I am
deeply
falling
in love
with someone
who I can't have
because I am
not a man.

i wonder if you remember
the presence of me
because i’m constantly reminded
by your faded memory

it lingered in the Sunday laundry
and ghoulishly appeared in a frame
popped up on the car radio
and frightened me all the same

as i packed your things,
it was in a card for my birthday
and eerily in a box of frosted flakes
i guess i never liked them anyway

later, it would quietly permeate
a passing tv commercial for charmin
remember how we used to laugh
i have those memories every now and then

i hope where you are is better
than where we were together

i wonder if you remember
the presence of me
because i was constantly reminded
by your faded memory

is anyone else scared that the kind of love they want does not exist and is unattainable? i think about it all the time

Thinking of you while i am writing this
We started so young, when we didn't know what it was
Lust overwhelmed us, the heat and satisfaction pulled us closer
So we thought it was love, we shared our flesh and blood
It lasted a while, good times
And i doubted your love
But you had secrets
I had to do it
I had to be sure
I tried be closer even
After this headache you caused me
Still you had secrets
I feel this deep regret
I don't know on whom i should show this anger
Why did they encourage us
They would have said to stop but they didn't
They thought we could be something else
But time had a different plan for us,
I remember you at least once a day.
Any familiar smell, trees,climate or ambience remind me of you
I try to sleep , but my pillow softness reminds me of your skin
I close my eyes and you are there
Even i know in my heart you are you
I still want you even its bad for me
I feel regret that i love you
They are some moments but the hell you showed me
Yes i feel regret

If someone
does not want me
it is not the end
of the world
but
if I do not want me
the world is nothing
but endings