You’re perfect, a sight to be seen,
Sometimes I wonder,
Why you are sitting here with me,
and not up in the sky,
Sitting on the clouds, Where you belong,
With the rest of the angels, singing songs,

But it doesn’t matter, I’m not going to complain,
Just please, don’t leave me lingering in pain,
My love for you, well its kind of insane,
From your thighs to you hips, front and back,
Just the sight of you could give me a heart attack,

You’re beautiful, amazing, smart, funny, sweet,
To be with you right now it’s really a treat,
One that I get to enjoy every waking day,
Thank you for this angel, to the God I pray.

He sits in a corner all on his own,
Waiting, for the chance to take you
home,
He lives under a waterfall,
Where there’s no body that can
hear you call,

His words are few,
He loiters and lurks,
Waiting for you,
He stays indoors, all on his own,
Waiting and waiting to pick up
that phone,

He lays in his bed feeling
nothing but sorrow,
Waiting and waiting to see
You, tomorrow.

I’m just, tired.

That’s what you tell people,
I need some sleep that’s all,
Well I’ve been just tired for
about 6 months or so now,
And the feeling is just foul,

It’s just not easy,
Leaves me needy,
No matter how long I sleep,
I’m still just tired,
Still need some more sleep,

The world has opened to me,
The sick twisted horrors
this world is now revealing,
To be honest, Suicide has
never been more appealing,

I’m a depressed mess.

But still all they hear is,
I’m just tired,
I just need some more sleep,
Because I’m just tired,
I just need some more sleep,

Or someone to take that leap,
Have a conversation with me so deep,
Find out I use the dark nights to weep,
Cos all I want to do is sleep, forever.

Because I’m just tired, of everything.

How wonderful it would be to die?
To fall into oblivion,
No feelings, no more pain, not one lie
Nothing forever more,
I'd be motionless, emotionless, and just die,
Nothing leaving me sore,
No one could bother me for there I would lie,
Oh wouldn't it just be wonderful to die?

But how would I do it?
Depends, how quick or slow,
Do I want my family to know?
Do I want to feel,
Is it to be a big deal?

I could jump in front of a train,
I wouldn't feel a thing,
The opposite to now,
Or could slash my throat,
Maybe write a lil note,
Or hang myself,
Or jump from a high,

Whos cares so long as I die.
And a few may ask why?
Why am i so eager to go?
Truth is really I don't know,
But this is something I must try,
It might just allow me to fly,
Wouldn't it be wonderful to die?...

I had a dream the other night,
I was living with her,
Best dream I’ve ever had,
Take me to this dream world
I promise I’ll never be sad,

She’s dreamy,
Literally.
We were in a world
So simple, so sweet,
peacefully
We were in perfect
harmony,
How unrealistic I know.

I’ve tried many times since,
To go back to that land,
The one I love now so much,
Sleeping won’t bring me back,
So I use it to drive me,

I’m working towards that land,
I will get my life together,
Get a proper job, clean up, go sober,
Because of what I want,
That dream it’s pushing me,
A few years time,
I will look at my life that dream is what i will see.

Love me again,
As you once did,
Grow old with me,
Even have a kid?

Let my hands run down your cheek,
As I kiss you your lips,
Pulling you closer,
Hands now on your hips,
Moving up to your waist,
Kissing you nice and slow,
just how you like it,
We’ve got time to waste,

Let me cuddle you all night long,
As we used to do,
And let me just..gaze at you,
Hold those soft gentle hands,
The ones I’d hold all night,
And then to kiss you again,
Oh it’d be a delight,

I miss you my sweet,
I hope you miss me too,
Please my darling I beg,
This feeling is nothing new,
Release those feelings I know you’ve hid,
And love me again,
As you once did.

Its back again. The pain; Love.
She's not mine,
I guess she's his,
For now.
But he's most certainly not hers,
At least he doesn't act like it,

Many are his,
But he is nobody’s,
Selfish.

She deserves better,
Better than him,
Even better than me,
But if for that she'd settle I’d be in eternal glee,

She devotes her heart,
To him.
He doesn't even acknowledge.
My darling girl. She belongs with me,
I’ll treat her right,
I know could and I know I would.

I think this time it's worse,
I've fallen deeper,
It's more than love, it’s obsession,
From the way she moves, to how she talks, to things she finds funny,
Shes amazing, flawless, sweet like hunny,

And her eyes,
They glime in the light,
As if the rays of heaven have shown in my line of sight,
I could stay up till dawn staring at her,
Every seconds still as amazed with her as the last,
To her I beg come to me and leave him in the past.

I,
Linger in the pain caused by you,
Oppress the uncontrollable feelings I feel for you,
Value every thought, moment, memory I have with you,
Embrace the sensation of seeing you,
Yield to the might I see in you,
Obsess over every detail about you,
Understate my love for you..
I love you.

You drove me to this,
Your fault,
No choice for me,
Always a choice but not here
Not now somehow, you've decided this.
Your doing.

I press the blade down gently,
Run the cold edge along the
Popping vein of my wrist,
Blood, spewing out,
Like an uncontrollable fountain.

It hurts at first, stings,
But then you get used to it,
Feels good. An equilibrium of pure sensation
Not to mention the satisfaction,
Your, pure.

Demons drained out of me
A wondrous feeling, now I see!
But now the feeling is gone,
It just hurts as its always done,
The pain rises my fingers numb,
I collapse, my skin cold, lips blue,
As far as movement there was nothing i could do.

And now my corpse lay here to rest,
Did i fail one of life's tests?
This empty feeling, it's nothing new,
Now forever my dear, i shall be thinking of you.

By chance we met,
Oh! I’m glad we did,
Just like dreams
I’d have as a kid.
Straight away
I fell in love.

Your hands
holding mine,
they fit like a glove.
I knew right then
you were to be my wife,

You became the
brightness in my life.
Forever my sweet, rain or sun,
You My Dearest are The one.