Reminder:
It's better to be losing her in books
than losing her to someone else.

a.g

I finally got rid of my anxiety
Only to have it attack me
In my dreams

Your back is turned to me
And I am freezing cold

But I won't cover up,
Hoping your warm arms will reach out to me again

I can hear you voice in my head,
Clear as a summer day,
Speaking those dreadul words I heard so long ago

And I flinch
Just as I did when your words first slapped me in the face

I want to tear my flesh off
And break my rib cage open
And pull my heart out
To stop this awful pain

I want to fall off the edge of a cliff
Arms stretched out wide
And hit the ground silently
And never ever be found

I want to drown in deep blue waves
Have them pull me down deeper
Because their suffocation
Wouldn't hurt me like you do

I want you to understand what you do to me
And see how much it hurts
I want you to vow to never do so again
And help me fix my wounded soul

Every time I see you with her
Another star in my supercluster of hopes
**Burns
Out

I don't know if I'm in love with you
Or the idea of you

*And that terrifies me