Today I don't want to open my eyes
But I do
And the world still remains the same as if I never had

I'm the devil's daughter
She tells me don't water the flowers
she told me I burned away my father

I'm still calling out to the sky
I'm still wasting away inside

He says I'm a shadow
I follow everyone around
I'm stepped on

I ask him
What's this darkness
must demons watch over me

I dream of an angel
with beautiful wings
they're not for me

It's not that your weak
I'll carry that weight for you
You've been strong too long

I spent 83 days wondering why
1,992 hours crying
And 7,171,200 seconds dying a little more inside

I can't say I'm sorry for what happened before
I left because
I didn't matter to you anymore

drip... drip ..drip
feel the cold water
hit your empty stomach
just take little sips
stomach growls lull me to sleep
i don't like a full stomach
i don't care that it makes me weak
i don't see a cookie
i see 120 calories
22.8 g carbs, 14.4 g sugar
this is my daily life I'm not a rookie
water has zero grams
of sugar,carbs and calories
so I drink water
i have water for dinner
and for a snack
i avoid the scale
i don't weight myself anymore
cause it makes me feel more like
a beached whale
i don't eat breakfast
i eat one meal at 3pm
some people notice so
i just lie and say I'm fasting...