I want to softly whisper
incomplete poems
on your collar bones
that don't rhyme with anything
but your heavy breathing.

I want to bury my face
in the curves of your neck
because you smell like the winter clouds
and I've been gazing at the sky
since you left.

I'm trying to break out
From underneath the leaves
That fall on top of me
From the tree next to where I sleep

But then I remember
You're no longer there
To help me crawl my way back out
So that I can finally sleep

I'll try to pretend
That this isn't the end
And fill my thoughts with memories
Of your heart across my hands

I just wish I would've been more gentle
And not have held it to hard
And too close to my own
Because now I don't feel at home.

Even though I knew it from very start,
That there is someone who owns your heart;
Even if I see,you're not sitting next to me
I'm still hoping that someday you will be.

I cherished all the memories we shared in our school bus
Keeping them alive within my mind,like a big fuss
My heart keeps on yearning for you to be near me
"Why?" You asked me."I love you."I said simply.

I can no longer control this throbbing heart and mind,
All this love for you made me completely blind.
I can't see anybody but only you,my dear.
You say you like somebody,"Its me" I endear.

My heart silently cries the tears from deep within,
The pain won't stop aching but I just keep it in.
If only you can see the one loving you is me
I'll do anything for you,anything,just tell me.

Sometimes,I ask myself: How long will I survive?
With you there by his side,letting romance revive;
Whilst shattering my heart into tiny pieces once again,
Leaving me with only scars that forever will be in pain.

I've tried often to soothe myself with this one big fat lie,
That I'll be happy for you,just to see you smile.
These tears keep pouring down as fast as a river flow,
Since I can't believe myself for letting you just blow.

I've gone crazy,my dear,crazy over this one sided love,
But only you can cure this lovesick,I had just said above.
With all your heart,please share that love with me.
Save me.Love me.Save all your love,for only me.

--------Anonymous-------

These lungs are stones lying heavy in my chest
Breathing in the nicotine toys you smoke so slyly from your chapped lips
While under your arm in the church parking lot
You pray to who you call God
As the skeletons fall from your cigarette
Begging that we stay bound until the hour's death

  Is it the scars you hide under your stubble that attracts me to your sin?
  Or the ghosts in your pores that smell of tobacco and mint?
They loved you so much, am I one of them now?
You could have done better but I'm afraid that I can't
     You're the only type I believe keeps my sane
     You're the only type that breaks my brittle brain
How many more cracks do I dare sustain?

  But all of you leave scars under my stubble
  And the ghosts in my pores smell like tobacco and mint
I'm three packs in and I'm more alone than ever
Maybe tomorrow will bring a better "forever."

i remember that night
we snuck into
the abandoned house
next door
with my father's liquor
and your mother's cigarettes
after we had too much
to drink
you took a drag
and finally spoke
"how cruel
is it
for someone
to leave
just like that
and never
come back"
it wasn't until morning
when i realized
you weren't
talking
about
the building

IT WASN'T JUST A COINCIDENCE THAT WHEN YOU LEFT
THE HANDS ON THE CLOCK STOPPED MOVING
OR
THAT YOUR MOTHER CALLED
ASKING FOR YOU
WONDERING WHERE YOU WERE
EVEN THOUGH SHE'S BEEN GONE
FOR TWO YEARS
YOU WERE LIKE THE OCEAN TIDES
ALWAYS PULLING ME IN
AND PUSHING ME BACK OUT
I WANTED TO DROWN IN YOUR INFINITY
NOT KNOWING YOU WERE MORE LIKE A TSUNAMI
UNFORGIVING AND RUTHLESS
I WANTED TO BE THE ONE WHO MADE YOU TREMBLE WHEN YOU HEARD MY NAME
BUT INSTEAD
IT IS ME
WHO CAN'T STOP SHAKING AT THE THOUGHT OF YOUR LAUGHTER
CAN'T STOP SCREAMING AT THE THOUGHT OF YOUR VOICE
I THINK I CAN HEAR GOD LAUGHING AT ME
EVERYTHING IS SO MUCH LOUDER
WHEN YOU ARE NOT HERE
IF THESE PILLS AND BOTTLES WON'T BRING YOU BACK
ATLEAST I'LL FORGET YOUR TASTE
DARLING PLEASE COME BACK
PLEASE COME BACK