Why fear nightmares
when there is
the false beautiful reality
that we call
**a dream

I always
remember
that there's
tomorrow
when
I'm with you
and I'd
look forward
to tomorrow
cause I
remember
that there's
you

He spoke
things broke

There's nothing
more heartbreaking
than the feeling of
being alone
even when there are
so many people
around you

If I could begin to be
half of what you think of me
I could do just about anything
I could even learn
to love
like you

I used to believe that
good things happen
to good people
apparently,
that's not the case
anymore

Is *it so Bad That I  Told You
How I  feel ?*

Maybe, I shouldn't have
Maybe, I shouldn't regret
Maybe, I should've waited
Maybe, I should've left

But this
...
things can't be left like this

How could I
deserve
such a glow
of blessed light
radiating
with every
encounter
like photons
merging
to make
stars and suns
explaining
the infinite
universe
above
and
beyond

Nighttime coffee
with just the two of us
etching memories
on that side of the shop
laughing, smiling, crying
with the cold air around
remembering and forgetting
whatever worries we had before
looking back at that moment
where hearts were
as transparent as they can be
the time we lost was realization
that we can never be
unless you make it be
for there will be a day
not too long from now
that you and I will part
farther than the universe
can ever imagine
where your pulse grows stronger
and mine grows weaker

if today or the next
will be my (hopefully not) last
know that I want to be
the last who'll ever be
the one who hurts you

make
the weight
of the world
feel like
nothing

I had a dream once
where the light
finally took me
and the pain stopped,
eternal bliss and euphoria
stepped up and gunned
me down to never ending joy
as if for once,
the universe cooperated
but you looked at me
with a pained look
in your eyes
more than I have ever seen
and it hurt me
to see you scream in agony
as your tears fell
clattering on my deathbed
wishing I could be there
to wipe your tears of
your lashes

but I lay there helplessly
only to regret
not holding you more
than I should have
before the light took me

Why does
a single
smile
make me
feel
all the
movements
of the universe?

Maybe,
I was never
meant
to be happy

how can you stand there
so beautifully
and know nothing of it?

You're the girl
that eats too much
too little
Yet reminds me all the same
to not do so
like all the food
is forbidden to my mouth
as it is welcomed in yours
and yet all your meals
the smallest and tallest
you un-finish just the same

You're the girl
that sings songs
with different lyrics
like each one from
the same writer
even your favorite song
would have different lyrics
every time
even your favorite singer
would be surprised to hear
different words to their rhymes

You're the girl
whose own forgetfulness
digs her own grave
bringing the fate of the sea
and the future of her children at stake
making you more dangerous
that at times make me shake
as you stare blankly into space

You're the girl
who hides all too much
yet claims to have shown me everything
and with most instances
of the past brought up
is forsaken and replaced
by an unforgiving face

Yes, you are the girl
that my mother warned me about
from my lips to my soul
stolen by your kiss
and with every embrace comes
a commonly unwelcomed warmth;
every emotion brings me closer to insane

but
you are also the girl
my mother never told me about
the unreasonably kind
and unusually gentle
and with every smile
comes sincerity
despite whatever darkness
hides behind it

You are the girl
who cared more than
I never thought could be
and loved the monster
I never thought
was inside me

You are the girl
who embraced all the warmth
I could give; all that I have
looked at me and smiled
like what I have is more than enough
even though what I have
will never be enough

Yes
You are the girl
who forgets all the songs and lyrics you loved
but you remembered me;
thought of me
more than I never could do for myself

Yes
You are the girl
who stole my lips and my soul
but you stole my broken heart
that I never thought was still there
and stuck all the pieces with every kiss
with no trace of a shattered piece

You are the girl
that looked beyond
whatever future I had left
and looked a plans A-Z
with every possible alphabet
while I stare at you
thinking of how long
will I still be able to

You're the girl
my mother should've told me about
You're the girl
that should've been all this time
You're the girl
I never though would be but did
You're the girl
You are THE girl

I still yearn for the day that
you will look at me
differently
but with the same eyes
I fell in love with

We knew what we felt for each other
though sadly, they face other directions
A few seconds, we spoke only the two of us
in those seconds were the words that crushed me
"I'll be a bad girl"
...
Why?
Why do you do this to yourself?
Why did it return?

I'm not sure anymore
if I watched over you
too much
or
too little
but in any
possible circumstance
...
You shouldn't do this

We're all in a constant wave of particles
moving randomly through double slits
waiting for us to arrive where we are
without knowing where we came from

You
deserve
love
more
than
those
stars
you
love
to
cherish

It hurts
to see
people
spend on
sweet emptiness
when you
have not much left
to spend on

Don't cry, my dear
Don't come to my grave
Sadly,
I cannot wipe off your tears from here

Maybe, I don't understand what it means
time after time again, I've been told
"You've done enough"
....
WHAT DOES THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?
....
When I love too much
When I love too little
When I cry too much
When I cry too little
When I fight too much
When I fight too little
When I care too much
When I care too little
....
Sometimes, It's not enough
what I think is enough
cause what I do is never enough
Sometimes, I've had enough
of what people say
"enough"

"I was ready to die anytime
but then I met a special girl
She made me want to go on living
and for the first time in a long time
I was afraid of death"

And yet
the carbon
that could've been
stars
instead made
you

If music was the closest thing to the mind of God
I'd write songs and score sheets with you name
For every time one would sing a song about you
Your name will be embedded in His grace

If writing was the greatest thing mankind has ever made
I'd write every poem, ode, sonnet in your name
For every human being that reads about you
Your beautiful name will be immortalized in our brains

If art is the only way to see in a mind of another
Every painting, drawing, sketch sculpture, would have your face
For every moment that one would see a work of art
They would see what I see in you every time you'd smile

She's more like the gentle light
that reflects from the street lamps
after the heavy rains and storms

You love her, She loves you
Compromise

You love her, She loves him
Compromise

In love,
make a way
not
*make way