Thinking of you while i am writing this
We started so young, when we didn't know what it was
Lust overwhelmed us, the heat and satisfaction pulled us closer
So we thought it was love, we shared our flesh and blood
It lasted a while, good times
And i doubted your love
But you had secrets
I had to do it
I had to be sure
I tried be closer even
After this headache you caused me
Still you had secrets
I feel this deep regret
I don't know on whom i should show this anger
Why did they encourage us
They would have said to stop but they didn't
They thought we could be something else
But time had a different plan for us,
I remember you at least once a day.
Any familiar smell, trees,climate or ambience remind me of you
I try to sleep , but my pillow softness reminds me of your skin
I close my eyes and you are there
Even i know in my heart you are you
I still want you even its bad for me
I feel regret that i love you
They are some moments but the hell you showed me
Yes i feel regret

If someone
does not want me
it is not the end
of the world
but
if I do not want me
the world is nothing
but endings

When I die
don't you dare
come  to my grave
and tell me
you love me

because those words
were the only thing
I would have needed
to stay.

I don't know what's worse;
Drowning beneath the waves
or dying from the thirst.

Some days
I feel everything at once.
Other days I feel nothing at all.

I want you
to undress
your heart,
and show me
how much it hurts,
so that
I can show you
how I intend
to make it
stop.

-jl