, my cold chest
The way you seem to leave everything but my sorrowful soul

I don't hope you're happy, because you always were
It was I and still it is I who suffers in silence and even in the day you left, you had a smile on your face
You didn't care, you never have
It's been 145 days
And I've been praying since for either you come home or you leave this miserable heart of mine at peace

I don't hope you're happy. In fact, I hope you're miserable
Because every time he kisses my hand and promises to stay something breaks in me
Every time he whispers "just trust me"
I remember how you spilled my trust from your hands all over the map and dissolved the red pins I had for you

It's funny how you were the only person I ever really fell in love with but you ended up making me puke my heart all over the bathroom floor.
You ask why do I miss you as if everything you did wasn't painful enough already
I often wonder, do you look at the stars and remember my passion for them?
Do you remember my raspy voice those late night calls?
Do I ever cross your mind or have it been so easy for me to dissolve?
Was I that easy to forget?

So long, my love
For how the sky cries
For how my eyes do

So long, my love
Not diamonds, not even stars
Are more precious than you

So long, my love
My hands, they bleed
And my heart does, too

So long, my love
You taught me that strength
Can be true

So long, my love
Leave my darkness
I need your aura to beam through

So long, my love
Oh my love, it will last
Deep forever, for you.

I love the way I feel
When you hold my hand
The way you look at me
Like I am your prize

You said you'll take away the pain
I thought no one can
But now inside of me
Are birds and butterflies

I thought love has gone
Away and away has ran
But now I'm close to heaven
I see the sunrise

Even if I say nothing
You always understand
Your shoulder is always there
A safe place for me to cry

If you ever fall
I'll be there to help you stand
Always by your side
helping you to get by

I'll be your robin
You be my batman
Together we'll fight
Together we'll fly

I'll lift you up
To your dreamland
And you'll get me higher
Than the sky

For love is
A human demand
And you hand me the world
Right in front of my eyes

I felt free and light
Like I was made out of air, or feathers
Then I was slapped back to reality
With a tube down my throat
Now there's this break in my eyes
A white flag, announcing my loss
I have given up

Can you see it, my deadly love?
Can you see what you made me into?
A living corpse, an off tune symphony
A torn page off of a book, lost and incoherent

I, as a cat
Have nine times to die*
I have given up three, and I would give up the rest
In a heartbeat, or a slit of a wrist
The sadness of the world, cries in my head
And the happiness that you once laid in me
Is now slipping through my fingers
I am made out of air

You broke me into a million little pieces
And stumped over each one of them
Over and over again
You can't feel anything
For I should have known
My heart is made out of paper
And yours is made out of stone

I lost count, of the times I cried for you
I lost count, of the times you killed me
My poems are my tragedy, and so is your love
I'm a poetess of death, or near death
The penalty of my half written dreams
Half written books
Half written poems
And our half written destiny

Won't you come, and pull the knife out my back
And bury it with my remains
Dust to dust
Loss to loss
And air to air.