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Philomena Dec 2018
Sometimes I feel like dying
Only because I cannot stand to be alive

Find myself flying
Waiting to dive.

Taking in air
Only to choke.

Trying to be strong
Knowing i'm broke.

So why should I live
Only to die.

Is there something out there?
Something to being alive.
Philomena Dec 2018
How long can a love last?
Does it last forever?
Is there an expiration date?

Maybe it varies
person to person
match to match
time to time

Maybe love is just an illusion
Just an excuse for what we feel

But maybe
Just maybe
It is real
And maybe
Just maybe
This love will last forever
Hard to put an expiration date on a feeling
Philomena Dec 2018
You were the best man I have ever known

You always loved me
And I know you still do
Just from up above

You had the warmest smile
Accompanied with your mustache
And you gave the best hugs
When we would leave I would save you for last so it was the last hug of the night
A final impression to take home with me

You catered to my imagination, and never stifled me
Even when I wanted to cover myself in ribbon from head to toe and be a Christmas fairy
Or refused to eat Capt'n Crunch simply because my bother liked it

You made me strong
Always taking me out into the woods
Or letting me play just like the boys
Firing arrows in the garden
Or learning to ride motorcycle and ripping up fields

You taught me to be kind just like you
To love like you
And believe me
I want nothing more than to be just like you

The day you left me I felt sick before I even heard
Something wasn't right in the world
And when they told me I knew why
It tore me apart
I tried everything to keep myself busy
And put on the most beautiful black dress

I laid a daisy on you casket
Because Daises are your favorite just like me
And we put you in the ground

I'm told they found you in those woods we played in
That you died where you loved it most

And even though I cant hold you in my arms
I carry you in my heart
Always
About 5 years now, and not a day goes by where I'm not reminded of you. So thank you for being the best grandfather I could have asked for.
Philomena Dec 2018
In that moment
Everything was perfect
A long night leading to a perfect day
I woke up in your arms
You were so much softer than the ground we were on
I opened my eyes to you and the rising sun
It was so bright
Brilliant reds and yellows across the skyline of a waking city
Streaking light across a crystal blue sky
brighter and brighter until I had to tear my tired eyes from the light
I turned to you, still laying in your arms
I remember first those brilliant eyes
They captivated me
Then your dark hair and warm smile
Until I was looking at your face
A face I had grown so used to
"is't it beautiful"
I turned again to the young morning sun
It really was beautiful
But not half as beautiful as you
Short but sweet times with a great man
Philomena Dec 2018
I remember how sweet it was when you held my hand
Just to let me know you were there and that you cared
But with my hand pressed against yours you noticed

"what are those?"

You caught me off guard
And we were both looking at the faint reddish pink marks all over my wrists and arms

"it's nothing just the cat"

And you smiled a weak smile
Knowing **** well I didn't have a cat
I am currently eating a cucumber. That has nothing to do with the poem, it's just a very good cucumber.
Philomena Dec 2018
It's been a year and a half since I kissed Death
But much like a ****** boyfriend Death won't commit

I was a vicious flirt
With every temping drop of blood
The violent drinking
The immense lifelessness within me
Yet he never took the bait

I don't know how many times I put myself on the line
Feeling the sweet embrace surround me as my life drained out into puddles of crimson
Feeling all the pain and hate fade away into darkness
But he always let go
Let me fall from his arms back into this cold cruel world
Alone and Broken

Every letter I wrote for the people of this world
All for nothing
Every Goodbye
Just a lie
I threw myself at his feet
But he abandoned me when I needed him the most
Philomena Dec 2018
Whenever I stand in the mirror
I cant stand what I see
A miniature to a man I cannot stand
Cold Blue lifeless eyes
Hair as dark as the nights I struggled through
And skin as tarnished as the war zone in my heart

Whenever I see you in the mirror
I can't look away
The living embodiment of all I love
Eyes like the sky
Hair as soft as your voice
Arms for me to hideaway in

Whenever I see us together in the mirror
It feels surreal
As if I was dreaming
Cant help but hope you'll hold me there forever
Suspended there
You and me
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